Just a line of oxycodone that I did at a buddy's house and a couple hits of weed. Topped off with 10 mgs zolpidem.
I've been unable to really smoke weed like I used to because of my lungs lately. It's really been bumming me out...marijuana is probably my favorite drug and one of the only drugs I don't regret "getting into", and now it's more difficult and irritating for me to smoke it.
Quit speed. Am working on quitting dope for good too, "the scene" has been making me incredibly depressed lately. It's so frustrating because I fucking love drugs. That's just the truth and I'm not even ashamed of it. I love drugs and I love getting high. I can never be one of those people who are into TOTAL SOBRIETY, I know that in my heart...but at the same time I hate addicts for whom drugs are priority #1 in their lives, who are so fiendish and desperate all the goddamn time, and that's who seem to populate most of the hard drug using world around here. It's a struggle to find people who are enthusiasts but also have other things going on in their lives, other passions, and will actually think twice about hurting someone's feelings or ripping off a so-called friend for a trivial amount of dope. I get the feeling that there are some folks like that on this site but it's a real struggle to find them in real life.
^I am so done with the drug scene as well. The only illicit drug I still go pick up sometimes is H, and that's not even my connect. I just sit in the car, wait until the deal is done and I'm dropped back off at home. Other than that I'm not in the scene at all anymore. Pharmaceuticals are pretty much the only thing I take aside from the heroin. And weed.. But I always go to Holland and buy it legally there.
Overall I'm pretty happy with my virtually nonexistant 'in-the-scene-ness'. :D
There's old contacts of mine that I could reach out to and who would still serve me because I was a good costumer and eventually friend of theirs (it's a father and son, both deal drugs; weed amphetamines cocaine and they can get xtc if you ask). But those drugs don't really interest me anymore (aside from weed but I much prefer Holland quality and I like choosing my strain. It also costs less. Yeah.. I don't like the sketchy-ness of the illegal drug scene one bit, never have.. But you deal with it because you want your stuff... Thankfully I can get most of what I need in a pharmacy or store.
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Damn high from that shot from earlier, going to roll a spliff and enjoy this high. Feelsgoodmayne.
The high I get from speed insufflation is so much more appreciable than the one I get from oral consumption.
Started using nasal spray again, instead of capsules. Lines became a no-go, considering their size, with my tolerance.
So yeah: Pretty high and waking up pleasantly this morning%)
In the past I would've agreed. Now, after a few years of heavy daily amphetamine abuse; nasal consumption makes me notice the side effects much more. The dry mouth/nose is a LOT worse when snorted for example, I have more 'tics', I'm just overall more anxious when I snort. If I take it orally and the effects come on slow.. The contrast is far less great, and it will make the shitty side-effect a lot less pronounced for me than they are with nasal.
FINAL EDIT: It is now 4 hours after that big shot. I just shot up another 120mg oxy, and took 1 mg alprazolam. About to light my last spliff for the last super-heavy-uncontrollable nod for a while. (I'll be out of weed, and I'm slowing down on the doses for a while as well as keeping off the H entirely for a few days.) It's gonna be an awesome nod! But honestly?
I'm getting bored with these nods anyway, the ones with weed I mean - if I smoke weed on top I'll be literally in a half-passed out stupor during which there is very little I'm capable of and have no short-term memory whatsoever. I feel super euphoric and good, that much I know, but afterwards I'll have forgotten most if not all the details. That's why I don't mind a break from the weed. Keeps the opiate high a lot more clearheaded and keeps the memory more intact, even despite the benzos I take. They don't fuck with my short-term memory as much as weed does, not by a long shot.