Michael_25
Bluelighter
Over the last 12 months I've seen the doctor on a regular basis regarding serious, terminal illnesses. I've seen specialists regarding skin cancer of the lip, throat cancer, had CTs for lung cancer, worried that I have Motor Neuron Disease, Gangrene, Necrosis, Emphysema, tongue cancer and mouth cancer on the roof of my mouth. Every single day, I am constantly thinking about my physical health. Right now, I'm worried about Aseptic Necrosis, as for the past 6 hours I've had a sore leg (from the bone). I have been seeing my GP roughly once a week. Every time I see a discoloration on my skin I think of the worst case scenario -- the start of Necrosis. Then I see my GP and he states it's simply a bruise ... I hate living like this. But how do I get over it? I don't want limbs amputated.
EDIT: In addition, in mid-2012 I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. I'm on meds for it -- clozapine. But these constant feelings of being severely physically ill have only been present for just over 12 months.
EDIT: In addition, in mid-2012 I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. I'm on meds for it -- clozapine. But these constant feelings of being severely physically ill have only been present for just over 12 months.
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