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Mental Health I feel like im a waste of life

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AlwaysHighandMad

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I dont know what to do,i dont have any feelings anymore,i dont seem to care about the future,my self,family members and just anything in general.i only numb the emptiness i feel by getting high.i use to be a outgoing kid,very social and had good realationships with people but now....well idk i just need help.please
 
You seem to be still very young and have your whole life to change whatever this is that is making you down.
Try to sober up.
Something that made me feel good was volunteering. You will feel good about yourself. Don´t put yourself down like this.
Good luck! :)
 
When everything in life seems dull and meaningless you must make change happen. This can be hard to do because one of the hallmarks of that state of mind is a lack of motivation, but concentrate on small changes, one at a time. Exercising is one thing that changes body and mind at the same time. Even if all you do is get out of your house and go for a walk every day, it can lift your spirits enough to tackle other change. One thing you need to do is to stop getting high--that is just prolonging and deepening the depression and apathy. Give yourself all the necessary care that a body/brain needs to heal: eat right, get good sleep and exercise. These may seem ridiculously basic and simplistic when you are going through such a dramatic shift in personality but believe me those three things are the strongest medicine around.<3

Do you have any old interests that you have let go that you could try to connect with?

I just noticed the "mad" part of your user name. That tells me that there is a passion still alive in you. When you feel a generalized anger it doesn't reveal much but try really examining what you feel angry about. Usually it comes from not feeling in control of your own life. Depending on how young you are, some lack of control might be determined by school and parents but some might be due to your own ways of holding yourself back from who you truly are.
 
i feel like this too, except i dont even do drugs.

meds im on make me lazy unmotivated and tired all the time, i dont have much interest in anything i think i have what they call anhedonia, yet its the meds that keep me sane.

everything seems so difficult and too much of an effort.
 
AlwaysHighandMad said:
I dont know what to do,i dont have any feelings anymore,i dont seem to care about the future,my self,family members and just anything in general.i only numb the emptiness i feel by getting high.i use to be a outgoing kid,very social and had good realationships with people but now....well idk i just need help.please
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how old are you? what drug have you used? no feelings,sounds like anti psychotics to me
 
Idk even know if anyone will see this.but if youre feeling this way STOP smoking,drinking,shooting whatever the fuck you do to alter your chemistry.it helped me almost immediately,if you need to escape life do it by going outside,taking a nice long walk,play with your dog(if you have one)xd but honestly i have seen drugs ruin so many peoples lives,some just from weed.if you're one of those people that believe weed is healthy FUCK you,the fucking shit i have been through for weed are not worth it.for gods sake go work out,go try to get with that girl you've had your eye on, anything to get that stimulation your brain craves and needs.sure drugs are ok but man there just not worth to go out of your way for.pleaseeeee if anyone is reading this that has felt simmilar to how i felt(And still sometimes do)please help your self think positive,go get a job and live life to the fullest.

Mane i love life.

Peace out guys
 
Wow, glad to hear that you have turned things around!

Weed has this effect on many people but it is good to remember that it also does not have that effect on many people. The goal is to learn yourself without any consciousness changing substances. Then, when and if you choose to use them, it is not for self-destructive purposes.
 
AlwaysHighandMad said:
I dont know what to do,i dont have any feelings anymore,i dont seem to care about the future,my self,family members and just anything in general.i only numb the emptiness i feel by getting high.i use to be a outgoing kid,very social and had good realationships with people but now....well idk i just need help.please
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Man, I have been exactly where you are/were when posting this. I just wanted to say that the solution is almost definitly to get clean. I was at that point and did the same thing you said, using drugs to fill the emptiness. This was years ago, when i was a teenager living at home in high school. I was very social and had a lot of good friends, but i started using heroin and crack at 16. After a year i was at the point that you described. I was on the verge of suicide when my parents sent me to a wilderness program, then treatment, sober house, etc. Once I got clean, and learned how to live a productive life while sober, I got everything back. I made new friends, was social and happy again, worked a good job and actually cared about life again. This was a long while ago and I am using again and have had bumps in the road since then, but i just wanted to make the point that getting clean and working towards recovery gave me hope back and made me grateful for my life and everything in it, which I still am to this day.
 
12monkeysnyc said:
Man, I have been exactly where you are/were when posting this. I just wanted to say that the solution is almost definitly to get clean. I was at that point and did the same thing you said, using drugs to fill the emptiness. This was years ago, when i was a teenager living at home in high school. I was very social and had a lot of good friends, but i started using heroin and crack at 16. After a year i was at the point that you described. I was on the verge of suicide when my parents sent me to a wilderness program, then treatment, sober house, etc. Once I got clean, and learned how to live a productive life while sober, I got everything back. I made new friends, was social and happy again, worked a good job and actually cared about life again. This was a long while ago and I am using again and have had bumps in the road since then, but i just wanted to make the point that getting clean and working towards recovery gave me hope back and made me grateful for my life and everything in it, which I still am to this day.
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Dude im so happy for you.i know it had to be tough getting through addiction and that dreaded emptiness some of us have the misfortune to feel.but soberiety will only make things better:D.Im still on the road to becoming a happy,positive person.hell i drink my self to sleep every night.but its a long road and at least we are on the way to the end of that road,I wish you the best of luck mane

Peace
 
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