lars90
Bluelighter
Well first of I'm not doing any drugs but weed and alcohol. I stopped doing that though a while ago and I take breaks from it every time I use it like 8 weeks. So today, and this wasn't the first time, I met up with some friends I just totally felt weird from the inside. I felt totally okward bad wrongly positioned, socially okward, weird, bad and just totally not normal. I don't know what I can do about it I mean I'm only 15 is this just like a phase that every teenager goes though? I really have 0 self confidence and seem not to be funny at all. I fell like I'm just a sad soul lost. Here in the wrong place. It's like all of my good feelings and confidence are locked up in a cave inside me and only come out though drugs. I don't even do them on a daly basis only like once or twice a week. I don't want this I just want to be normal :/
Update:
I feel more selfconfident but I found out I have social phobia. When im dancing or what ever I feel like my stomach is tuning around. I cant bring out any straight sentances and feel misplaced.
Its wierd because it just happens sometimes. Somtimes Im totally fine too. I had it for like A week a drank some alkohol and smoked some weed then last friday it faded after that and I still dont have it now... (just an exsample...)
Update:
I feel more selfconfident but I found out I have social phobia. When im dancing or what ever I feel like my stomach is tuning around. I cant bring out any straight sentances and feel misplaced.
Its wierd because it just happens sometimes. Somtimes Im totally fine too. I had it for like A week a drank some alkohol and smoked some weed then last friday it faded after that and I still dont have it now... (just an exsample...)
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