yea, i can see what you guys are talking about as far as motivation goes, i know im only about 2 weeks into being clean, and most of my physical side affects are gone expect for some lethargy and lack of sleep, but just getting up off the couch takes a lot of motivation. I wish i could be on suboxone right now, but at the same time i dont want to depend on anything to feel normal, i just wanna be able to live life, without having to worry everyday about coping, or when im gunna have to refill a prescription or something. But believe me, i wish i had an endless supply of money/ opiates so i could live the rest of my life that way, but i know it will never happen, so i think just staying clean is the best thing for me, instead of living in a constant worry.