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How High Are You v. Not High Enough for this Life

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To Pill2Chill - no hard feelings, but I think you will find that much of what I have been saying is reality. And I do not know what Brightheart they are talking about may not be a purple raccoon but something is able to teleport objects around and drugs I needed the last time I got sick directly into unopened cans and unopened bottled water and I thought the bitterness was poison and it was Doctor Who teleporting the drugs into my stuff. I am being told right now by the BrightHeart entity as I was before this

Decided against the DXM

I wish I could go to Canada, SweetyJane77. Anyway, I am depressed. My nephew just beat the Hell out of me because I got sick of him finger tapping false information about the Deet (and was having thoughts about wanting God to take him out) program and telling me it was God talking to me and doing that souls swapping thing when I used DXM and weed a week or so ago to drive me crazy and think it was an entity (Brightheart, one of the damned care bear cousins whose image he keeps flashing in my face) saving me from the aneurysm that Lucky told me with telepathy last year that I would have if I did not stop smoking and I felt it pop and my mind fuck up and there were two other entities in my brain I could talk to who were stopping the bleeding while God supposedly fixed it with them and I could feel one in my brain that was asking me to help find a way out so I was using my finger to try to guide him slowly through the ventricles to a way out but I can't see inside my own brain. God told me to stop and let him help so I did.

They had to repeat it. My brain somehow regenerated to a better state with cleared thinking than it has had before I got my brain damaged by having meningitis for two months and what I guess was a telepathic overdose while soger that my mom found me in a state where I was not breathing at all and it took her about three minutes to get me to start breathing and my breathing stopped for 5.5-6 minutes altogether including before I was found according to the people on my telepathic line who were trying to wake me and get someone else to help my and I don't know how she managed to get there in time. I was just sleeping in the afternoon on Lucky's bed and he could not wake me up either. And after that my eyes were crossed and this God incident fixed that and that cloudy thinking I have had since the meningitis but I am crazy because I was dumb enough to believe that God was talking to me when he was telling me Brightheart was saving my life by plugging up the stroke I was given in my brain stem that I could feel earlier today. That was my nephew fucking with my head.

But now I think it may have been my nephew the whole time because I am trying to stop the government program that uses animals (mostly telepathic raccoons that are supposed to be talking with me and I only got onr raccoon but he was teleported away when I went to the mental institution back to the second one I got after they took the first the time before that and replaced him with one that looks a lot different (he was the first one I got I am told and he has a very large white crescent mark on him and a large scar across the chest and what looks like a smaller one on the abdomen where he was cut open. And they kept swelling him up.

He was gone when I got back from Terrell and I had one without that marking. I was very sick and did not want to make him sick and was sad they were part of this torture drug telepathy program run by sadists who like to mutilate them and did not spend but like five minutes with him g=because I did not want him getting sick from me. The teleportation occurred when I had my head turned away from him and the badly tortured one was then up in the closet in under 10 seconds from inside a catbed on the other side of the room and they look very different and I know it happened but then I went back he was teleported away again and now I have the first back. I now have 20 animals, mostly raccoons but some of them are supposedly bears and they have all been tortured by Terrell according to what I am told by "God" and "Brightheart' and some of the animals that get in my head including a polar bear that had three of his legs and left arm cut off and a moon bear that has been tortured and a raccoon they call Deet whose feet were cut off because they were angry that I found out or at least for the polar bear, because of cucked up thoughts I had where this was done to a polar bear in my imagination.. But now I think Johnny is making lots of it up to make me suffer because I am wanting to save them so bad and can't.

And people on Bluelight just think I am crazy because this is so bizarre. I am going to try to prove it and my nephew is going to that same institution and he is a powerful telepath who can probably help out some. I am hoping that I get the other raccoon back and I would like to be able to care for all the others in that list of 20 in the large mansion/dwelling I will be living in with other people who are helping these animal people and when it comes out (so the animals who are all highly intelligent and telepathic and I am told some are even more intelligent that humans who telepathic due to the rapid speed they are learning and they even have learned mathematics through multiplication in some cases. And polar bears are supposed to be able to read the future better that any other species we know of from what I am told but maybe Johnny or some other sicko is making everything up and they are just torturing the raccoons that I know and all that naloxone/naltrexone drug torture/punishment that started giving me as soon as I went there was from people who volunteered instead of animals that were given no choice but to torture and hurt me and cause me to have what I think was another minor heart attack while I was denied medical treatment. They were trying to murder me (the humans, the animals were just torture victims) and I got angry about because I was called nuts and needed to go back to the same place that tried to kill me more than once. But I understand why you think that, P2C and I think you are a cool guy even though we don't know each other.

