Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
woke up, took some hydrocodone that my buddy traded me for a few hits of acid (he got rx'd 10mg norcos just for getting his wisdom teeth yanked which is unheard of), 80mg.
How High Are You? v. Meff For The People
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NerdOnDrugs
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Wake you up? Started yesterday?!?!?! u poosay!
Getting kinda drunk now everything else has faded. I might keep drinking....
If meth was back in my life I could quadtriple that... and still beat u in jeopardy
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Smokin weed on weed on stacks on weed....
Folley
Bluelighter
Actually I had a few grams of GHB as well haha, plenty of weed too. I'd dose more psychedelics but I have a long car ride with my parents in a few hours lol. I can handle my shit just fine but it's that cramped, nothing to do feeling that I'm really not looking forward too
Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
I've kept a pattern recently of having an opioid in the morning, a drink at lunchtime, and plenty of weed in the evening, and today should be no different. About to crack my second beer.
exists
Bluelighter
Coming up on 120 mg DXM, 60 mg pentazocine, 1200 mg gabapentin. The coffee shakes have settled. Smoking on pipe resin. Prepared another 180 mg DXM. Starting to feel high....
Stay happy everyone, stay safe, and if necessary... stay high!
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Stay happy everyone, stay safe, and if necessary... stay high!
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SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
woke up, had small bit of bupe (<.5mg) in the morning with a spliff and coffee, and been smoking spliffs since continuously. Just got back home from a lengthy burger excursion and cracked a DIPA to ease in the evening. Relaxed as fux.
Tryptamine*Dreamer
Ex-Bluelighter
Hit of weed, 2.5mg clonazepam, 1g phenibut, 1mg lorazepam, 75mg hydrocodone, 50mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg diphenhydramine, 600mg cimetidine to potentiate, 3 omeprazole pills to potentiate alprazolam when I take it.
After the last post I made during that trip, I smoked a big hit of weed and 4mg 25C-NBOME. I had taken 6mg clonazepam and 37.5mg hydrocodone about 60-90 minutes before that..
Ever since a certain part of Friday afternoon-Satarday morning or afternoon's trip where I pretty much relived a memory, I have been having moments, just a few seconds and probably never even for over 30 seconds, I'll start feeling the same things I felt while that was really happening. The intensity and completeness of the emotional content varies. I also get these mental images and movies that are transparent and incomplete.
I was like in a bodyless state or did not remember my real body. It seemed like I was a little kid again. I wasn't sure what was going on, there was a lot of blood. It was a pig getting slaughtered (I unfortunately don't mean a cop). My parents raised pigs to be slaughtered. For some reason they allowed this one to be my pet. I named it Miss Piggy and all the pigs were gently and my brother and I played with them like pets.
For some reason, watching that pig that I considered my pet when I was about 4 years old was appropriate entertainment for a four year old who really likes animals. I was nnot far away and I could see blood pouring from its throat and it was still alive and I knew it did not want to die and I was freaked out and I wanted them to stop. I don't think my mom was around while it happened. My dad and at least two other guys were and they were not getting me away from there and I was freaking out.
I never remembered that part very well, but now either I remembered it well or I hallucinated a more vivid version. I have always remembered very well seeing after it had been carved up and the pieces of flesh were quiviering, seeing the nose and ear and part of a face and legs moving that it still had senses and it felt all the pain of bing cut into pieces. Some man tried to tell me that it did not hurt, that it was just nerves and the pigs were dead. Like I am going to believe that at age four years ald. I thought it was in pain like hell where every part of your body is in torture.
It is the feeling of horror and sorrow and all those things that you would feel if looking at and knowing something you cared about as in the same kind of pain someone burning in hell is in that I felt when looking at the chopped up body parts still moving and twitching and thinking that the chopped up pig could feel the pain of its body being chopped to pieces that predominated this part of the trip. I had the vision of the throat being cut and all the blood andthe pig not being dead, moving its head and making sound and obviously not wanting to die while blood pours ou as it hangs by a rope from its back feet once and some fragments but I kept seeing the moving pieces and having horrible feelings for quite a while, over and over.
The trip ended but I am still getting this effect at a lower level. The emotions are not usually even close to complete and the vision is not so clear. It should have stopped. I think it will stop eventually. I keep getting that feeling of when I was watching its chopped up body with things like its nose moving like it was smelling of something even though the pig id chopped apart. I thought it could smell me. I thought it could feel the pain of being chopped into pieces.
I know the event happened, but maybe I really didn't see it getting its throat cut. I did think I remembered seeing that happen long before this trip but I could barely remember anything at all about watching the pig die. I knew there was a lot of blood pouring out. I don't know If this made me hallucinate a new version or remember the actual event
I hope these feelings stop. It is creepy, disturbing, and a feeling of sadness and being very disturbed.
