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I almost lost you guys/IMSTilLALIVE

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smokeymcpot42088

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Hey

MESSAGE TO ALL THOSE UNFAMILIAR WITH COMBINATION USE.

I think this is the closest I've ever came to 'kicking the bucket' so to speak Never had any suicidal impulses/ideations.....none the less I almost kicked it today.

If anyone ever asks if they should dial 911, yes is the answer you should give!!......Granted im glad I said no....

You guys almost lost me and vice versa..... Please know what you are doing.....just woke up alone; mouth is half numb. FFS be careful; ALWAYS.

PLEASE, PLEASE!!.
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Thank you.
 
You know we hate that first question, although it deserves to be answered.

Marijuana, Citalopram, Benadryl, klonopon, Sub0xen (shutup im paranoid). That is the daily set in order of benign to may have had alot to do with it.

other than that idk G somethin, damn rave kids must have spiked my drink. (THATS NOT TRUE)
1. spoonful will calm you down. 2. spoonffulls and you will go to sleep. 3 spoonfuls and will never be seen again. - Words to live by
 
It was, it has stopped being numb; about an hour after I woke up. Felt like the first time oxygen hit my lungs too. (felt odd, even a bit painful at first).

****If you are wondering what the big suprise here it is that I have been responsibly (enough uff off) using substances for 25+ yrs and KNOW WHAT IM DOING******* Don't think you are above death, I joke but I get it, one life, finite time: determined largely by me (Or not could be shot down tommorow or catch cancer or some shit (catch cancer lol im no dr.)**********

Now I have went out on fent twice, been stabbed in the gut, sunk in a ditchsand (like quicksand), and now this. (you know what I should stop this is becoming very uniquely "me"........That isn't counting all the 'close calls' *I once was in a vehicle; lean down to pack a bowl and *Zip. "TF I felt wind" *looks right to see friend standing with crossbow, left to see bolt in tree...(it was a friend he wasn't tryin to wack me lol 14-15ish i think)

I dont darwin out easy, got the brain for it apparently but the flesh remains strong (always wanted to see that one backwards) and no by brain for it i dont mean suicide I mean straight up ill do dumb shit.

Noone is more Glad than me! Trust on that one!
 
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