suki_lives
Bluelighter
It hides itself from others,
But lets me know its always there,
A little nudge into emptiness,
A disastrous push into despair,
It laughs because it knows,
That I can't break free,
From its grasp, its force,
It's part of me and knows who I am,
Who I was,
It wants to change me,
Overtake me,
It puts up a hard fight,
It's getting stronger and knows it,
The sky is getting light,
Almost morning and I haven't slept yet,
It does not care though,
It keeps me awake, taunting me,
Tearing right into my core,
Mocking my existence,
Making ME mock my existence,
Tempting me to rip my insides out,
To stand with it face to face,
To let it hold my hand when I am crying,
And lead me into more darkness,
To fill me up with more nothingness,
It dances on my heartache,
It ridicules my tears,
It pushes me through the dark,
And hits me where it hurts,
Everywhere.
But lets me know its always there,
A little nudge into emptiness,
A disastrous push into despair,
It laughs because it knows,
That I can't break free,
From its grasp, its force,
It's part of me and knows who I am,
Who I was,
It wants to change me,
Overtake me,
It puts up a hard fight,
It's getting stronger and knows it,
The sky is getting light,
Almost morning and I haven't slept yet,
It does not care though,
It keeps me awake, taunting me,
Tearing right into my core,
Mocking my existence,
Making ME mock my existence,
Tempting me to rip my insides out,
To stand with it face to face,
To let it hold my hand when I am crying,
And lead me into more darkness,
To fill me up with more nothingness,
It dances on my heartache,
It ridicules my tears,
It pushes me through the dark,
And hits me where it hurts,
Everywhere.

