Cateturry3turrycan
Bluelighter
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- Mar 12, 2019
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She was someone i met thru a mutual female friend who buys her boi from her. That mutual friend one day got arrested and i without missing a beat began THE snowball into full on intravenous heroine addiction.
She called me crying her eyes out trapped 300 miles away after a deal went south and ber ride bailed. I alone mounted her rescue and upon bringng her back to my apartment i told her she was staying with me.
See i did and still find her atttactive but lets be real she was my heroine dealer. She setup shop trapping out of my place. Id begun to do nearly all her runs as she keeps me high all day. This has gome on for 2 months now... We decided officially we were together. Changing ur status after 7 years of being alone on facebook is a huge deal.
As cliché as it may be.
Certain things have begun manifesting.. The first thing she goes to if she feels slighted in any way is how shes no longer giving me dope. To ' enjoy the sick ' .
She constantly passed out in bed after shooting burning huge cigarette burns into my serta mattress that i saved u to buy....
(Unrelated: best decision id ever made.. In my preheroine addiction days l the purchase of that mattress changed everything Go lay on something as dangerously comfortable and tell me im wrong)
After nodding she wakes up to become irate that shes missing dope she couldn't possibly have done.. And im always the thief... This happens every morning.. Ive neved taken any from her she didnt give me. Thats something i can't fucking prove though.
She becomes so hateful when she talks to me .
She bitches about her phone messing up yet refuses to let me examine it.. I build gaming rigs as a hobby .
Why wouldnt she let me just try
She has lupus yet refuses to better any aspect pf her life. She says she was given 20 years ..22 years ago... And she has just this fatalistic attitude towards it.
But she has two kids she has to let her parents raise due to her drug addiction.. But. Im not a parent so bringing them into the points im making here is foolish so
She has been raped on multiple occasions. Molested by her father... Who is raising her daughter....
But she keeps bringing up how im a liae and thief...when i do my best to never lie and i damn sure am no thief.
Theres a lot more i am hesitant to bring up on the first post of this because sometimes these are unanswered...
Im not addicted so badly that in 12 hours ill begin getting the sweats and shakes. Im not looking just to feel well most mornings ..
I know if i threw her out id be throwing my guts up in withdrawal.. I hear day 3 is the worst
Lost in all this is i finally get to fall asleep holding someone again. I finally found someone i can share my life with Its been so many lonely years
My life has lost all meaning. Beccause maybe i deserve the way she does me.
She pays no rent. She buys no groceries. Pays no utllities.. I make her runs sometimes netting $4000 a day
Yet im easily just a thief
Help
She called me crying her eyes out trapped 300 miles away after a deal went south and ber ride bailed. I alone mounted her rescue and upon bringng her back to my apartment i told her she was staying with me.
See i did and still find her atttactive but lets be real she was my heroine dealer. She setup shop trapping out of my place. Id begun to do nearly all her runs as she keeps me high all day. This has gome on for 2 months now... We decided officially we were together. Changing ur status after 7 years of being alone on facebook is a huge deal.
As cliché as it may be.
Certain things have begun manifesting.. The first thing she goes to if she feels slighted in any way is how shes no longer giving me dope. To ' enjoy the sick ' .
She constantly passed out in bed after shooting burning huge cigarette burns into my serta mattress that i saved u to buy....
(Unrelated: best decision id ever made.. In my preheroine addiction days l the purchase of that mattress changed everything Go lay on something as dangerously comfortable and tell me im wrong)
After nodding she wakes up to become irate that shes missing dope she couldn't possibly have done.. And im always the thief... This happens every morning.. Ive neved taken any from her she didnt give me. Thats something i can't fucking prove though.
She becomes so hateful when she talks to me .
She bitches about her phone messing up yet refuses to let me examine it.. I build gaming rigs as a hobby .
Why wouldnt she let me just try
She has lupus yet refuses to better any aspect pf her life. She says she was given 20 years ..22 years ago... And she has just this fatalistic attitude towards it.
But she has two kids she has to let her parents raise due to her drug addiction.. But. Im not a parent so bringing them into the points im making here is foolish so
She has been raped on multiple occasions. Molested by her father... Who is raising her daughter....
But she keeps bringing up how im a liae and thief...when i do my best to never lie and i damn sure am no thief.
Theres a lot more i am hesitant to bring up on the first post of this because sometimes these are unanswered...
Im not addicted so badly that in 12 hours ill begin getting the sweats and shakes. Im not looking just to feel well most mornings ..
I know if i threw her out id be throwing my guts up in withdrawal.. I hear day 3 is the worst
Lost in all this is i finally get to fall asleep holding someone again. I finally found someone i can share my life with Its been so many lonely years
My life has lost all meaning. Beccause maybe i deserve the way she does me.
She pays no rent. She buys no groceries. Pays no utllities.. I make her runs sometimes netting $4000 a day
Yet im easily just a thief
Help