How long to break?

[vancbc]

I'd like some ideas on how long I should break if I want to use E again.

I used E for about 10 years. I started safe and sane but around year 5 or so things got increasingly out of hand with me starting to use once a month at higher doses. I kept chasing the lost magic and hangovers got worse.

In the 10th year I slowed down and used 4 times, but again I used repeated high doses in a single session. The hint of magic was there, but I think I took so much that I way overshot the sweet spot and just got really fucked up. The hangover became sort of a fixed way of life with general depression, increased anxiety and all that other stuff that goes with it.

I'm now 6 months into a break. The anxiety and depression are no longer interruptions in my life. I'd like to say they're completely gone but every month I am clean I feel more alive and well, so I may have a way to go yet.

I am much wiser and experienced now, and my dream is to get to a point where I can experience a nice time with a single, moderate dose. I no longer entertain illusions of it being crazy insane like those first few times. There is an event where I could see using in August 2011 which would give me a 9 month break.

Is 9 months long enough, or should I just stay the course for a minimum of 1 year - even 2 years - or longer? I'm a grown man far beyond the need to rush out and take pills just because, so waiting isn't an issue - but is there a length of time when you are as recovered as you're going to get so you may as well just go for it?

 

[citizen cained]

6 months is plenty but wait until august, most of the "losing the magic" is (imo) the fact it is no longer exciting to do it, remember when you first got drunk? how good it was? now its nothing special right? because it's commonplace, there is nothing new anymore, sure getting drunk is fun but not as fun as it first was, but if you have an event to look forward to and don't drink until then, then getting drunk is fun again, it's the same with E and the magic so wait until the event, then you will be looking forward to necking that pill/bomb so much that your roll will be awesome .

by 6 months your serotonin levels etc have recovered so physically all the chemicals in your brain are back to normal levels.

 

[llama112]

I'd probably wait a year, just to be on the safe side.

 

[vancbc]

Thanks guys. Sounds like 9 months should be plenty long but that perhaps waiting a bit longer could be an even safer bet.