Sounds like alot of people here go hard at one stage of their life, then end up having an appreciation later on and do it every couple of months. I'm in the same boat, i was doing it every twice a week for quite a while, going crazy, as i do remember how fun it was back in the day. But then you lose the whole magic of it and the comedowns start to get really really harsh and your body feels like its getting old. I think its great that people only do it a couple times a year. The greatest thing about pills is that its not addictive, unlike other drugs, ice and heroin, which i also know alot of people have moved upto and can't get off. Thats why i have so much love for MDMA.