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Bluelighter
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But frankly I'll never again likely find a high that can make living on the earth desireable.
I don't know, I always chased being high when living was unbearable, knowing at the same time it might just happen to be beautiful one day. Living to get high? Fuck that. Life's got much more to offer, I'm sure you have aspired for more, why not look into that? All the stuff we experience on drugs can be triggered by life experiences one way or another. I always perceived opioids to be a substitute for deep interpersonal intimacy, but they're empty as hell, they may take away the pain, but they won't fill the void. Getting close to a person is so much more powerful and fulfilling, though I've learned that being able to experience love deeply and true serenity coming of it also means being extremely susceptible to getting intensely hurt, the more powerful love is, the more powerful the pain. I can't imagine myself having touched opioids if it wasn't for the pain inside in the first place. On the other hand psychoactive compounds like MDMA or psychedelics are a completely different thing as they can deepen positive feelings instead of just dulling negatives ones.