Tryptamine*Dreamer
Ex-Bluelighter
Coming down on 240mg mephedrone and 2mg doc. Im barely staying awake now. I ate 35-45mg of diazepam and 10 bigger than usual pods. Gonna have a beer after I have a smoke.
My weight is down below 250lb for first time in years after peaking at 313 earlier this year. Soon DXM will get me a whole plateau higher with my normal dose!
utter relaxation from poppies, valium, and beer combined with an inner warmth, compassion, and a nice body high from the wearing off stuff. Still the occassional bright, formed visual in the organizing static.
QUOTE=stonedandrolling89;7427223]^ Bro, you need to calm down on the hallucinogens. I just about drove myself batshit insane when I was younger because I was eating and snorting and plugging any psychedelics I could get my hands on, and still don't feel quite 'normal' since. I know that tripping and rolling are fucking amazing, but you've got to start doing these things in moderation or else it's going to lose it's meaning.
Hallucinogens are for more than just getting high, man. I suggest you begin treating them with a bit more respect and start using them responsibly. I HATE to be preaching on here, but I just don't want something that you find so special to you right now to turn into something that you're just doing to escape because you've overdone it. I'm an avid user of hallucinogens myself, but over the past couple years have learned to use them in moderation, when the time and mood and place is right.
Anyway, enough of my morning rant, and no offense to you Tryptamine*Dreamer, I'm just trying to look out for you, brother.
Today, I'm not high at all yet. I will be eventually, though.
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First of all, you are right. I trip too much often and find it hard to control if my supply is there.
Thanks for your concern and no reason to worry much. I decided to put most of my psychedelics in a safe so I would stop it. I did keep some out, what was supposed to be a dose of DOI has become several small enhancerts to mephedrone. Not sure how you classify meph, I consider it at most mildly psychedelic in a similar way to MDMA. This binge is about to end whether I like or not.
I just hope benzo
+depressant combo binges dont take the place of having fun with mephedrone or a pure psychedelic. I now get benzos so dirt cheap I could do 15xsupposed max dose and just be spending pennies. It might as well be an unlimited supply
I plan to smoke 100mg DMT tomorrow or the next day and may use some meph same reason as I would any morning stimulant. I tried smoking 90mg dmt but I probably didn't get even 20 or 30mg. I coughed up right away, felt my throat was on fire and swelling, and even vomited. There was something strangely peaceful and complete even at that low level.
After this, I will be back in college and will rarely have time for DOI and have as a system of reward told and swore myself no tripping if my GPA is below or within 2.0 in any class and my average isn't either 2.9 or higher OR I have at least one A and a GPA of 2.5 or higher
My stashed DOI is gone and nothing else stashed. I got the mephedrone because it is primarily a stimulant and I was too sleep deprived to do well without it.
I did heavily abuse psychedelics 2-3, some times 4 per week for like half a year a number of years back, and it didn't have and lasting effect I can see or anyone has commented about. I dosed high and freqently redosed, tripping 20-40hours at a time.
I realize psychedelic abuse can cause problems even though I escaped unharmed during that one extreme case.Just showing that very severe abuse need not lead to irreperable damage..
This last episode wasn't nearly as over the top as some. 3 or 4 times doi 2 weeks+ after a period of JWH-073 abuse and a 3 or 4 DOC trips, and 2 or 3 days with mephedrone. Maybe 8 or 9 with JWH-018. One not well absorbed hit of dmt. I guess looking at it, it was probably at least 2 or so times what anyone should attempt in around 6 weeks
As said, I can't sustain this. Danger coming to an end for me, here. My sanity will hopefully last through the fall when I tend to trip rarely unless something fast available((salvia past). Same for the spring. Though each one has breaks ,for taking a trip. A weekend could be used if I manage to get a class that is just too easy to ace to spend more than 15min studying. Like the first programming class that earned me an a while I barely touched the book and didn't do all assignments. Nearly half failed, which seemed like a shock
Perhaps I should start worrying about <$30 getting me a whole gram of a benzo that is normally used at 0.5mg or less. Benzo withdrawal is a bitch,. I've heard. They can also shrink the brain. Either they go in safe or I abuse the hell out of possibly many more grams of it.
