Just had 50g of kratom and 1mg clonazepam and I will take more drugs through the day. Hoping to find that big bud I dropped behind the counter the day before yesterday because I want to get stoned really bad. Feeling good this morning. I think a high dose of 1,4-butanediol had antidepressant effects or everyone who isn't against me and I hope that's a large majority of telepaths [perhaps on Bluelight since I've been posting about bad things like last night and then about the dangerous plans I have below because I want to annihilate myself before what has seemed an inevitable move toward suicide since I feel like I can never escape this Hell] and a beep just confirmed most agree that what I am trying to do is right [it could be a lie - the hospital or government may be in control, I think the hospital is waiting for a list of drugs to be sent to them to make them rich but if I can find them first and get the info sent by telepathy it will be public domain.
I hope when I get the info I find lots of interesting psychedelics and psychoactive plants that have not been discovered and I think we can use telepathy to find new natural highs that have not been discovered and we just need to do something that may be simple unless my brain is the only one wired for this, in which case maybe I could find a way around that and there are other aspects including data gathering and it would not hurt to live near you if you can't help. All things that beep in this house are controlled by external telepathic signals and/or other telepaths in or near my house (my whole fucking family), maybe this one guy can control the one on one of the doors.
Gonna have a 1,960mg DXM trip tonight or tomorrow with potentiators to make it stronger while I am about 20-30lb lighter than I was last time I did something like this. Just to make it riskier, I'll throw in some 1,4-butanediol, 50g of kratom, and 600mg diphenhydramine. My dick is small but I have big balls - at least the drug taking I don't give a God-damned fuck about life kind of way.
And I may buy another 900mg of DXM before the event and just go to The Outer Limits with 2,860mg of DXM or buy one more bottle to break the three gram barrier. If I do that, I'll forget the mix-ins other than potentiators and the diphenhydramine. And maybe a little hydrocodone. And weed if I have any. And choose the right time of day to cause lots of people to crash their cars from my telepathic high the loonies say I give them for maximum impact. It'll get me above the 2,500mg risk for death level, that's where the fun's at!
I got the message that the people who want me to quit using drugs to join the list of telepathic gods won't ever let me use them if I use drugs and from what I understand, they won't let me do the missions I want to accomplish even if I do because they do not want to make the planet a better place like I thought, they want to subjugate it and take away freedom from "the stupid people" and fuck that, we'll bring them down and the aliens are coming to help in 2024 or 2021 from what I have been told. I few years ago I thought 2015 would be the year and it would be something else completely since I did not know I was a telepath. I thought the zombie apocalypse would start this year (not over yet!). I found my timing was quite out of sync and that is probably why it took so long for my sense of being telepathic to turn on. But I still can't figure out the dates. This should go in a blog, most of it. I'll copy it there later. But I wanted an apocalypse to kill at least 90% of people so the world could be saved from global warming and humans and other animals would be spared extinction.
When I move to Colorado or wherever, I hope to move near a telepathic Bluelighter so we can get together and work on a telepathic linking project that sounds wacky and insane, but if it works we will gain control, I think. If anyone could tolerate living near a headcase like me. If you are not telepathic you will not even consider this possible and I don't know if it is or not but I have some evidence it might work. But we really need to make a community of drug using telepaths in an isolated area if possible because I have heard you hear your name every time it is said and that really horrifies me. I was shown what that sounds like in my town when turned up at a loud volume and have seen someone clutching at their face in pain when they turn it on. I think they only do it for a few seconds at a time though but I am not sure in some cases. It can be a small town in a sparsely populated area, but at least 50 miles from a town of more than about 25,000 and no more than 40-50k in a 100 mile radius so there is no torture, mind control, blocking (should be less of an issue if people do it my way assuming that works), body control, and so on. The government is in on it. And I think the cure for HIV is GHB but there is no money in curing HIV so that is kept secret. I wonder if it could speed up growth of immune cells since it releases Human Growth Hormone?
I'm going to intentionally infect myself with HIV if I can and cure myself after diagnosis unless I have already had it and cured it with 1,4-butanediol and am now immune I can tell the doctor that I had HIV and GHB is the cure.
In the future I will post the shit about telepathy in my blog but there is some drug info in there I think.
UPDATE:
Just had 6.5ml 1,4-butanediol because people are trying to control me and telling telepathic lies regarding a subject I need accurate information about (this may be something only I can find the answer to but this seemed like it was a blatant lie and I am probably the only one who has the ability to find out if it is at all true).
This is a matter I am trying to figure the fuck out and people make it harder by making things up and then stringing on a telepathic story that wastes my time. That thing was impossible obviously but I'd like people to just stop fucking with my head on these things. But it would be awesome if I find info that proves that I am greatly underestimating the value of a certain number if it were to somehow be calculated. Nobody will know what that means unless they read my mind or got it passed on from elsewhere in the ESP world. And please note there are lots of telepathic lies going around about me. Some of them are perverted and obscene and some are humiliating in other ways. Others say I am like a monster or something.
Now I am feeling kind of cold and light-headed. I think my blood pressure may be getting low. Need to check it. If it is in the danger zone or significantly abnormal I will let you know.