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I cant seem to gain control on meth use.. For more than a week or so

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dYsFunktnl

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Well hello again TDS and all your humble peeps, its not my first time here and wont be my last so hear me out if you will.


well where to begin,

ive been a regular meth user for the better part of my teenage years, which then turned into habitual use during early twenties and that lead to my first visit to the dark side, things got better and i had control everything was sweet.

then

for the last three years i admit in those three years that i have had -no- control at all. this cannot continue like this much longer as I feel i wont be here by xmas at this rate. so im trying to i dunno,.. gain/learn some control methods an share my story in the hope whilst im reading this or engaging in conversation it will otherwise distract me from reality enough to not use for a while.

I know ive left this fairly short and there is little about me or my lifestyle so ill say it like this. I was and had everything i needed, wanted and desired in life, took too many drugs at work, home and social life which caused me to loose my career, house and social life.

but to be honest all of that wasnt fullfilling anyway if you get what i mean.. so the addiction affliction continued and it was everyone elses fault things where no longer good or worth living for.

recently almost like an apiphany i realised its all MY fault and the only way to change it is not to live in denial however., whilst i have the intentions of slowing down my use, putting that into action scares the living poo poo's out of me and then actually trying to not use for a while becomes mission impossible. i struggle and smoke weed alot to compensate the first few days which just helps me passout/sleep a bit and recover but as soon as i feel human again its like my brain goes "ding, time to get on" and takes over me..

so yeaaaaaah.

stopping from monday morning and getting on again on friday night doesnt seem to be helping at all and neither did the denial has anyone got any better suggestions?

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thanks,
dYsFunk

Meth is not the solution,..
 
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My advice: don't just quit. Maybe just take your dosages down a notch for now. Take it one step at a time. Patience is key.
 
It can be a really uncomfortable experience when trying to break meth addictions. Especially after 3 years of having no control.
So don't be too hard on yourself if you give in.. This is generally a part of recovery that most addicts will go through.
If you are finding it hard to go cold turkey, perhaps you should set yourself targets for cutting down & progressively quit..
Start off by halving the amount you would normally consume, and work down from there.
When you feel tempted, think back to how you once lived a clean life, rich with qualities that have been stolen from you by this artificial buzz.. Its really not worth it anymore, not after x amount of years dabbling in & out of the cycle.
Good luck <3
 
TheAppleCore said:
My advice: don't just quit. Maybe just take your dosages down a notch for now. Take it one step at a time. Patience is key.
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Meth is one drug I can think of that you really should just stop using, no matter where you're at with it. There's no physical withdrawal; it's all a psychological mind fuck.

It's important for the OP to get away from all places and people that are going to even possibly lead to the OP using meth again, and it's something they're going to have to want for themselves.

It is a drug I think you should just stop using, no matter where you're at with it. There's a lot of reasons not to use methamphetamine. There's very few reasons to actually use it (ADHD and weight loss due to obesity), although at one point there were many more approved medical uses for it. I would only suggest someone use methamphetamine if they were looking at a rather premature death due to severe obesity, or for someone who is obese and have tried to lose weight every way possible and it doesn't seem to be helping. For ADHD, I think methamphetamine isn't and shouldn't be a first-line approach for treatment.
 
thankyou for the support thus far, things are kinda same ol same ol, so far nothing has changed for the worse however nothing has gotten better :( riding it out sux
 
well i fucked up after a week.. weeeeeeeeeeeweeeeeeeeeewooooooooooooowooooooooo time goes so slow as it races past me.

hmmm
 
I'm new here, but am going through something similar. Addict to addict, we all have to take this day by day. Some can quit like that with little to no problems, others aren't so lucky. That doesn't mean you're any less or more, what matters is that you still have the WILL to try which means you're strong enough to fight the battle and get/stay clean. Believe me, I know it's hard. More recently I got to see 60 whole days of sobriety, and it was beautiful... those days are all I think about now, and what I strive to get back again. It didn't take much for me to give back in, and being a bipolar didn't persuade my decision much either. Everyone is different, we come from all different walks of life, but regardless of whatever - deserve to be genuinely happy. You'll get there. Hold your head up, keep breathing, and take control of YOUR life again.
 
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