ok. now its been a while since I have done it. maybe almost a year, but that's ok. I got what I needed out of it and just haven't felt the need to do it recently. My quick brief nitrous bio. started in maybe 2002 or so, always using an empty whipped cream dispenser. usually 1 bulb in one breath but after 4-6 it tended to go alil slower, not too much though. maybe 40-50% (its a quick process to begin with). so I never "got" nitrous. I liked it but it would make other people pass out, laugh etc. for me I would just think a lot and it was like a 5-10min anti-anxiety shot on approx. the same amount of bulbs. now I know most people have very accelerated thinking/thousands of thoughts receding to a few or one in just a minute or so. on nitrous, that "oh, there's that thought.. I got it, I got, I got it, oh shit it's gone" so I got a 24 or 50 pack like every month or two and did it. usually alone. I find it a very, very perfect drug to do by yourself.
so when I would do it, I very faintly got the feeling I wasn't "breaking through" and there was more out there. so 2011. same deal. there has been no change in effects. I am doing some in my parked car w/dark tint in front of my house. All of a sudden all my thoughts became much more lucid and numerical, I fell into an indescribable abyss, I really can't express it in words. I knew I just had my 1st real spiritual experience. also after ultra-heroic mush doses, 2cb, 2ci, mescaline, lsd, mdma etc. this was my 1st +4. and I pretty much partied everyday from 2000-2005. so, next day 1 BULB HAD ME GONE!! like the 10 I did the night before. and before those 10 it had been nothing like this, despite doing a 1000 or 2 before this. and from then on, 2-3 would have me incapacitated with 10k-100k numerical thoughts filtering into one. or maybe a handful occasionally. so I finally came to the conclusion. The thought I was chasing ultimately. there is a god. that what was nitrous had taught me. now I know that is just me. I don't think nitrous is a path to god haha. I don't know what he is, but now I know. also, my only 3-4 +4's were all on nitrous and nitrous alone.
so what I an saying is I think very numerical, bright people (prolly 15% at BL, lots of smart ppl here) have a different reaction to nitrous than others. also, my question is this: what happened? dxm makes my sick even at 200mg and I didn't like ketamine the two times I did it. could something have clicked of sorts? I have always been interested in this. comments, questions about nitrous in general would be awesome.
so when I would do it, I very faintly got the feeling I wasn't "breaking through" and there was more out there. so 2011. same deal. there has been no change in effects. I am doing some in my parked car w/dark tint in front of my house. All of a sudden all my thoughts became much more lucid and numerical, I fell into an indescribable abyss, I really can't express it in words. I knew I just had my 1st real spiritual experience. also after ultra-heroic mush doses, 2cb, 2ci, mescaline, lsd, mdma etc. this was my 1st +4. and I pretty much partied everyday from 2000-2005. so, next day 1 BULB HAD ME GONE!! like the 10 I did the night before. and before those 10 it had been nothing like this, despite doing a 1000 or 2 before this. and from then on, 2-3 would have me incapacitated with 10k-100k numerical thoughts filtering into one. or maybe a handful occasionally. so I finally came to the conclusion. The thought I was chasing ultimately. there is a god. that what was nitrous had taught me. now I know that is just me. I don't think nitrous is a path to god haha. I don't know what he is, but now I know. also, my only 3-4 +4's were all on nitrous and nitrous alone.
so what I an saying is I think very numerical, bright people (prolly 15% at BL, lots of smart ppl here) have a different reaction to nitrous than others. also, my question is this: what happened? dxm makes my sick even at 200mg and I didn't like ketamine the two times I did it. could something have clicked of sorts? I have always been interested in this. comments, questions about nitrous in general would be awesome.
