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How to keep happy?
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What a strange end to a thread on keeping happy. Knock you'll be pleased to know that the first thread has indeed "got the fuck". That means deleted right? Either way i read it back and admit that it had a few minor structural flaws too it. I know that posting shit posts on BL isn't a laughing matter, well atleast i do know, but i still have to admit there was something kinda amusing about having mispelled some words so badly that i literally could not work out what i had originally intended to write. That said, the avant garde free flowing stream of consciousness writing that i had slipped into meant that the context of the misspelled words was itself up for grabs, so to speak. I was fighting on all fronts, like when hitler thought nothing of declaring war on america despite the fact that already had stalins red army attacking him from the north, or like when avon barksdale thinks nothing of taking on omah little and marlo stanfield at the same time.
These two examples may appear from different galaxies however maybe i took too may drugs and think the wire is a documentary, that seems more likely than the other scenario, namely that i am a holocaust denier. Namely that have solid german ancestry with a full german mother and a grandmother who received a gold medal from hitler for banging out 9 sprogs. But at the end of the day i cant claim to have the answers to these questions. How well do i know you. How well do you know me? Can we ever even really know ourselves?
And no ofcourse i don't expect you to do the paragraphs for me Knock. That would be a very weird situation, thats like one step away from holding hands.
Anyway, since we're trying to keep ourselves happy i want to thank treacle for the complement on my writing style. This means a lot as words are a big part of my life. I'm in the process of starting a new band and lyrics are everything to me, however, i generally start with a vocal melody and groove and fit the words in later. Its a hell of challenge as i'm sure some you write music. In anycase i would love to send you a link if you're interested. My music has been everything to me over the last couple of years. Performing live at the open mic nights has totally filled a void that sort of opened up in my life after i took up an open uni degree, after fucking up my degree. You know i've noticed a number of interesting writing styles on here. With yours i can't tell if theres anything unique structurally about how you write but your personality seems to come through very strongly. I can't tell if its because i've conversed more with you or what it is. In any case i wanted to let you that unless i'm missing someone out, you are the only person so far who i've managed to sustain an intellectual discussion with that hasn't backed out. I can remember discussing anxiety ands complex nature which was great. i forget the name, pregebalin? that only works on the glutamate system - thats a big deal for me as the glutamate system is so unique because of the dependency of the ds receptor on prior activation of the ampa receptors. By the way,synesthesia can lead to a way with words due increased capacity for mataphorical thought. i don't have synesthesia in terms of strange sense overlaps like seeing numbers in certain colour or whatever, however, i did suffer a common cause of synestesia, namely a serious head injury when i was under 2 years old so i don't remember it. I fell out of swing when my dad was supposed to be watching me and feace planted onto the concrete. I think i was allowed to leave the hospital the same day though im not sure, but i apparently had a significant swelling that wouldn't go down. I think i got mild synestesia which is cool but i think it played a role in my ADD too, since the dopamine neurons that exert control and that under fire in ADD. I call this my "brain dead" theory, which i think is funny. I do worry about how it affected my parents too, i think it likely contributed to my dads alcohol abuse. I think it might have affected my mother as well. Firstly, how could you ever forgive your partner for allowing something that happen them. Maybe i'll find out one day if i'm day dreaming while my child is in a dangerous situation.
My dad is a huge art fan, second only to music. And he this painting hung on our wall with a french lady sat on some steps holding her baby while drinking wine. Only shes drinking the wine from a bottle when clearly already too drunk to appreciate her surroundings. And the baby she's meant to be holding is slipping out of her arms and over to her right side.The artist does not show how far the baby is about to fall because the ground isn't shown by artist - but it seems clearly to be a fatal fall. I sometimes wonder why he kept the painting, and why he showed it me. Maybe i asked him?
I think my mum fell out of love with me after that too in a strange sort of way. Because a damaged baby grows into a damaged child then ultimately manifests itself as me. I wrote a real cool song about it. Its called "Love hate my broken baby". That's one way to stay happy i think. Don't suppress the memories that haunt you, this very important for the immune system too btw, but use the emotions that arise from the event and use that as energy to create something that can inspire others if you have a gift with music. Or if you are a scientist, then something in that arena and once again you can turn that anger into positive energy.
These two examples may appear from different galaxies however maybe i took too may drugs and think the wire is a documentary, that seems more likely than the other scenario, namely that i am a holocaust denier. Namely that have solid german ancestry with a full german mother and a grandmother who received a gold medal from hitler for banging out 9 sprogs. But at the end of the day i cant claim to have the answers to these questions. How well do i know you. How well do you know me? Can we ever even really know ourselves?
And no ofcourse i don't expect you to do the paragraphs for me Knock. That would be a very weird situation, thats like one step away from holding hands.
