Uh oh. Now I am aware of the addictive potential. I am aware that I should not use what I acquired for more than 2 days in a row and preferably not at all consecutively in terms of back to back days. I only purchased one ounce. It is available at a store down the street (not at all low quality). Sue me.
I mean I am in recovery but I completely rationalized and minimized this. Perhaps I wasn't even concerned about making a rational choice and felt this is just a plant so why should I not try it? On another site I hang out on (NoFap) a fellow vegan user was talking about how he used it and I kind of shunned it as being highly addictive. I mean if someone feels they need it for a viable reason I shouldn't shun it but I didn't want anyone to get an idea of using it by him talking about it I guess. Anyways back to the present situation here.
I drank probably over 10g lol but not much more than that. Two tablespoons at most I would say. I think I should hide it away from home in the morning and not touch it until later or maybe just use it tomorrow and then stash it for another time. Definitely not trying to start a kratom habit here.
I guess I will channel it socially here now in some social threads. See ya around. And btw I am not drinking alcohol with it nor doing the stuff on the net that corrodes my sense of being well which leads to drinking and using propylhexedrine. On that note I was reading the fatality reports about kratom on Erowid and one of them involved propylhexedrine. I tried kratom once before with a good amount of alcohol and propylhexedrine in my system and vomited my brains out. This is a wake-up call right here: https://erowid.org/plants/kratom/kratom_fda_death_case_reports_2017-12.pdf
I mean I am in recovery but I completely rationalized and minimized this. Perhaps I wasn't even concerned about making a rational choice and felt this is just a plant so why should I not try it? On another site I hang out on (NoFap) a fellow vegan user was talking about how he used it and I kind of shunned it as being highly addictive. I mean if someone feels they need it for a viable reason I shouldn't shun it but I didn't want anyone to get an idea of using it by him talking about it I guess. Anyways back to the present situation here.
I drank probably over 10g lol but not much more than that. Two tablespoons at most I would say. I think I should hide it away from home in the morning and not touch it until later or maybe just use it tomorrow and then stash it for another time. Definitely not trying to start a kratom habit here.
I guess I will channel it socially here now in some social threads. See ya around. And btw I am not drinking alcohol with it nor doing the stuff on the net that corrodes my sense of being well which leads to drinking and using propylhexedrine. On that note I was reading the fatality reports about kratom on Erowid and one of them involved propylhexedrine. I tried kratom once before with a good amount of alcohol and propylhexedrine in my system and vomited my brains out. This is a wake-up call right here: https://erowid.org/plants/kratom/kratom_fda_death_case_reports_2017-12.pdf