You’re going to be OK. For real! You’re so young and your brain will heal. It will just take a little time, something you’re fortunate to have. I bet this spring is going to be a huge turnaround for you if you stay clean, something I imagine won’t be difficult for you due to your concerns.
The thing with needing to look at screens all the time or gaming is not unusual at all. I’d say the majority of young adults are in the same situation you are, but simoky don’t care. You do and are at heightened awareness. I’m not sure what part of the world or states you’re from, but see if there’s a park nearby and when the weather is nice yu can spend the there. A place to chill and read a book, comic books, magazines. If you need your phone or tablet while adjusting that’s OK. Give yourself time. That’s super important.
Thanks so much for your reply.
Im from Netherlands.
The weather is pretty bad right now but I did start to read books again 2 weeks ago. Its really relieving.
I cant even look at screens because i became way too sensitive to them. I used to look at screens 10 hours a day but now I already get lightheadedness and other symptoms after 1 hour thats why I decided to quit gaming too.
Ill see what time brings me