Some poppies, IM' 150mg BZP+15mg MDPP. Staying up all night studying and using stims. Also .15mg clonidine so I don't have a stroke or myocardial infarction. I slept all day, I guess I overmedicated when I put myself to sleep. The dreams were amazing though! Like riding dragons and being pulled in and out of body, lots of alien plants and creatures, some sentient. I saw galaxies spin amounts that could take a billion years. Lots of space stuff and being in rooms full of alien technology often me strapped in a seat or bed while they did various non-painful things. There were violent parts, disasters, space war, and the Nazis filling mass graves and then being in a German house in a city being bombed with a family who was protecting Jews and a man with deformities and a useless leg. The bombs kept dropping till I was suddenly jarred awake. Maybe the bomb hit and this happened in a past life.
The whole night and most of day were like tripping while lightly sleeping, very nice. I guess the antipsychotics did't kill it too bad. Maybe my dose was too low, using small amounts of 3 different ones at bedtime (I'd guess 6-10mg thorazine, 50mg seroquel, and 0.7 risperidone)
I had already taken 50mg seroquel earlier because the trip was really depressing, visions of future disasters without enough info to know where or when or even exactly what it was. It was clearly like a mudflow, dam break, or lahar/other volcanic activity. Could have been a flood but it looked like a mudflow or some kind. There were two houses at slightly higher elevation untouched near the edge. It was near a large lake or ocean in a Latin American country where a soldier was wearing an almost sold green uniform with 3 stripes(don't know colours) and large buttons near the wrist. He was rescuing a child who's gender could not be determined for the mud. Even finding the country uniform proves nothing as other countries would be helping. It was making me depressed and I could not turn it off. I've had these future disaster trips before. The Hallum Nebraska tornado damage looked very similar to a psychedelic dream(mixed benzos, alcohol, and more to achieve it.Don't remember psych used). I walked and it was quiet, little left and a damaged sign post that looked like one on TV. That makes me worry that this next one will come to pass. I did not view the tornado damage as being of the future, and enjoyed gazing around at the devastation. I was asleep but in complete control. I just didn't know it wasn't real.
If my disaster portion of the trip is real, maybe it will repeat and give me useful information. I doub't it was really any specific disaster that will happen.
. Anyone have any advice? Til then just gonna pop a mad rimmer of mid grade.
