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In some srsly pain, but an updates in order; 40mg Hydro + 4.5mg Flubro-LAM.. This 3-FMP was calling my name, so I eye-bawled 20mg to the nose.. Nice compound thus far, feeling up'n'down.. Batch is quite raw, so it's feeling like.. Ermm, 50mg Vyvanse, just not geeked up, though it might go that way, we'll see soon. Burn is similar to M-Amp, just way less brutal / duration seems about 30-1min max. Anyways, had my Midazo + Fent pre-op - x4 shots and 100% clearheaded. 15mg per Mid, 100mcg per Fent, which was rad. This screw holding my arm / wrist together is a sum'bitch, though. I'll definitely say the increased amount of socialization is there with this novelty. Anyone who's tried it care to chime in? Waiting 30-40min before I snert my final line for the morning, thinking 15mg should do it.. Then I'm off to get some Roxi's + Somattas later. Be cool my broj's.
Odd, same place I got it my man! Holding my hand / arm together or the bone shall pop out. I see my psych. tomorrow, I've been on Triazolam for quite some time, but I'm not so confident I can get THAT particular switch made.. I know what I'm doing manipulating psychs for Amps, BZD's, and heavy duty sleepers, but that might push it.. Truthfully, I think I could get Seconal before Middies. How long did your pain last my man? I'm mad comfy BZD wise, opiates I'm fantastic! (Not your status, ofc!) I got a few hundy ZO's, refills soon, exciting! Though I may ask for Alprazolam + Secondal. Regardless, got a huge bottle of either PFBF (Chocked it up as a loss well over two months ago) and it randomly appeared today, though it has a yellow tint, which I'm thinking is B-F, though could be degeneration.i've got over 50 screws in my humerous and shoulder it ain't cool. why im rxd so mch oxy. also have a screw in my wrist/hand - scaphoid to be exact.
here u get 15 mg midazolam tabs called dormicum, I could get rxd em easy - actaully only benzo ever thats fun to snort. miss dormicum actually midazolam is very euphoric for me was rxd it for over 6 years.
now I'm on a lot of oxy like over 200 mgs (some time released, some IR orally some snorted) gonna add 2 mgs of loprazolam in now.
have got boxes of oxy so am comfy as fk meds-wise which is always nice.
Feeling REALLY good today, god I love these Brand name Xanax bars!
80mg Methadone (Liquid)
2mg Xanax (1 2mg bar)
Silver Haze Cannabis (3 bowls)
50mg Promethazine (2 25mg pills)
50mg Hydroxyzine (2 25mg caps)
Caffeine (1 red bull, 1 12 oz coffee)
Cigs (Marlboro blend no. 27s)
500mg APAP (1 500mg pill)
I have a big grin on my face.. love being high and happy! CHEERS!
Feeling REALLY good today, god I love these Brand name Xanax bars!
80mg Methadone (Liquid)
2mg Xanax (1 2mg bar)
Silver Haze Cannabis (3 bowls)
50mg Promethazine (2 25mg pills)
50mg Hydroxyzine (2 25mg caps)
Caffeine (1 red bull, 1 12 oz coffee)
Cigs (Marlboro blend no. 27s)
500mg APAP (1 500mg pill)
I have a big grin on my face.. love being high and happy! CHEERS!
Still only on that .5mg of Lorazepam.... I could SO use more benzo's but don't want to fuck up my taper and get addicted again.
I mean, I'm not sick or anything, just REALLY bored and BAD cravings for Benzo's... Esp. when you have them sitting there on the counter... Knowing you can feel better by just popping some more Ativan/Xanax/Valium. Ahhh!!! I got to do this!! It's almost 3pm here...I think I'm about to take the other .5mg now.. So I have the desire to eat dinner at least. W/o it I don't think my appetite would be good enough to eat.
ugh, I hate W/D whether it's minor or severe!!! If there's ANYTHING a drug user could take out of his/her life, it would be W/D!! at least in my case ! I fucking hate being depressed, getting anxious, cravings, restless....etc.
I ended up taking 0.5mg MORE of Lorazepam than I wanted too. Reason being sad thoughts were racing through my mind which got me SUPER depressed. Tears started to roll down my cheeks for no fucking reason. Depression sucks ass.
So in total, I took 1.5mg of Lorazepam yesterday...which IMO is NOT bad. Because it was the 1st day with dosing a single benzo, no combination like the day before (Lorazepam/Diazepam).
I woke up today feeling pretty good, I dosed everything BUT NO BENZO's :D... I will take a .5mg IF NEEDED, like if my mind starts getting depressed again or some shit... because Xanax or Ativan is are the only remedies that erase my depression. I hate SSRI's.
So far...
80mg Liquid Methadone
50mg Promethazine
50mg Hydroxyzine
Caffeine, coffee
Cigs, Marlboro's
That's all for right now... I hope I stay clean from benzo's all day today.. Because if I do it today, tomorrow will be easy.![]()
I did good yesterday, and only had 1mg of Lorazepam the whole day! Today my goal is only .5mg, idk when it's best to dose it though.. It's pretty early right now, 6:45am... and Lorazepam has a half life of about 12 hours, so that'll last me til tonight. Not doing that. I'm thinking about dosing it around 3pm.... in mid day. So I can at least get a few hours of sleep. So far..
80mg Liquid Methadone
50mg Promethazine
50mg Hydroxyzine
Coffee
Weed
Cigs, Marlboro's
Feeling eh..