ketagoblin
Bluelighter
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- Nov 23, 2022
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I guess I have some sort of hyperfixation on the matter, as I have spent some psychedelic trips being completely erratic, deluding myself into how I gave myself permanent brain damage over the past year, and spending hours seeking confirmation that it's not true (through reading recent intellectual conversations, or the like), sort of in an OCD sense
I used many chems throughout the past 1.5 years, stimulants and psychedelics in particular (the latter is deemed generally physically unharmful however when abused that might not apply), and I am getting increasingly more paranoid whether I downgraded some cognitive abilities.
I would say, on average I consumed 1.5g 3MMC along with other compounds (including alcohol) every 7-14 days. Each of these sessions would end with the typical stim burn-out feeling, where you can physically feel your brain being hotter temperature, re-doses just won't do a thing and you just generally feel double-digit IQ
I was (am) also a constant user of benzos, 2-4 times a week
Now I have constant brain fog and brutal short-term memory issues, 17 days clean currently.
I am fine with waiting, but anxiety and paranoia regarding the matter sometimes gets the worst out of me
I used many chems throughout the past 1.5 years, stimulants and psychedelics in particular (the latter is deemed generally physically unharmful however when abused that might not apply), and I am getting increasingly more paranoid whether I downgraded some cognitive abilities.
I would say, on average I consumed 1.5g 3MMC along with other compounds (including alcohol) every 7-14 days. Each of these sessions would end with the typical stim burn-out feeling, where you can physically feel your brain being hotter temperature, re-doses just won't do a thing and you just generally feel double-digit IQ
I was (am) also a constant user of benzos, 2-4 times a week
Now I have constant brain fog and brutal short-term memory issues, 17 days clean currently.
I am fine with waiting, but anxiety and paranoia regarding the matter sometimes gets the worst out of me