I’m a bit confused also, I’m a new user here, but at the same time, an old one.

[barbara_deniel]

Hi, my name is Barbara, and I don’t exactly have an addiction or rather, I’ve overcome it, yet I find myself returning to it every single day. I’m struggling with some concerns and questions it’s been a year since I last used, but I still experience the urge every single day. I manage to keep myself in check and haven’t broken my abstinence, but the daily desire to use is there, and it’s tormenting me.

 

[Ki3ly]

Hi. Welcome !!!

It's about managing your time away.

It will get better. It is just post withdrawal syndrome at times.

It's cooler to be sober. And way better too. You got this.

And you can do this. You don't always want to have to be chasing.

Just be you.

 

[ClementinesRevenge]

Rewiring your brain takes a long time, especially when you’ve been using substances means to relieve stress in your life. Also, subconscious triggers are all around you when you don’t even fully realize -these could be causing some of your cravings. I would say you are definitely normal , a lot of people have this happen. Same time having a non judgmental support system that understands what you’re experiencing is super helpful

 

[M!$TER-ED]

Hi Welcome to the fold...can you be a little more specific as to what you keep returning to? Sound advice from @ClementinesRevenge

 

[SoCalShordie]

Hey, don’t beat yourself up. A lot of of struggle with daily cravings in sobriety. It’s never easy. What was your DOC?

 

[TheUltimateFixx]

If you are still wanting to use all the time, you haven't overcome your addiction; you are just not using. What is it that you miss so much about it?

 

[puke]

Hi, my name is Barbara, and I don’t exactly have an addiction or rather, I’ve overcome it, yet I find myself returning to it every single day. I’m struggling with some concerns and questions it’s been a year since I last used, but I still experience the urge every single day. I manage to keep myself in check and haven’t broken my abstinence, but the daily desire to use is there, and it’s tormenting me.

Ur desire will always be there but it will become less and less as time passes. I haven't used heroin in 15 years and somehow still occasionally dream about it, the dreams are so vivd I actually wake up and will actually feel high from my dream dose for a few seconds after waking up. I have no desire to use though because u have to remember what a bitch ur drug of choice was to u. Since ur still new to sobriety I suggest making a list of pros vs cons and look at that and I'm pretty sure ur list, like all of ours, the cons will outway the pros. It does get easier over time but it will take a while to get used to it not being a part of ur life anymore. Hope that gives u a little hope in ur recovery.