Why the fuck did they make me watch that anyway? Did they think I was going to have fun? I have no idea what went on between the slaughter and having it all shopped up. I guess they didn't have me to watch them cutting the pieces apart. Just see throats bleed and chopped up body parts quivering and jerking because the cells in some parts of the body die faster.
Why do my trips so frequently involve remembering or reliving bad things that happened? Whay not remember and relieve some good times? I have, but very few times.
Now I am going to have another 2mg lorazepam, 1.5mg alprazolam, 300mg pregabalin, 30mg hydrocodone, however much weed I want, and I'll be sippin' on a Heineken beer with an e-cig within reach.
Gonna smoke a bunch of weed until I am as stoned as I can get. I think weed affects me more strongly than most people. I could not go half a minute without laughing when smoking with my friend the night I got it. I also seem happier when sober now than before I got the weed more often than not, though there is still much room for improvement
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Or maybe I have been at least slightly stoned since getting the weed. This is better than the synthetics except maybe 5-f-akb48. I know weed and 5-f-akb48 would go good together Just smoked a hit of weed about to have another big one.
After the last post I made during that trip, I smoked a big hit of weed and 4mg 25C-NBOME. I had taken 6mg clonazepam and 37.5mg hydrocodone about 60-90 minutes before that..
Ever since a certain part of Friday afternoon-Satarday morning or afternoon's trip where I pretty much relived a memory, I have been having moments, just a few seconds and probably never even for over 30 seconds, I'll start feeling the same things I felt while that was really happening. The intensity and completeness of the emotional content varies. I also get these mental images and movies that are transparent and incomplete.
I was like in a bodyless state or did not remember my real body. It seemed like I was a little kid again. I wasn't sure what was going on, there was a lot of blood. It was a pig getting slaughtered (I unfortunately don't mean a cop). My parents raised pigs to be slaughtered. For some reason they allowed this one to be my pet. I named it Miss Piggy and all the pigs were gently and my brother and I played with them like pets.
For some reason, watching that pig that I considered my pet when I was about 4 years old was appropriate entertainment for a four year old who really likes animals. I was nnot far away and I could see blood pouring from its throat and it was still alive and I knew it did not want to die and I was freaked out and I wanted them to stop. I don't think my mom was around while it happened. My dad and at least two other guys were and they were not getting me away from there and I was freaking out.
I never remembered that part very well, but now either I remembered it well or I hallucinated a more vivid version. I have always remembered very well seeing after it had been carved up and the pieces of flesh were quiviering, seeing the nose and ear and part of a face and legs moving that it still had senses and it felt all the pain of bing cut into pieces. Some man tried to tell me that it did not hurt, that it was just nerves and the pigs were dead. Like I am going to believe that at age four years ald. I thought it was in pain like hell where every part of your body is in torture.
It is the feeling of horror and sorrow and all those things that you would feel if looking at and knowing something you cared about as in the same kind of pain someone burning in hell is in that I felt when looking at the chopped up body parts still moving and twitching and thinking that the chopped up pig could feel the pain of its body being chopped to pieces that predominated this part of the trip. I had the vision of the throat being cut and all the blood andthe pig not being dead, moving its head and making sound and obviously not wanting to die while blood pours ou as it hangs by a rope from its back feet once and some fragments but I kept seeing the moving pieces and having horrible feelings for quite a while, over and over.
The trip ended but I am still getting this effect at a lower level. The emotions are not usually even close to complete and the vision is not so clear. It should have stopped. I think it will stop eventually. I keep getting that feeling of when I was watching its chopped up body with things like its nose moving like it was smelling of something even though the pig id chopped apart. I thought it could smell me. I thought it could feel the pain of being chopped into pieces.
I know the event happened, but maybe I really didn't see it getting its throat cut. I did think I remembered seeing that happen long before this trip but I could barely remember anything at all about watching the pig die. I knew there was a lot of blood pouring out. I don't know If this made me hallucinate a new version or remember the actual event
I hope these feelings stop. It is creepy, disturbing, and a feeling of sadness and being very disturbed.
Why the fuck did they make me watch that anyway? Did they think I was going to have fun? I have no idea what went on between the slaughter and having it all shopped up. I guess they didn't have me to watch them cutting the pieces apart. Just see throats bleed and chopped up body parts quivering and jerking because the cells in some parts of the body die faster.
Why do my trips so frequently involve remembering or reliving bad things that happened? Whay not remember and relieve some good times? I have, but very few times.
Now I am going to have another 2mg lorazepam, 1.5mg alprazolam, 300mg pregabalin, 30mg hydrocodone, however much weed I want, and I'll be sippin' on a Heineken beer with an e-cig within reach.
Gonna smoke a bunch of weed until I am as stoned as I can get. I think weed affects me more strongly than most people. I could not go half a minute without laughing when smoking with my friend the night I got it. I also seem happier when sober now than before I got the weed more often than not, though there is still much room for improvement
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Or maybe I have been at least slightly stoned since getting the weed. This is better than the synthetics except maybe 5-f-akb48. I know weed and 5-f-akb48 would go good together Just smoked a hit of weed about to have another big one.
