I first used MDMA in the spring of '85 when I was 29 - it was the perfect time for me to do it. I had been involved for a few years in seeking spiritual/psychological/physical transformation and healing - overcoming old toxic patterns, family-related guilt and pain, and personal fears. I was in an environment where many other people I knew were doing the same thing.
I had heard of MDMA and found that a nurse aquaintance had access to what was then pharmaceutical MDMA. In that setting and with those intentions, I was blown away by what MDMA had to offer in terms of overcoming fears and limiting beliefs.
I was going through a series of Rolfing (deep tissue bodywork) sessions around the time of my first MDMA experience. As it turned out my practicioner had done MDMA the same weekend I had done it. I arranged to be Rolfed on MDMA because a big part of the MDMA experience for me was seeing how psychological fears were held in my body and released while on MDMA. The effect of that Rolfing session was truly life-changing for me.
I felt I had to provide everyone I knew with this wonderful stuff and so arranged orders and shipments with my contact to sell at cost to everyone interested. I did a lot of MDMA that season with MDMA novices and witnessed first hand others' amazing breakthroughs and changes.
I found it a bit odd at first when people started using MDMA as a party/dance drug since I had always used it in more quiet, intimate settings without a lot of distraction, and involving at times a lot of communicating. But I have since used it that way many times so I know the attraction. I'm glad to have experienced it as part of psychological/transformational work first, though.