still feeling stimulated and content from today's MDMA experience. i waited 29 days since my last roll, and had the day to myself. I've had A LOT of really bad things happening for me lately(lost my job, my girl, owe the hospital like $2600) and I was letting myself get way too down about it. I couldn't get out of bed without opiates. If my dad wouldn't give me my pills, fuck it. Why live?
Today, I sold my day's dose(made myself $30) and bought 1 purple alien and 1 orange ecko, both tested clean and most definitely potent. There have been reports in which test results for aliens and eckos have come back positive for ketamine as well, and I know that the dose would have to be high to feel it while taken orally, but I could've sworn a couple times I was falling down into that rabbit k-hole, especially after a few bong rips. I spent half of my roll with two great friends who gave me a ride home after my bike tire blew out since they didn't want me going anywhere while I was coming up that hard(I was shaking and having uncontrollable smiles come over my face). We came back to my place and smoked a couple grams of some dank herb, and since they really needed to do laundry, I let them do a few loads. It felt good to help them out, and it really helped me out by having them with me. See, that's what friends are for. We had an amazing conversation in which my friend we'll call S(he's almost two decades older than me, kinda like a big brother) put some things into perspective for me and helped me let go of all of the sadness and anger and general feelings of shit, because putting myself through such emotional stress. I was able to let go of a lot today, and I feel so much better. I rolled HARD for a solid five and a half hours, and had an awesome time.
Now, 15mg hydrocodone and a little bit of herb. Feeling nice, it's bed time.