I don't have the phenazepam but I am nearly sure it'll be sent. Should 400-500 doses even if I am a pig.
My weight is down below 250lb for first time in years after peaking at 313 earlier this year. Soon DXM will get me a whole plateau higher with my normal dose!
utter relaxation from poppies, valium, and beer combined with an inner warmth, compassion, and a nice body high from the wearing off stuff. Still the occassional bright, formed visual in the organizing static.
QUOTE=stonedandrolling89;7427223]^ Bro, you need to calm down on the hallucinogens. I just about drove myself batshit insane when I was younger because I was eating and snorting and plugging any psychedelics I could get my hands on, and still don't feel quite 'normal' since. I know that tripping and rolling are fucking amazing, but you've got to start doing these things in moderation or else it's going to lose it's meaning.
Hallucinogens are for more than just getting high, man. I suggest you begin treating them with a bit more respect and start using them responsibly. I HATE to be preaching on here, but I just don't want something that you find so special to you right now to turn into something that you're just doing to escape because you've overdone it. I'm an avid user of hallucinogens myself, but over the past couple years have learned to use them in moderation, when the time and mood and place is right.
Anyway, enough of my morning rant, and no offense to you Tryptamine*Dreamer, I'm just trying to look out for you, brother.
Today, I'm not high at all yet. I will be eventually, though.
[/QUOTE]First of all, you are right. I trip too much often and find it hard to control if my supply is there.
Thanks for your concern and no reason to worry much. I decided to put most of my psychedelics in a safe so I would stop it. I did keep some out, what was supposed to be a dose of DOI has become several small enhancerts to mephedrone. Not sure how you classify meph, I consider it at most mildly psychedelic in a similar way to MDMA. This binge is about to end whether I like or not.
I just hope benzo
+depressant combo binges dont take the place of having fun with mephedrone or a pure psychedelic. I now get benzos so dirt cheap I could do 15xsupposed max dose and just be spending pennies. It might as well be an unlimited supply
I plan to smoke 100mg DMT tomorrow or the next day and may use some meph same reason as I would any morning stimulant. I tried smoking 90mg dmt but I probably didn't get even 20 or 30mg. I coughed up right away, felt my throat was on fire and swelling, and even vomited. There was something strangely peaceful and complete even at that low level.
After this, I will be back in college and will rarely have time for DOI and have as a system of reward told and swore myself no tripping if my GPA is below or within 2.0 in any class and my average isn't either 2.9 or higher OR I have at least one A and a GPA of 2.5 or higher
My stashed DOI is gone and nothing else stashed. I got the mephedrone because it is primarily a stimulant and I was too sleep deprived to do well without it.
I did heavily abuse psychedelics 2-3, some times 4 per week for like half a year a number of years back, and it didn't have and lasting effect I can see or anyone has commented about. I dosed high and freqently redosed, tripping 20-40hours at a time.
I realize psychedelic abuse can cause problems even though I escaped unharmed during that one extreme case.Just showing that very severe abuse need not lead to irreperable damage..
This last episode wasn't nearly as over the top as some. 3 or 4 times doi 2 weeks+ after a period of JWH-073 abuse and a 3 or 4 DOC trips, and 2 or 3 days with mephedrone. Maybe 8 or 9 with JWH-018. One not well absorbed hit of dmt. I guess looking at it, it was probably at least 2 or so times what anyone should attempt in around 6 weeks
As said, I can't sustain this. Danger coming to an end for me, here. My sanity will hopefully last through the fall when I tend to trip rarely unless something fast available((salvia past). Same for the spring. Though each one has breaks ,for taking a trip. A weekend could be used if I manage to get a class that is just too easy to ace to spend more than 15min studying. Like the first programming class that earned me an a while I barely touched the book and didn't do all assignments. Nearly half failed, which seemed like a shock
Perhaps I should start worrying about <$30 getting me a whole gram of a benzo that is normally used at 0.5mg or less. Benzo withdrawal is a bitch,. I've heard. They can also shrink the brain. Either they go in safe or I abuse the hell out of possibly many more grams of it.
I don't have the phenazepam but I am nearly sure it'll be sent. Should 400-500 doses even if I am a pig.