Anyway, since we're trying to keep ourselves happy i want to thank treacle for the complement on my writing style. This means a lot as words are a big part of my life. I'm in the process of starting a new band and lyrics are everything to me, however, i generally start with a vocal melody and groove and fit the words in later. Its a hell of challenge as i'm sure some you write music. In anycase i would love to send you a link if you're interested. My music has been everything to me over the last couple of years. Performing live at the open mic nights has totally filled a void that sort of opened up in my life after i took up an open uni degree, after fucking up my degree. You know i've noticed a number of interesting writing styles on here. With yours i can't tell if theres anything unique structurally about how you write but your personality seems to come through very strongly. I can't tell if its because i've conversed more with you or what it is. In any case i wanted to let you that unless i'm missing someone out, you are the only person so far who i've managed to sustain an intellectual discussion with that hasn't backed out. I can remember discussing anxiety ands complex nature which was great. i forget the name, pregebalin? that only works on the glutamate system - thats a big deal for me as the glutamate system is so unique because of the dependency of the ds receptor on prior activation of the ampa receptors. By the way,synesthesia can lead to a way with words due increased capacity for mataphorical thought. i don't have synesthesia in terms of strange sense overlaps like seeing numbers in certain colour or whatever, however, i did suffer a common cause of synestesia, namely a serious head injury when i was under 2 years old so i don't remember it. I fell out of swing when my dad was supposed to be watching me and feace planted onto the concrete. I think i was allowed to leave the hospital the same day though im not sure, but i apparently had a significant swelling that wouldn't go down. I think i got mild synestesia which is cool but i think it played a role in my ADD too, since the dopamine neurons that exert control and that under fire in ADD. I call this my "brain dead" theory, which i think is funny. I do worry about how it affected my parents too, i think it likely contributed to my dads alcohol abuse. I think it might have affected my mother as well. Firstly, how could you ever forgive your partner for allowing something that happen them. Maybe i'll find out one day if i'm day dreaming while my child is in a dangerous situation.
My dad is a huge art fan, second only to music. And he this painting hung on our wall with a french lady sat on some steps holding her baby while drinking wine. Only shes drinking the wine from a bottle when clearly already too drunk to appreciate her surroundings. And the baby she's meant to be holding is slipping out of her arms and over to her right side.The artist does not show how far the baby is about to fall because the ground isn't shown by artist - but it seems clearly to be a fatal fall. I sometimes wonder why he kept the painting, and why he showed it me. Maybe i asked him?
I think my mum fell out of love with me after that too in a strange sort of way. Because a damaged baby grows into a damaged child then ultimately manifests itself as me. I wrote a real cool song about it. Its called "Love hate my broken baby". That's one way to stay happy i think. Don't suppress the memories that haunt you, this very important for the immune system too btw, but use the emotions that arise from the event and use that as energy to create something that can inspire others if you have a gift with music. Or if you are a scientist, then something in that arena and once again you can turn that anger into positive energy.
Ben So Furry
Bluelighter
^ Yeah man, post your choons mate, I'll give it a listen
Were't you supposed to be giving me a kicking Ben? I'm just confused is all. i sort of thought i was talking to treacle as it seemed like a few of you guys didn't want to see another word from me within bluelight, let alone volunteer to listen to stuff outside of bl. But sure i'll send you a link man, why not?
Just wanna get back to something that got started in the previous posts. Writers on blue light - as i think that is another way to keep happy, in keeping with the thread, ie acknowledging the positive attributes of others. So i just thought i'd mention a couple of styles that jumped out at me. Charlie clean, very accomplished, what you may expect from an ex professional writer. I've never conversed with him directly, just caught one of his posts over on the heroin great debate thread and instantly checked his profile specifically to see if he was a writer, and he was. It just struck me that he could write just a few sentences in order to prompy mr to check his profile specifically for thst. Its just that i generally avoid checking profiles like the plaugue since i want to treat everyone the same and not be influenced by the number of posts they have to their name. Obviously this is a recipe for pissing people off, but fuck it, i'm always gonna piss people off anyway and atleast this way i get to fair. Missing old pills. He writes like jack keroac on crack - though i think i heard him say that he does't use drugs anymore, which i thought was cool, as so many people can only give up drugs by turning into drug haters. I think i got that right. I'm sure shambles can put straight any details i get wrong anyhow. And leads me on to my final bluelighter who i feel has a way with words. I always liked shamble's posts. Has perhaps the most recognisable style on BL. I admit that having a computer chip implanted into your brain that provides an endless supply of comedic material is not a bad place to start but theres definitely a whole bag of tricks there behind a style that befits the name perfectlty.
