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How often do you go through withdrawls

I'm a street buying addict of pain pills, trust me it sucks. And I'm starting to go into w/d now, trying to switch over to subs. Bought those at street price too lol ugh the life we gave ourselves...
 
My drug of choice is alcohol these days. As far as withdrawal goes, It really depends on how much I've indulged the day/night prior. If moderate, with a bit of effort and some benzos, I can stave off withdrawal for something like 24 hours. Then I start getting nausea, tremors, anxiety. If I went hard the night before, it's as soon as I wake up, I need a shot or two to steady myself, to get to a baseline. If I go beyond 24 hours I have real tremulousness and unbearable panic attacks, high blood pressure, if I go much beyond that, I'd probably be a hospital job. Y'all who have been involved with opiates know what I'm talking about, and I used to be involved with the same shit. The psychological dynamics of it aren't too often except booze is on every street corner.
 
Haha. Fuck. Almost never. I somewhat pretend that my body deals with opiate withdrawal different than most, which may be partially true - but I've only ever gone a few weeks, a few times.

I just fill in the grey patches with OTC shit that's gonna eventually kill me.

JUST TO BRIGHTEN UP EVERYONES DAY! haha
 
I'm either sick from taking too much or just dopesick most of the time. It seems like it's always either one
 
I used to wake up sick every day. But I was one of the rare junkies that could hold on to some for the morning. I think this is in part because I started my IV opiate habit at age fifteen and I learned quickly that I needed to maintain the facade that I wasn't using, and dopesickness doesn't mesh well with that. I also learned early on that it wasn't for getting high anymore, it was medicine, and if I wanted to get high I drank or shot coke.

I needed to have a bag to wake up with. I used to live with a guy that stole my bag a couple times. I woke him up with a punch to the nose. Gave him raccoon eyes after I came back from copping. Kicked him out of my house the second time he did that. There is something that makes you feel so vulnerable when someone goes in your room and goes through your stuff and takes what little you have to make sure you don't have a horrible day.

I've detoxed completely from opiates like six times. The two worst were the two before the last time. Both in the psych ward, both with benzo withdrawal at the same time (they give you clonidine, tagamat, ibuprofen and if you are lucky they actually will taper you off the benzos...this never happened for me). Psychward withdrawing sucks because you are so incredibly uncomfortable and you got all kinds of mooks hanging around trying to talk to you.
 
Two... three times a week lately. I did today and tomor ill be on sub...again..repeat.
Fucking blows.
 
I wake up in rather heavy duty withdrawal if I sleep in my bed. If I take a nap during the day I get wds too.

There is something about sleep that puts me in wd. If I straight up sleep for an hour after a fix, I feel a like sick when I wake up then I feel the buzz. That is weird to feel sick for just like 30-60 seconds and then high.

I suppose it is just that I am used to waking up sick because after 8 hours of not using I am in rather bad wd. If I was to go more than 12 hours we are talking rather close to full scale which hits at about 24-36 hours. I would say at 36 hours since my last use I would be in honest to got full scale wds.

What I wake up to in the mornings these days is what full scale wds were to me several years ago. So that being said I usually inject something I do not have to heat up as my first fix and then go on to something like morhpine er or bth after that to get well. But something like oxy, ecp, or opana ir to get my hands steady enough to cook up.
 
Over the last five years, probably about 15 times. 6 of those were in this last year alone, because I really wanted to get sober, but no dice. It really sucked getting sick for a week, staying clean for another week, MAYBE two, and jumping right back onto the needle. Lame. Let's hope last time was the last time. Although I am on Subs now and I guess if I ever want to withdraw from those that will probably be the worst withdrawal of my life.

FULL blown WD's tho - only had those twice. Most of the other times I had kratom or something to assist me. I can't decide which was worse the benzo WD or the precip. WDs off heroin onto Vivitrol. Shudder.
 
thebignim said:
Get yourself a methadone script coz it's a lifesaver.
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I can't get methadone because I need klonopin for panic disorder and anxiety disorder. If a doctor or psychiatrist would give me a methadone rx I wouldn't even have to think about it.

I have been trying to get my pain clinic to do it but they said if I even mention it again they will kick me out so they got me on morphine er and opana ir. I was doing just fine until they decided to cut my dose and well that never works out well so I suppose I have been in the habit of supplementing to be functional.

