jeez...
the past four or five days have been rather splendid
I decided to dip into my stash of pills and binged on buprenorphine, tramadol, temazepam, alprazolam, and amphetamine, combined in different ways for 3 days (obviously never combing tram with amp), and got unexpectedly put on the list for Coachella, because my drummer's good friend is the new bassist for the Pixies, who were playing a "secret" set at the festival, and the only other band i saw was Queens of the Stone Age, and then we left. Also went to a couple parties.
My first time using opioids since kicking dependence, and tbh it wasn't very craving-inducing, which was a relief. I'm allowing myself to occasionally use weak oral opioids, because I'd rather not do oxy/hydrocodone because they typically just leave me wanting more, and before too long I'm using heroin again. Only gonna fuck with kratom, PST, buprenorphine and I guess tramadol (but I only like it really when combined with bupe) from now on.
currently on buprenorphine, tramadol, alprazolam and cannabis; bupe and tram have MAD synergy