Just wanna get back to something that got started in the previous posts. Writers on blue light - as i think that is another way to keep happy, in keeping with the thread, ie acknowledging the positive attributes of others. So i just thought i'd mention a couple of styles that jumped out at me. Charlie clean, very accomplished, what you may expect from an ex professional writer. I've never conversed with him directly, just caught one of his posts over on the heroin great debate thread and instantly checked his profile specifically to see if he was a writer, and he was. It just struck me that he could write just a few sentences in order to prompy mr to check his profile specifically for thst. Its just that i generally avoid checking profiles like the plaugue since i want to treat everyone the same and not be influenced by the number of posts they have to their name. Obviously this is a recipe for pissing people off, but fuck it, i'm always gonna piss people off anyway and atleast this way i get to fair. Missing old pills. He writes like jack keroac on crack - though i think i heard him say that he does't use drugs anymore, which i thought was cool, as so many people can only give up drugs by turning into drug haters. I think i got that right. I'm sure shambles can put straight any details i get wrong anyhow. And leads me on to my final bluelighter who i feel has a way with words. I always liked shamble's posts. Has perhaps the most recognisable style on BL. I admit that having a computer chip implanted into your brain that provides an endless supply of comedic material is not a bad place to start but theres definitely a whole bag of tricks there behind a style that befits the name perfectlty.
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RLP
Bluelighter
The fuck happened to my thread?
RLP
Bluelighter
PS. I really like that Marm ^^
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
"The silicon chip inside his head got switched to overload..."
Probably when I also experienced a rather severe blow to the head as a youngling. Remember it quite well but dunno how old I was. Was at primary school anyway. Will skip it other than to suggest that steep slope + sheet ice may seem like it must surely = funfunfun but it actually = several days in hospital with severe concussion sometimes.
Perhaps all kids should be dropped on their heads from a great height? If only to improve the standards of interwebz forum postings.
And thanks - you ain't so bad yerself
NSFW'd in case it gives RLP nightmares...
NSFW:
Mugz
Bluelighter
Watch Mary Poppins on repeat!
Urbain
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Jeez, that would make my eyes bleed!
jancrow
Bluelighter
I fancy Mary Poppins.
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
I've never seen Mary Poppins. Not intending too either really. Never seen that other one about singing Nazis or whatever it is either for that matter. Have always had a very low tolerance for musicals. Although - with nary a trace of irony involved - I did have a boxset of Disney records I playerd to death as a nipper so know all the Mary Poppins songs anyway 8)
jancrow
Bluelighter
Wahoo! See what I mean? FIT. Although she has much bigger boobs there than I remember.
It's impossible for me to say how good Mary Poppins actually is as a film as I watched it so many times as a kid that it's just a THING in my life which I can't view objectively. Dick van Dyk is fucking annoying in it, I seem to remember wanting to punch the children, and the special effects are kind of pony. Musicals in general suck really badly.
Ben So Furry
Bluelighter
Sorry Swarm just saw this. Absolutely not, no. I'm sorry if something I posted gave you this idea.
Also where's your tunes? :D
NightsEpiphany
Bluelighter
Looks easy enough dont it..on paper. In practice losing ego, I, want, attachments and desire is like being crucified daily.
Yeah man that's how we get a thread back on track RLP. Swarm fucks it up by forgetting paragraphs and how to spell, and even how to articulate the simplest of pre school verbiage. Then we all kick each other in the nuts and then shambles sends in a superman dressed as a chip-monk to, uhm, brings us back full circle to pure unadulterated nirvana I suppose. Fuckin sorted.
Sorry Swarm just saw this. Absolutely not, no. I'm sorry if something I posted gave you this idea.
Also where's your tunes? :D
Sorry Ben, I thought the heart was for knock for telling me to fuck off. My mistakes. Tunes on their way right now dude.
The fuck happened to my thread?
Fear not RLP for that's how we get a thread back on track here on BL. Swarm fucks it up by forgetting paragraphs and how to spell, and even how to articulate the simplest of pre school verbiage. Then we all kick each other in the nuts and then shambles sends in a superman dressed as a chip-monk to, uhm, brings us back full circle to pure unadulterated nirvana I suppose. Fuckin sorted.
Ben So Furry
Bluelighter
No it was for him taking the time to tidy your post a bit. I read them as they were originally. I love stim-posts
Guilty of them myself in the past. Sorry for the confusion I promise you I never meant that at all.Looking forward to hearing them Swarm :D
Cool its all pretty distorted wall of sound craziness, but the vocals are all buiilt around a melody, even if i do pack em an extra punch from time to time. Spiral out is just pure visciuous, but then how else do you write a song about your battles with alcohol eh?