At what point is it appropriate to seek a doctor for help with depression ? I am kind of afraid of the costs and unsure if my case warrants help.
I've had depression come and go since 5 years ago. Possibly earlier I don't know. I remember, first year in university I was so depressed I hurt myself physically, and tried killing myself. Moved back to my home after the year, and I was fine. Anyways, things would go up and down from there.
In my final year I felt my mood undergo extreme volatility, it was out of control. I started smoking marijuana and it went away (I smoked 10~15 times everyday for 7 months). When I stopped 5 months ago, my anxiety and depression was quite strong. I felt suicidal after I stopped marijuana. My reason of stopping marijuana was my parents found out and they were strongly against it.
Lately, I think I am returning to the intensity of depression I had in my first year in university which was 5 years ago. This week was really stressful, had insomnia, sometimes wake up for no reason during sleep, felt suicidal especially during night. I am a bit more worried today because this morning, I felt no use of waking up. Doing basic things is very difficult and slow. More importantly, I honestly feel like I am getting tired of these cycles of depression, stress. It feels like existence itself is difficult.
I've had depression come and go since 5 years ago. Possibly earlier I don't know. I remember, first year in university I was so depressed I hurt myself physically, and tried killing myself. Moved back to my home after the year, and I was fine. Anyways, things would go up and down from there.
In my final year I felt my mood undergo extreme volatility, it was out of control. I started smoking marijuana and it went away (I smoked 10~15 times everyday for 7 months). When I stopped 5 months ago, my anxiety and depression was quite strong. I felt suicidal after I stopped marijuana. My reason of stopping marijuana was my parents found out and they were strongly against it.
Lately, I think I am returning to the intensity of depression I had in my first year in university which was 5 years ago. This week was really stressful, had insomnia, sometimes wake up for no reason during sleep, felt suicidal especially during night. I am a bit more worried today because this morning, I felt no use of waking up. Doing basic things is very difficult and slow. More importantly, I honestly feel like I am getting tired of these cycles of depression, stress. It feels like existence itself is difficult.