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SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
T*D, I don't mean to seem uninterested in your experience itself, but I have to ask you... why do you desire to keep tripping during your compromised mental state? This is not accusatory, I am merely wondering why you force hallucinations (unpleasant ones) upon yourself when you could go in the direction of healing by abstaining. It would save you a lot of anguish to put away the psychedelics for a while, mate.
Professer
Bluelighter
Re: memories / past experiences
Perhaps you still are holding onto some of those things from the past, subconsciously perhaps, and the psychs are bringing it out for a reason. I like to think all things happen for a reason. But you should take it easy man, give your body/mind a break. Your posts are entertaining to read, but some of us are concerned about your excessive use. Be safe man.
On topic: I took my ration of AH-7921 for the night and am smoking on some high grade cannabis indica. Planning to use my last bit to cook into a single-serving edible for tomorrow. Also took my 'baseline' kratom dose too, as always. Going to see the doc tomorrow. Should get a new rx then.
Perhaps you still are holding onto some of those things from the past, subconsciously perhaps, and the psychs are bringing it out for a reason. I like to think all things happen for a reason. But you should take it easy man, give your body/mind a break. Your posts are entertaining to read, but some of us are concerned about your excessive use. Be safe man.
On topic: I took my ration of AH-7921 for the night and am smoking on some high grade cannabis indica. Planning to use my last bit to cook into a single-serving edible for tomorrow. Also took my 'baseline' kratom dose too, as always. Going to see the doc tomorrow. Should get a new rx then.
weekend addiction
Bluelighter
Not as high as I'd like to be.
TweakFace
Bluelighter
Now up to 60mg Valium
Couple beers and one baby pussy shot of Jonny Walker black and plenty of M's and blunts
Couple beers and one baby pussy shot of Jonny Walker black and plenty of M's and blunts
dopemegently
Bluelighter
12mg of suboxone, 7g of phenibut, and 4mg etizolam, plus a shit load of caffeine
I feel fucking fantastic!
I feel fucking fantastic!
FadedTryptamine
Bluelighter
Great buzz going, currently puffing on a tasty E-Cig and sipping on some sweet tea... 30mgs of Hydrocodone+4mgs of Alprazolam, dank cannabis and vaping hash oil.
Tryptamine*Dreamer
Ex-Bluelighter
Reply to Sir Tophamhat:
Tripping is exciting and most of this trip was good. I'll accept the bad parts for the good parts and all the trips that are just completely or almost sompletely good. There is nothing I can do that is more fun or exciting, I will probably return to normal. Maybe I just need to get completely sober.
Anyway, I won't stop trippin/ Maybe take a short break but first I'll smoke little weed for a day or two. Maybe too much weed is making it worse or causing it. I also have not taken my psych meds and have not slept much since whenever I started smoking thar weed,, if I remember right,
Tripping is exciting and most of this trip was good. I'll accept the bad parts for the good parts and all the trips that are just completely or almost sompletely good. There is nothing I can do that is more fun or exciting, I will probably return to normal. Maybe I just need to get completely sober.
Anyway, I won't stop trippin/ Maybe take a short break but first I'll smoke little weed for a day or two. Maybe too much weed is making it worse or causing it. I also have not taken my psych meds and have not slept much since whenever I started smoking thar weed,, if I remember right,
weekend addiction
Bluelighter
^When I smoke a lot of weed I will never sleep and am shy about taking meds. Even things like benzos that don't cause me any side effects.
Whosajiggawaaa
Bluelighter
just snorted 2 medium sized herrron lines. just couldn't take my oxy withdrawal. my dealer had to get on a reserve list to get this quality Thai White 70%, it's scarce as shit. he was gonna sell me the 3.5 gs he reserved then he said ima be nice cos he knows i just wanna make it to oxy day tomo so i'll sell u a niiice g. it's SLIGHTLY almost indisguingsably(from white) beige with lots of chunks. and it's practically indistuinguishable from oxy high, except the warm huggy love. I took a sub at 6 am and at 7 am and im still feeling the herron now. are there any other effective ROA's besides snorting and spiking.
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smokemctoke420
Bluelighter
Plugging. Other then that you can attempt to smoke it I guess
Ot: 2 mg sub
Dank
Cigs
Ot: 2 mg sub
Dank
Cigs
Whosajiggawaaa
Bluelighter
What, what, in the butt ?
Whosajiggawaaa
Bluelighter
Herion is literally the same as oxy but with much, much smaller lines to snort. Oxy = legal herion is what I've discovered having broken my last mental taboo.
Edit: having done another bigger line, i'll say herion and oxy would be indistuinguishable if it weren't for the body high and extra sedation. Def same level of euphoria nasally.
Edit 2.0: It was 60% purity i just added the extra 10 % to spice up the post.
Looking forward to a fat line of white herron and some tv and pizza.
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