If I could have like a third to half my pain gone and not be in withdrawals I would be crying from joy. Pain pills are a double edged sword for sure. I don't mind waking up sick. I accepted that. I just can't be getting sick throughout the day. My drs have all known I wake up sick and gave me promethazine and I even gave the fentyanl patch a try.

I suppose the mistake I made was injecting pills and heroin. I started using heroin because it was cheap and effective and well a better feeling too cuz pills don't do shit for me but get me normal and not hurting and sick. So I was in college making straight As and I could afford heroin then. I took a semester off and well I never went back and went the wrong route.

I eventually got a bunch of felony drug charges and have been having to get an rx to just not go to prison or drug treatment. I am contemplating ibogane in the future. I am ok for the most part as long as I regulate my use and avoid binging which gets expensive. I could afford to have all the pills and dope I need to function if I could stick to a schedule but the mistake/excuse I make is that by the time I get my shit I am so sick that I deserve to get well and I mean really well.

It is a hard life but fuck it, there aint shit else for me. It is what it is. I do what I got to do. Hopefully if I keep trying I will get out this struggle. I have done some heavy duty shit to get drugs. I would rather not get too specific but I would say just about every type of felony that does not hurt children.
 
dopemaster said:
I have been trying to get my pain clinic to do it but they said if I even mention it again they will kick me out so they got me on morphine er and opana ir.
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That's strict. It's like being at Hogwarts and talking about He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. Crappy that you can't even inquire about a different medication, especially since methadone is known for being longer lasting.
 
I can't fathom any reason other than greed that psych wards and detox have been combined. In the states all the detox units are also a psych ward.

I don't see how that is not a recipe for disaster because you got people who are feeling horrid and irritable surrounded by people who are annoying and can't help it and may or may not know whether the behaviors they can't control affect others.

The last time I was in detox this schizo guy followed me around like I was his best friend because I was just too polite to be cruel. He was obsessed with hip hop and spoke in raps that always rhymed. He had delusions of having close connections to certain high profile celebrities and rappers that he knew when they were aliens, yeah when they were aliens.

So anyways this dude told me both his life stories from being molested by Eminem at the age of 14 to create a bride (eminem's daughter) for him to how Eminem doesn't respond to his letters so he needs a motorcycle and some guns to hunt him down and he ended up in the psych ward after his mother wouldn't get him a motorcycle after doing 11 years for arson and drug posession. He tried to hang himself and then he was sedated to reality and I could see it hurt him to leave his delusions behind.

I know this sounds horrid but usually I found the people in the psych ward as the best for of entertainment. If a staff member irritated me I could easily rile up the mentally ill. I got pissed about an involuntary drug withdrawal psych hold going past 72 hours so I got the mentally ill on the verge of riot and the staff is like "OK you can leave right now if you talk them down." So I guess I used the people around me in there for my own means.

Still the whole place is a GBH assault waiting to happen and I don't see how people don't recognize that.
 
I am in withdrawal every day, all day. Been that way for over a year. Kicked benzos and opiates plenty of times but the damn psych drugs fucked me off. Zyprexa has pretty much fried my brain. I don't if anyone can really fathom what being in withdrawal for a over a year is like, but its a long ass time. It has been the worst feeling in the world and really indescribable unless you have felt it before. It's a constant pulse surging through your veins that makes you hate to be alive. I have also kicked phenibut, opiates, and alcohol at various points inside of this withdrawal bc I was using them to cope. Kicking kratom starting tomorrow, no biggie, its all the same anymore. You learn to live outside of your skin. I seem to be permanently manic now, not the fun, euphoric, cocaine type of manic either. Can't sleep and all speedy. I am constantly hot. Sweating all of the time. Mood swings, paranoia, and hundreds of symptoms. A bad trip gone bad. I think it has permanently effected my mind in some ways. You can't experience that type of mental anguish for that long and not be permanently affected. FUCK!
 
1-2 times a month. Shits gay but I'm fortunately not very physically addicted to much. Mostly just psychologically addicted to benzo's and stimulants.

Edit: I had said 1-2x a week when it was supposed to say 1-2x a month.
 
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