Okay, I'd rather this kept in this section if possible, thanks
I'm a guy, age 24
so far not very religious
way things are now I don't see myself getting religious at all in the future
I am an extremely sexual person, my mind is almost always filled with thoughts and fantasies
While sex isn't my most favorite activity, it certainly is a favorite
Thing is, I don't like to discuss or watch anything too sexual
Hell, I try to keep masturbation to a minimum as much as I can
My sex drive is always on, but most of the time I can counter it with keeping my head on a project or on work that can give me focus
I don't always have the mental strength for that, however
sex is still on my mind a lot
I guess most of the time
I always dream about sex in some form or another, fantasies and altered memories of myself in situations X Y Z, very vivid stuff, a lot of things I know will never happen again or ever
I always wake up graceful and happy that I'm living to see another day, that feeling takes about 7-8 hours to go away (drugs are sometimes involved)
My appetite is almost always absent but I still make myself eat 2 meals a day
Right now I'm single, haven't slept or made any physical contact with anyone in over 4 months, I think maybe 5
I kinda stopped counting since... hm
I don't plan on getting intimate with people anymore, but you never know...
It feels to me like it's ok to keep fighting the urges to age 80 when I die, hopefully later, but deep down I know that's not how it's going to be
I guess I'm deluding myself
actually yes, I'm definitely delusional about that part
It still feels balanced somehow, or maybe I'm just full of myself
and of crap
So yeah basically that means I also avoid entertainment with too much sexuality
For example GoT
I watched only 1.5 episodes and gave up
Which is a shame because it seemed interesting and I loved the violence (and the incest)
i'm not asking for advice, maybe I am
could be an ego thing
I don't know
I don't feel abandoned or hopeless
I still feel like I have enough fuel to keep myself going
concerta and ambien have lately been a godsend to me
I also pop a light downer every now and then
By now, it's probably addiction again, but until I put it down for good I won't be able to tell for certain
my emotions are still functioning fine, I think, most of the time
gotta know when to raise the shields however
I'm actually doing ok, I think, even when sober
I'm a guy, age 24
so far not very religious
way things are now I don't see myself getting religious at all in the future
I am an extremely sexual person, my mind is almost always filled with thoughts and fantasies
While sex isn't my most favorite activity, it certainly is a favorite
Thing is, I don't like to discuss or watch anything too sexual
Hell, I try to keep masturbation to a minimum as much as I can
My sex drive is always on, but most of the time I can counter it with keeping my head on a project or on work that can give me focus
I don't always have the mental strength for that, however
sex is still on my mind a lot
I guess most of the time
I always dream about sex in some form or another, fantasies and altered memories of myself in situations X Y Z, very vivid stuff, a lot of things I know will never happen again or ever
I always wake up graceful and happy that I'm living to see another day, that feeling takes about 7-8 hours to go away (drugs are sometimes involved)
My appetite is almost always absent but I still make myself eat 2 meals a day
Right now I'm single, haven't slept or made any physical contact with anyone in over 4 months, I think maybe 5
I kinda stopped counting since... hm
I don't plan on getting intimate with people anymore, but you never know...
It feels to me like it's ok to keep fighting the urges to age 80 when I die, hopefully later, but deep down I know that's not how it's going to be
I guess I'm deluding myself
actually yes, I'm definitely delusional about that part

It still feels balanced somehow, or maybe I'm just full of myself
and of crap
So yeah basically that means I also avoid entertainment with too much sexuality
For example GoT
I watched only 1.5 episodes and gave up
Which is a shame because it seemed interesting and I loved the violence (and the incest)
i'm not asking for advice, maybe I am
could be an ego thing
I don't know
I don't feel abandoned or hopeless
I still feel like I have enough fuel to keep myself going
concerta and ambien have lately been a godsend to me
I also pop a light downer every now and then
By now, it's probably addiction again, but until I put it down for good I won't be able to tell for certain
my emotions are still functioning fine, I think, most of the time
gotta know when to raise the shields however
I'm actually doing ok, I think, even when sober
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