Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I agree, I bet I would if I took as much MDMA as I did AMT. You're basically right about what you remember me posting about the sleep paralysis and dreams. As for why I dosed days and days on end... it kept being good, obviously it wasn't as strong and a lot of the more psychedelic aspects faded, but it felt so good still and I felt so "on". I was really abusing psychedelics a lot by then, tripping 3 or 4 days a week a lot of the time. I don't know, I just really liked it, and I didn't try to stop myself for quite some time. I was probably some degree of manic from it all. I wanted to take as much in (experience-wise) as I could, and being on psychedelics all the time helped me feel very connected and joyful. It was actually one of my favorite periods of time in my life. But the aftereffects of it (I think the worst was the ramifications of years of getting WAY too little sleep) did have an impact on me, and I don't want to go there again. I wouldn't use at that rate again, I wouldn't want to.