i don't know why

[NJshygirl]

i don't know why i cry sometimes,
my heart seems to know, but my head has not yet found an explanation.
i don't know why you people can't tell that this is just a fake laugh and a plastic smile, but maybe you do know, and i'm only fooling myself.
i don't know why i still feel like i'm sinking,but quite possibly it's because you pushed me and then so graciously kicked me while i was down.
i do know that it's not fair that my mother cries because she wishes my eyes would smile like they always used to, that i would be the carefree girl i once was.
i do know that i want to move on now, but it's so hard to try to open myself up and risk it all again.
i do know that i can't hate you, because the hurt you've caused has only made me stronger and that you cannot ever take away.

 

[cherub]

hey girl,
Just keep you chin up, nice to see you writting in here again! you been astray for a bit, missed you.
I enjoy this, cause i sense the hostile feelings and the balance your trying to get.
good work.

 

[FoX]

Very raw.
{{{NJSHY}}}
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A mystery inside an enigma wrapped in something orange and fuzzy....
"Ed Meese should be ass-fucked by an acid-crazed elk."-Dr. Hunter S. Thompson
"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio. Than are dreamt of in your philosophy." -William Shakespeare, Hamlet

 

[lilygirl]

it feels like you're reading my mind

i'm sorry whoever "you" was in your poem hurt you, a good friend of mine said to me once:
"life is constant motion. Lingering in any moment is just asking to get slammed"
and that's really true. People will expect you to be what you used to be, but everyone changes as they continue their lives and gain wisdom through experience. I think that's kind of what your poem was addressing.
So keep experiencing things and discovering yourself and who knows, maybe you won't need that plastic smile afterall.
~lil
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"you will get this chance but once, don't let simple shit get you down"
therapy is expensive, poppin bubble wrap is cheap. you decide.

 

[Angelight]

your beautiful

 

[Aja909]

 

[E-girl]

something i think we all can relate to... and i agree with cherub, its nice to see you in here

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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
Find one person you can count on forever, one person you can love forever, and one person you can be with forever... and if you're lucky, it will all be the same person.
"Live for the memories."

 

[harraser]

"they will always kick you when youre down,
but dont you let their kicking get you down"
-Rob Flynn
just be strong