Plugged 60mg Adderall in one dose almost two hours ago. Feeling slight amphetamine effects--faster heart, a bit of flushing, mild scalp tingles--but nothing spectacular. Very disappointed; these were my last two pills, and the friend who gave them to me turned out to be a crazy bitch who cut me out of her life, so I'm not getting more. When I took the first two pills a few weeks ago, I was floored--embarrassingly so, having been an IV meth enthusiast for a hot minute before quitting the stuff five months ago; turns out a long break from amps took away my mental as well as physical tolerance, leaving me with an in-my-face euphoria for a good 90 minutes followed by hours of hyperconcentration and gross verbosity.
Maybe that was a one-time thing, and the recent memory of a great high engendered impossible expectations; it's true that I came into my first use expecting almost nothing, and this use expecting basically meth from the way I'd talked it up internally. But I wonder if there was a problem plugging? I'm quite familiar with the technique, and both times ensured I was clean. But last time I plugged an initial 30mg in 3mL water and, feeling little, followed up a half hour later with a second round of the same, which brought me up very fast. This time I plugged all 60mg in 3mL at once, expecting a stronger onset but receiving a milder one, and more slowly to boot (no pun intended).
Was the doubled concentration per mL of water harder to absorb (though I thought it was the opposite)? Did the redose last time provide some here-missing boost greater than the sum of its two doses? Or did slipping the syringe in an extra inch, as I did this time for no particular reason, deposit the solution too far up (not as far as waste is concerned, but away from the highest concentration of capillaries in the lower rectum)? Anyone have speculations?
I know what this looks like but I swear it's not a speed post. I write lengthy posts even when I'm stone sober. I'm focused, yes, but I'm not glued to the screen writing poetry like I was last time, and the body high (my favorite part of all) is seriously lacking.
Back fully on topic: 60mg Adderall, hitting my vape. Have some snobby microbrews and my cannabis vape to pull out later.