I still believe what I believe about the Deet program and will not post so much here since it isn't appropriate (though it is making me want to binge on drugs and hurt myself - the Deet program I mean). And if that polar bear is real, his greatest wish other than freedom from the program is to get in the water and I have explained how that can be done.

All hypertelepathic people and part of the telepathic animals in the Deet program will have to relocate to a new, pleasant place - possibly given our own city or one where we can cure everyone and make it a disease free zone as we can use drug telepathy to spread cures to people and animals and these intelligent animals will have to be given the same rights as us including voting when they are educated enough.
 
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^Take care of yourself man. :\

Well, my day got just that little bit better. After resigning myself to the fact that I wouldn't be able to pick up any smack 'til next week, my luck changed. Acquired a point of some very pure rock. Not a lot, but enough to hopefully put a little spring in my step, ha.

So, feeling okay. 10mg methadone + 30mg DXM + caffeine + a sprinkling of heroin.
 
T*D, don't you have ANY sense left? Again, I don't want to be condescending, rude or disrespectful..

EVERY single person on the planet (save for the ones who have severe mental illness themselves, they might believe in your crazy stories.) will tell you that you have mental illness and need treatment after reading your posts on here or probably hearing your (sorry if this is harsh) crazy babbling irl. Every real person that isn't in your head, at least. People who are 'communicating with you through telepathy and thus confirming your telepathy theory don't count, because there is zero proof of their existence'. They are just voices in your head and they are not real. So 'their opinion' isn't actually anyone's opinion at all. It's just a figment of your imagination.

Now, a 'normal' (sorry for the terminology. Again, I don't wish to be condescending or mean) person would question him/herself if the above occurred. But you.. You simply figure it must all be because telepathic raccoons are being tortured by the government, and that these raccoons can predict the weather and natural disasters. Can't you see that that isn't a normal train of thought? Don't you see that these thoughts are... Crazy?

When I repeat that back to you, what goes through your mind? I really wonder.. Does any of it sink in at all or are you just dismissing this as me being ignorant?

Someone VERY close to me has a mental illness that leaves him delusional at times as well. (paranoid schizophrenia; basically he is often in a state of psychosis. Which sounds a lot like what you might have IMO) And when I rephrase the craziness he is spouting at times, he actually doesn't know what to say and looks embarrassed. He will then quickly change the subject, or do anything to avoid continuing the conversation about that topic. Anyway man this is my last try; get on heavy antipsychotics ASAP. You NEED them.

The truly tragic part about this kind of mental illness is that this (genuine) attempt to help you will more than likely fall on deaf ears and have no effect whatsoever... I just wanted to try regardless.. I mean no disrespect by anything I've written in this post. This type of delusional thinking just hits very close to home for me, because as I've mentioned earlier, a VERY close family member suffers from delusions as well.

OT: Very high on oxy, needs more benzos though. Guess I'll pop my last MG of alprazolam.
 
Had a crazy day at work. I got my ass effectively kicked. Now I'm ready to wind down and chill with my homie. I just ate 30mg of oxycodone and snorted another 15mg. It's starting to peak now and I feel great. I have a dab sitting on the dabber ready to be taken. I'm gonna go ahead and take that as soon as I post this, then kick it with my bro and watch Wolf of Wall Street. Peace e'erbody. %)
 
Jelly of the dabs^ :(
Enjoy your evening though man!

I took another ~50mg oxy and decided to'take 6mg bromazepam instead and hang on to my last mg of alprazolam until tomorrow ';)
 
Haha thanks brotha. =D I'm jelly of all the oxy you have lol, but I have a low tolerance these days cause I don't take opiates often. I've actually been dabbing a fuckton lately. I really miss dank weed and fat bong rips right now. I have a high tolerance to BHO but some fire nugs will still get me blasted. It's like I have a separate tolerance for each of them, it's weird lol. But I just took another dab so I'm nice and stoned. Turning out to be a nice night so far. Starting to nod out a bit so I'm probably gonna sign off for now. P2C, enjoy your evening too my man.

