manboychef
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 15, 2013
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I am sorry about the absence. I have come through some health problems as well as major life changes. I stayed sober throughout. I have good news... I got a week visit with my son recently! It was incredible. I now have a schedule of video chatting with him as well as regular phone calls and the promise of more visits in the future. Me and the former lady are actually trying to get along like two parents.
I have just had a bad relapse of OCD symptoms that have caused me to retreat inward so as not to experience such dramatic intrusive thoughts. It is getting better. If you have an anxiety disorder I can assure you this: Using drugs will only make it worse in the long run. There is real difficult work that must be done. I am finally on meds that work well, as well as in therapy. I find therapy is the hard part. ERP is very masochistic. Meditation helps. I meditate before I have therapy so that I can have a lesser fear response to talking about the things that drive my madness.
Feel free to ask me anything, and I will be posting again.
I have just had a bad relapse of OCD symptoms that have caused me to retreat inward so as not to experience such dramatic intrusive thoughts. It is getting better. If you have an anxiety disorder I can assure you this: Using drugs will only make it worse in the long run. There is real difficult work that must be done. I am finally on meds that work well, as well as in therapy. I find therapy is the hard part. ERP is very masochistic. Meditation helps. I meditate before I have therapy so that I can have a lesser fear response to talking about the things that drive my madness.
Feel free to ask me anything, and I will be posting again.