Spoiler alert: These are the ramblings of myself on meth. Proceed with caution, or skip to tl;dr if you don't want to read my stim-talk.
As fate would have it today was the first day in weeks I was able to afford & cop dope. Nothing out of the ordinary with that, but oddly today was also the day I stumbeled upon the methamphetamine(but I think you'd already noticed at first glance there would be a powerful upper involved :D )I scored well over a month ago. I lost the 'near-empty' baggy back then, but I knew still had a pretty decent amount of meth sticking to the sides as well as a decent bump of the stuff in one of the corners When I scored it, it was already just a small amount; ~300mg leftover of a gram sold to me by a buddy and I did it 'all' (aside from what I just found) in 3 shots (1 mini dose for allergy testing etc, then 2 pretty strong doses
).
Anyway, I lost the baggy knowing there was still a fairly decent dose in it.. Until just now! I found it in an EMPTY cigarette pack, which I found in my 'messy-drawer' (I keep 'useful junk' in that drawer, like re-usable plastic bags, some old consoles and games, etc. in there, but it's kind of a mess and most of the stuff is likely to never be used again. I also never put drugs or paraphnelia in there, I have a seperate drawer for that in my nightstand, usually I remember to put drugs/paraphernalia in there no matter how high I am at the time but not that time). The times I looked for the baggy, I did check all my drawers and closets. But the meth was overlooked each time.
Small wonder I'd forgotten where it was.. I had put it there after 2 days on meth, while on a fairly large dose of benzos during the come-down. I normally never use that entire closet for anything drug-related either. But I was spun as fuck, and popping benzos. I hadn't forgotten that it might still be in my room somewhere though, so sometimes I'd look for it but I never found it until now, and that was purely by chance.
It's kind of a miracle that I still had it considering it was inside a piece of garbage basically and tough to spot to boot.
And even while I was re-using it for my self-made cigarettes, I filled it up cig by cig, and smoked the pack over the course of the day. So I opened it tons of times before I noticed there was something inside of it. If I had come across the pack at any other time, I would almost certainly not have noticed the baggy. So if I hadn't been out of my normal kind of cigs today it'd have been thrown away. (since I'm broke and had no smokes I had to 'make some' with this little plastic tool for filling up empty cigarette-casings (I have tons of 'volume-tobacco', which is basically the same tobacco they use to make 'real' (machine made) filter cigarettes. I've also just broken my plastic cigarette-container for self-made cigs yesterday, so I had to use an empty pack of smokes to put in my self-made cigs before going out. I found the one with the meth in it and used it, but still didn't notice the meth. Then finally, when there were 3 cigs left in the pack... Wonder oh wonder - the long lost meth ! Found it just before copping dope which was also a lucky break, because I would have done the meth w/ or w/o dope - but I'm glad it's with. Good timing to find it. Also good timing for me to be out of 'real' cigarettes & for the plastic pack I normally use to die - if either one hadn't happened I'd not have found the meth.
Anyway (^by now, can you tell I'm on meth? lol) I cant express myself with less words than I used in the previous paragraphs right now, apologies to anyone I am annoying with this post, feel free to skip it unless you wanna laugh at my tweakin ass and the bullshit I can't keep myself from uttering right now. You won't miss much by skipping it.
I don't have the urge to write wallsoftext/bullshit at ALL anymore on regular amps. (I used to, and I hated it, like I hate writing this pile of bullshit & think it's a bit embarrassing) Screw it though, I'm high AF so I gotta make a post in here - and it takes FOREVER because I keep compulsively adding and editing anything and everything that comes to mind - which is a whole lot of nothing. I'm a little embarrassed to hit post when I'm done writing, but I've put too much time in this post (even though that when I started to write, I had no intention to write this much while saying so little. The most annoying thing is the amount of time I'm spending on this, but I can't stop! And since I already put so much time in this stupid post, I feel like I have to finish writing it. Or else all the time I spent on it will be even more wasted than it already is. *sigh*).
It's been at least year since I've been tweaked out enough, because I hate not being able to express myself with less words. Lol. Meth? Shit, I can't help it!) already.
Anyway, for the size of the dose (couldn't have been more than, say, 30-40mg - guess that's good because this stuff is as good as pure and it came from a very reliable source. Dayum, its effects are quite strong, way more than I expected to get out of my leftover). It's actualy good that I lost it for this long, now my tolerance had a chance to go back down to zero before using the leftover. If I had used it right after using 2 far larger doses (which I probably/likely/almost certainly would have done given the chance), it would probably have been far less effective, far less enjoyable and a waste in general.
TL;DR version : Bought heroin, found back old meth leftover, shot both drugs in the same rig, very euphoric but clearly (lol^) the meth is influencing me the hardest. Although right after the shot my mind would 'wander off', which was definitely caused by the heroin. It kinda felt like a nod, but my eyes don't feel heavy nor do I have a problem keeping them open. Though my mind would feel like it was 'nodding off', my eyes would stay open. Pretty weird feeling. That's probably what a brain fart feels like.
PS: I'm gonna stop rereading this now because every time I do I edit and add so much, that I end up wanting to re-read the post again. And I've wasted enough time on this stupid post as is.
PPS: Meth is fun, but I'm glad I can't get it here. Fucks me up too much. If I were to ever take it again though, I'd stay far away from BL and avoid spending so much time on simply posting a load of crap on here. If there is ever a next time (prolly not though) I'll go play some video games instead, or do something social IRL. Anything but start writing a post/pm/whatever here on BL.
OVER AND OUT NOW.
OT: Still high as fuck off the meth, but it's almost time for some more heroin and then a spliff. I'll also pop some brotizolam & 12mg bromazepam soon.
