I don't feel anything

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I've been trying so hard. going to this hospital five days a week, 8 to 4, and I was really hoping I'd feel better by now. but all I feel is empty inside, like I'll never be the person I was before drugs. it's not that I want to necessarily be that person, but I want to feel something like I used to. there's no beauty in anything and there's no love anywhere. I can't even feel pain like I use to... I just don't want anything. I tired to express to my doctors how I feel, but I guess it isn't really serious because they haven't done anything and are saying I can leave by Tuesday. maybe I just think too much of myself. I don't know. I don't think I'm thinking properly. I don't think I ever will again. and I don't even give a shit. I almost wish I did, but there's some sort of relief that comes with the forgetfulness. I don't know, I don't know. I want to feel human again.

 

[burn out]

what drugs did you take and how long? i think with enough time off drugs (and eating a good diet plus exercising) you might start to feel again. maybe not the way you did before drugs, but enough to enjoy life.

 

[User Name Here]

What burn_out said. It takes a while for your brain to get back to "normal" again, especially on a chemical level. Long term drug abuse will seriously alter your brain and it takes more than a few weeks to straighten that out. It took me a good six months before I started feeling "normal" again (as in a good six months sober and healthy).

 

[OpiYum]

I felt just like u at the end of december, and was like that for about 6 months. Dont worr y it gets better. I started feeling better in January after being suicidal around New Years. now im pretty happy. it can happen for u. just be patient. life cant always be perfect. just ride out the hard times. there is light coming soon

 

[Captain.Heroin]

^^ OpiYum is so correct about all of the above, things will get better soon.

 

[Dr.kush]

I know how you feel, to me it sounds like you might have been taken opiates. They made me feel like that. If you can try to get some Anti-deppressants they helped me a lot. It will take time to get better, but it WILL get better. I know its very but it will be worth it, you will grow from this expirence.

I hope you the BEST!

 

[shahab6]

start exercising you would be surprised how soon you will feel better.
start going on walks or start jogging.

 

[nautilus505]

I've been trying so hard. going to this hospital five days a week, 8 to 4, and I was really hoping I'd feel better by now. but all I feel is empty inside, like I'll never be the person I was before drugs. it's not that I want to necessarily be that person, but I want to feel something like I used to. there's no beauty in anything and there's no love anywhere. I can't even feel pain like I use to... I just don't want anything. I tired to express to my doctors how I feel, but I guess it isn't really serious because they haven't done anything and are saying I can leave by Tuesday. maybe I just think too much of myself. I don't know. I don't think I'm thinking properly. I don't think I ever will again. and I don't even give a shit. I almost wish I did, but there's some sort of relief that comes with the forgetfulness. I don't know, I don't know. I want to feel human again.

I know this is my first post, only registered a few hours ago..

so have mercy with me,or something..

if you say,you want to feel something, or want to feel human again - that's the prove that you DO give a shit,and that you still have some feelings and love for yourself inside... if you didn't, you wouldn't even care to write this- you would just shut down or something.. I hope you know what I mean...

point is (as I've been in the same situation before) - there is still hope. always is. as long as you're breathing and blood is circulating inside your body - you're alive. and that's all that matters. Just to be is what counts. we got this super special chance to exist..

I hope I make at least some sense,as I'm really tired and been awake for 30+ hours now..