And shout out to the people I hardly ever see anymore but are still holding DC down: SirTopham, Whosa, RGB, phatass, F-monk, Tryptamino, and anyone I might have missed (I'm high). Hope all is well with you fellas. And everyone else here. Good vibes to all of you. Peace. %)
 
Just drinking coffee.
I got some opium from a spanish guy, i'll try it tonight.
This will be my first time with opium
 
And to you G.

bout to sniff some more oxy. im off the wagon fellas. did well up until now. yeah ptc, my mom has similar delusions and paranoia (in addition to cancer). glad i dont live with her and she has carers, but ive learned top to explain rationality to people in these states is a pointless task that only ends up stressing u.
 
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Got .75g of really good #4 Aussie heroin this morning. I have a fair tolerance and I take 14mg Suboxone most days but if I miss a dose(for example I dosed yesterday morning, not this morning, so 24hrs since a dose) I will feel it fully.

I've had 5 decent shots and have one big one left. I'm absolutely hammered too :-)
 
20g kratom tea, with a bowl of a mix of primarily Cannabis (the strain is called LSD), but mixed with tobacco, lobelia, lavender, lemon verbana, and damiana. Made tea for the second time ever, this time doing a cold extract first and then freezing it over night, then boiling the frozen mix in the morning, straining immediately. The results are quite pleasant, quick onset, clean high, no nausea to speak of, yet. Gonna brew a cup of either yerba mate or some english breakfast tea.
 
~!!! WARNING: OFF-TOPIC CONTENT! PROCEED WITH CAUTION!!!~ Went through my last script of zopiclone really quickly and had a few days with blank moments, so I decided to give it a few weeks off and see if I want to take it again. Interestingly, I didn't notice any kind of rebound/WD symptoms after stopping (I took 150 mg over like 6 days), so that was cool. It's now been about 2 weeks since I ran out, so I decided to call up my doc, who is a very decent, lovely lady, and asked for another script. </offtopic>

So here I am now, recently taken the cocktail of 15 mg zopiclone, 1000 mg codeine and some 150 mg caffeine. The only downside of it is the bitter taste in mouth that I haven't been able to get rid of.
 
Brewing coffee #2. I think I have enough weed to last me until tomorrow.

This should be a pretty decent weekend, I'm thinking. Weather is supposed to improve next week as well.
 
Oxy'd, bromaz'd and alpraz'd. Feeling very good! About to smoke a spliff with my best mate! Cya'll later BL <3
 
^ heavily oxyied. the point where you push through the stimulation into heavy sedation (i don't need to tell u that this requires quantity when ur tolerant af).
I am comotose, gonna be nodding to sleep boys.
on like 180 mgs oxycontin 40 mg and oxynorm 20 mg IR in the last 2 hours or so (big amount for such a short time).
+ 2 mgs loprazolam (second best benzo for me, only under midazolam in it's euphoric onset).

keep nodding off, takes a lot of oxy to achieve this with tolerance.

goodnight fellas, keep it real.
 
2,100mg DXM, 100mg hydroxyzine, 30mg temazepam, 30mg hydrocodone
Gonna smoke weed and maybe k-2 at the peak

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Decided to add another 240mg DXM for a total of 2,340mg. Will probably break the 3g barrier.
I'll be happy to die.


And for anyone who thinks I should not do this to my mother, you do not know what kind of evil, manipulative witch she is.
 
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Continuously high on tar. This tar was given to me for free and it's awesome. Unusually good, it's sourced from the southwest United States and I can believe that, it's strong as fuck. I don't know why some people don't like tar...yeah a lot of tar sucks but some tar, some tar, is unbelievably good as a drug, esp. if you're into smoking. And tar + cannabis? That's god-tier...

I also took two dab hits and smoked a blunt.

The only problem with tar is I feel really low class freebasing drugs off foil for some reason. Weirdly enough it feels even less classy than IVing lol
 
^Ha, I feel the same regarding my foil & straw endeavours. Doesn't matter how damn expensive the drug is, there's no way of glamourising it!

OT: 30mg DXM, low dose 'done & caffeine. Will follow up shortly with 10mg d-amp. Not high, but heading towards functional.
 
Not high enough, tired of the feeling of kratom
using kava to withdrawal, but fighting the boredom
 
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