Well, in simple terms, I am fucking off my fucking face and loving it lol. I can tell when ive reached this level cos theres certain things that happen, which haven't happened for a few months now when I was "being good".
This afternoon I started out by mowing some of my mates ridiculously long lawns, whilst having 2 beers later on in the afternoon. I have a few strong codeine tabs, since I have alot of pain in just my lower back and sometimes neck. Then somewhere along the lines I ended up in a local club on the pokies, I think on 3 separate occasions in the one night lol.
I'm guessing while gambling, and now back at home I had 40 or 50mg diazepam, about 360mg codeine all up and my 700ml bottle of bourbon has one more shots worth in it.
OMFG, I searched half my house for about 30mins before cos I coulda swore I had lost a 10mg diazepam, but now that I think about it I most likely ate it, lol. "short term memory = non existent" right now