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How High Are You? v. On a scale of 1 to Charlie Murphy

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Last night I was completely blasted! The ground started doing weird shit I was tripping balls off just a little bit.
 
Well, I'm beginning to doubt whether or not this post really exists.
Am I who I think I am? Am I really Charlie Murphy? Who is that, and did I dream up humans having the ability to make canned meats?

I'm completely sober, Mom. Stop looking at me
 
got a six pack at the store

gonna have a few, make food, have some more beer, eat more food, and then somewhere in there have a joint and maybe watch a movie.
 
Started the day with about 5g kratom, after work smoked a bowl added 6g kratom now finishing off my last two beers. Not too shabby
 
Oh, and I'm trying to get acclimated to kava. I'm nowhere near Charlie Murphy territory yet.
 
Had a fever the past few days so when I woke up feeling shitty today, I couldn't tell if my body had already developed a minor dependence or it was just me being actually sick. I believe it was a little of both.

Found some hydromorphone while cold copping for some bupe today and they were actually for a really good price that made buying the few the guy had left worth it.

Since 6pm...

6mg hydromorphone
5mg oxycodone

I obviously love the intense rush from just a few mg of the hydromorph, but the high afterwords truly is so lacking. I'm reminded of this on every rare occasion that I get to shoot some.
 
not even three beers in and feelin like shit.

must be a lack of blood sugar or something. anxiety sky high which is fucked up.

imma stop drinking after this one, take 5mg valium, and skip the joint.

need a muthafuckin break tbh. and not like a 3 day or week long break like usual.
 
Still feeling a nice afterglow from the 4g kratom and c-lam/soma from earlier, been smoking a small snap of some nice bud every few hours, so feeling nice. Should be even better after this here snap. :)

@STH - so, what are u saying? taper time? time for a 3 month break?
 
I am thinking it is time to hang up the booze for an undetermined amount of time, probably until Thanksgiving, or Christmas season.

My life has been in a lot of flux lately, and when I quit daily valium in June I took the liberty to use alcohol more often and in greater amount. Big mistake, my body is not happy with the repeated abuse.

No idea what the best solution is for my long term anxiety (blah blah obvious CBT blah blah)

Right now just gotta avoid the beer best I can. Absolutes aren't my thing though.

I am grateful for the awareness that I have even if it disgusts me

Have a nice night everyone :)
 
SirTophamHat said:
I am thinking it is time to hang up the booze for an undetermined amount of time, probably until Thanksgiving, or Christmas season.

My life has been in a lot of flux lately, and when I quit daily valium in June I took the liberty to use alcohol more often and in greater amount. Big mistake, my body is not happy with the repeated abuse.

No idea what the best solution is for my long term anxiety (blah blah obvious CBT blah blah)

Right now just gotta avoid the beer best I can. Absolutes aren't my thing though.

I am grateful for the awareness that I have even if it disgusts me

Have a nice night everyone :)
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I'm rooting for you STH. That awareness shows you bad shit but it'll never steer you wrong.
 
thank you man, i know i talk a lot about my struggles on here. ill try to keep my head down and shut up about it.

OT: 10mg diazepam with a couple glasses of a mango juice blend. i had about 10 corn chips and a six pack of lagunitas for my entire food intake yesterday and didn't sleep last night, so this is pretty much my idea of heaven right now.
 
SirTophamHat said:
thank you man, i know i talk a lot about my struggles on here. ill try to keep my head down and shut up about it.

OT: 10mg diazepam with a couple glasses of a mango juice blend. i had about 10 corn chips and a six pack of lagunitas for my entire food intake yesterday and didn't sleep last night, so this is pretty much my idea of heaven right now.
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I like to think of HHAY as a weird kind of support group where we all do drugs together and talk about our lives. IME strangers on the Internet have changed some areas of my life tremendously. Areas that even friends and family couldn't/wouldn't go near.
 
SirTophamHat said:
thank you man, i know i talk a lot about my struggles on here. ill try to keep my head down and shut up about it.

OT: 10mg diazepam with a couple glasses of a mango juice blend. i had about 10 corn chips and a six pack of lagunitas for my entire food intake yesterday and didn't sleep last night, so this is pretty much my idea of heaven right now.
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There is absolutely no need for that (the bit I bolded), I (as well as most of the DC regulars, I think) consider this thread to be DC's social thread pretty much. And if you're not feeling well I see no reason to shut up about it. Especially here, amongst friends. ;)

OT: Ate 100mg morphine XR, 200mg tramadol XR and 6mg bromazepam, think I'll take my other 6mg right now.
 
hell yeah, STH! best of luck to ya ;):D

SirTophamHat said:
thank you man, i know i talk a lot about my struggles on here. ill try to keep my head down and shut up about it.
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I second what Pill2Chill said, no need for that at all. BL is one of the few places that we can truly get off our chest what's bothering us to an understanding group of supportive people. If anything, tell us more, don't hold that shit in. I try to lend support whenever I can to others, and one of many positives to doing that is that others will hopefully be there for me in return when I'm going through some shit.

I enjoy reading your posts, Topham, make sure to give us updates! :)
 
I also thought I'd add that whenever I turn to this page I see Effect's profile pic of Roger and I imagine him (roger) pushing someone's plate off the dinner table
 
^You must be v high. =D

OT: Added another 100mg morphine, but forgot about the 6mg bromazepam as soon as I made my last post. Gonna take that now.
 
Feeling dreamy... took my usual 4g Kratom and low-dose c-lam/soma but went to sleep for 2.5 hours during the peak, so I immediately made myself a coffee and redosed 1g with lunch. That's what I get for thinking I could stay awake while lying down and listening to soft music while my cat purr-attacks me to sleep, there's no surviving that! =D After a little snap of bud I should be as good as new with no post-nap haze and can get back to work. :)
 
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