90mg hydrocodone, 15mg temazepam, 4mg clonazepam, 2mg alprazolam, 300mg Lyrica/pregabalin, 50mg diphenhydramine, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and 600mg cimetidine to potentiate hydrocodone and alprazolam.
Also taking cipro and amoxocillin for an arm infection that is worsening once again because the doctors won't help me or give me the time of day. It has almost killed me at least twice already.
And 30mg prednisone, a steroid. I was prescribed methylprednisone for it and that ran out days ago so I am using some of my mom's leftover prednisone.
The Lyrica and cyclobenzaprine will help with the nerve damage, numbness, and paresthesia in my hand. That had also cleared up but rapidly wosened today for no apparent reason. Both of these are mind altering.
Taking 200mg Provigil/modafinil and 150mg caffeine to combat drowsiness.
Drinking one Leinenkugel's Snowdrift Vanilla Porter beer (very tasty beer, adding just a touch of splenda to make it better - I've really learned to appreciate the taste of fine beer and other alcoholic beverages the last couple of months, though I rarely have more than 3 in a day and most days I'll have 2 beers. Sometimes I'll have up to five, just one, or none) with a small meal of macaroni salad with some spicy crab salad on top. I normally don't eat meat but I'll make an exception for something like crab that has a very tiny brain and likely can't suffer pain much or at all (it was also reduced, last day to sell before expiring) occasionally or if there is meat that will otherwise go to waste. And if I am eating at someone elses house - I can't expect them to cook a vegetarian meal just for me when I am the only vegetarian there (I rarely eat at other people's houses. I often bring my own food if I am going somewhere else other than a home to eat with a friend or two, or family).
Spending the rest of the day and much of the night selling on eBay - my local Big Lots is closing down and everything is 50-75% off normal prices so I purchased as much as I could. Whatever sells Buy it now before morning goes in the bank so I can get over there again when they open to buy as much more shit as I can to resell.
Had some diphenoxylate (a weak opiate) with atropine for the shits which has been a problem for over a week now.
I am sober as I just swallowed the pills and only tasted the beer. I feel good as it is - I have been strongly manic for most of the last two months (psychiatrist is calling it a mixed episode because I have had brief severe depressive episodes and severe depressive mood swings bad enough that I have gotten very suicidal that last 10 minutes to 2 days). I think it is down to a hypomanic level now.
