i apologize, i'm not well

[amber::]

in my mind
i see paintings of indefinable emotions
and you’ll never conceive
the thoughts i’ve tried to convey
to you.
i apologize for the words i do not know
that for all i know,
describe these emotions i fail to accept
i’m not well.
i apologize for the vengeance that all too frequently-
falls off my tongue, and into your dependence
i exhale a deep sigh
you amuse yourself by watching
as i clumsily repair what you’ve again, intentionally shattered
you know ill never find a fit- for myself. yeah, that’s funny.
yknow, the other day, i gathered the audacity to explain my latest epiphany
and i apologize, for again ever assuming you’d care
but someday i’m assured- you’ll listen
to my ramblings that once were your inspiration
my maniacal mind was once stead of admiration
never again.
i sometimes wonder what’s left that keeps you here
you tell me yourself that you hold the scissors
to my attachment of a string
but i’m letting you go
and your hanging
now can you see,
numerical fields of nothing?
again, i apologize.
i’m not well.
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[PureEnlightment]

outstanding!!! Some people do care u just
need to find them goodluck and much care
anytime u need someone to talk to
Aim: Confusionaroundu

 

[mmmmSeXyE]

My lil cand-e-bamber...I miss and luv ya. I am glad you are finally getting rid of him...you needed it....

*hugs*

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~"You've got to stand for something or you will fall for anything"
~"The best way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost."
*Mwas* ~¤É®ÏѤ

 

[E-girl]

as i clumsily repair what you’ve again, intentionally shattered

he doesn't deserve you.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."

 

[addvance]

getting rid of who? what? mr. rave?

mr. rave is the perfect human being.

 

[Catachreses]

Hrm. Well. It's weird reading a poem about yourself. But, it was really good writing Amber. Thanks for sharing, I think. I didn't know you got rid of me, but I guess now I'll be more prepared for when you finally do what you really want to do..
I miss you lots..
Cata

 

[amber::]

god bless mr rave.

 

[Dagny]

Beautiful writing. I like your choice of words and form a lot. Thanks for sharing a bit of your heart.