I'm sick today and still have infection in my elbow. My hand got worse for no apparent reason and is swollen pretty bad today but it was barely swollen any if at all yesterday. I think it may have some infection in it somehow as it was hot earlier and the bottom is still hot and red but the rest is cold or normal temperature now.
I am taking lots of drugs to get high. I am taking other drugs for medical reasons that have some mind altering properties and some that don't but should make me feel better.
Also a long list of supplements that I know have significant mood boosting and nootropic effects in combination and somehow also make me feel more alert/awake and relaxed at the same time.
I'll be smoking my electronic cigarette throughout the rest of the day and as late into the night as I can stay awake - rocky road flavor, 30mg nicotine level with caffeine, weight loss formula, and sweetener. When I get some good chems to mix with e-cig fluid, I'll make another special blend. I'll try to figure out which happy pills are water soluble so I can crush some of them all up in a mix and filter out binders with cotton balls and then get rid of any binder remnants with these ??# micron filters I can buy online - don't remember the number.
Here is the list that hopefully will be fun and not dangerous:
Drugs that get you high and potentiators: 120mg hydrocodone, 62.5mg diphenoxylate, 15mg temazepam, 3mg alprazolam, 200mg Lyrica/pregabalin, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg Provigil/modafinil, 300mg seroquel XR (I am prescribed 1,200mg instant release per night but did not take any last night - used to take XR), 600mg gabapentin 50mg promethazine, 50mg diphenhydramine, 25mg doxylamine succinate, 800mg cimetidine
Slightly mind altering drugs taken for medical purposes: 30mg dicyclomine, 200mg lamotrigine, 30mg buspirone, 8mg ondansetron, one perinorm pill, 40mg prednisone, 50mg topirimate
Supplements - many mood enhancing, energizing, or otherwise slightly mind altering: 18mg noopept, 37.5mg tianeptine (actually a prescription antidepressant with strong anxiolytic effects used in Europe which enhances the re-uptake of serotonin instead of inhibiting it, enhances mesolimbic dopamine release and potentiates D2 and D3 receptors , has action on NMDA and AMPA receptors, has neuroprotective properties, has anticonvulsant effects, improves memory, and I think I read somewhere a lcouple of years ago that it can reduce or slow increasing tolerance of opiates), 100mg picamilon (a GABA molecule attached to niacin, crosses the blood brain barrier unlike GABA - feels better than phenibut and has more uses), 100mg vinpocetine, 15g inositol, 600mg sulbutiamine, 2g choline bitartrate, 700mg DMAE bitartrate, 20mg huperzine A, 150mg schizandrol A, 200mg L-DOPA, 2 Lipozene caps, 300mg DHEA, 4 vitamin E pills, 5 panax ginseng pills, 1 evening primrose oil pill, 400mg SAM-e, and 1 multivitamin.
Non recreational drugs that will make me feel better because I am sick (nausea, fever, coughing - my 14 year old nephew had the swine flu and now I may too. Those God-damned cops had to come out and infect us when my brother OD'd like an idiot while I begged him to stop IV'ing my syringe of 3-meo-pcp that I was going to split into like 3 doses by IM injection or plugging a couple of hours after I begged him to stop Iv'ing apple pie flavored vodka with some dietary supplement dissolved in it - did not label but I think it was Noopept. He also told me how he IV'd the xanax pills I let him have while he was shooting that up.
About 4 or 5 days later I stupidly called the pigs when my nephew went into a rage when I dumped a glass of water on his head and he proceeded to destroy all of my mom's collection of western knick knacks on one shelf, I grabbed him when he went to destroy some more valuable things on another shelf so he starts pummeling me in the face and tries to bite me. I get him on the floor and tell him I'll let him go and leave him alone if he stops. I let him go and he punches me in the face sending my glasses across the room somewhere and destroys a lot more of her things because he is angry at me, he threatens her, I scream and yell at him and then wrestle him down again. I threaten him too - we both threaten to kill one another but then I start threatening suicide instead. He tries to bite me so I bite him, but not very hard. I let him go again and he throws a glass and it hits the divider board between the living room and dining room and the shattered glass hits me in the face - I did not get cut but at that point I call the cops because he could have put my eyes out, he is threatening my mom and starting to get physical with her, and he picks up another glass to hurl at my head but then he comes to his senses a bit after the pigs are already on the way. He is 17 years old, so I wasn't picking on a kid - he is almost an adult and we both have Bipolar disorder and were both having episodes at the time. Moral of the story - stay away from the swine, they'll make you ill, man.
We could have both went to jail but we did not want to press charges and the cops decided not to pursue criminal action even though we both had marks and scrapes from assaulting each oter and the house was covered in broken glass.): 1.5g ibuprofen, 500mg naproxen, 300mg benzonatate, some flu med my nephew was prescribed that he did not take. amoxicillin and bactrim for my elbow infection and possible hand infection.
My hand has swollen up a lot again for no apparent reason and was hot earlier but now part of it is getting cold. This problem with my damn hand and elbow has been going on for over two weeks by now, I guess. The last time I went to the ER and they kicked me out pretty much without doing a damn thing other than telling me I needed to be on antibiotics without giving an RX almost resulted in my death. I'm sure I would have died if I had not taken a large dose of several antibiotics when I started really feeling sick and my blood pressure started fucking up the next night. I hope I can sue the bastards, they have it coming. Not even touching my arm, looking when I tried to show how bad it was swollen, interupting me when I started to describe my symptoms and not shutting his fucking mouth until he walked out the door after his maybe 60 second non-examination. I hope the videos I took of my arm, the three sets of discharge papers, witness statements from my parents and nephews, and posts I made on Google circles (hopefully those posts won't be needed or I can get a few individuals I trust who saw them to back me up without exposing everything else I have posted there). Maybe that last heartless asshole can be charged with criminal negligence or something. He has no business pretending to be a doctor.
UPDATE:
Damn, this is a hell of a good combination. If only I had some weed, but really I don't need that - this is so damn good!

:D

Opened up a bottle of Samuel Adams Boston Lager (tasty, not having but this one beer today) to drink with my supper. This is like heaven on Earth or something, I guess. So very good. A fairly moderate sedation, but great euphoria and warmth and a marvelous feeling of being wrapped in a blanket of love. This is a clear headed high, surprisingly. I guess maybe the nootropics, provigil, and my e-cig helped with that.
Gonna have another 400mg cimetidine and a 25mg promethazine suppository to try to keep the hydrocodone and diphenoxylate working longer. May add 1mg more of alprazolam in an hour or two.
Right now I am going to help my nephew get a bunch of good people to spread info with his Google circles because he is starting to make some videos and wants to monetize his account so he can make money like me (I have so far just made cents, but I just got my Adsense account connected a few days ago. Google circles is kind of like a drug to me. I could spend all day on there.