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How High Are You? v. I don't like it that much, only when I'm binging.

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+Felt amazing before, might of overdone it a bit, I feel a really weird high. Have been cleaning nonstop for 6+hours, havent slept for a while. Feels like I have flu symptoms now, hot flushes, cold sweats, heart and chest feels weird, hands feel numb.
Valium + trams + armodafinil = dumb dumb dumb

Im so paranoid the drugs are fucking me up physically. Oh shit I forgot I was on beta blockers as well to stop anxiety symptoms. Maybe I should take some more? Ahhh I don't know what to do or who to ask and I can't think for myself.

Oh well. At least the house is spotless? I bet I've fucked my body up so much internally I don't have much time left. Better back the most of it! Trying to get my bucket list out of the way as I jus thave this feeling Im going to die soon? But it doesn't scare me, Despite all these physicalish symtoms I feel fucking really optimisitc. Going through cold turkey/ utter hell is quite enlightening afterwards. Life is beautiful. Shit I have a counselling appointment soon and I feel so fucked up and this probably makes no sense and I should probably just not come online and write shit, although its funny in a fucked up way to read bnack when I have no recollection. Ah I just went from sweating hot to freezing cold again, jhow the fuck do I stop this?

Hope everyone is having a good night!
 
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haha like I said, I loved Blue Dream.. smoked almost just that shit for literally months. I have pics of like 5 different batches of the same dank strain from the same dude... but it just fucked me up too much. Too high of an amount of THC or something haha, it had a pretty edgy high.




Right now I got some ridiculously cheap hash. Like, it's cheaper than I can get weed for, and it's dank as shit. I've been smoking exclusively hash for the past week or so haha

My tolerance will be so high when I run out :\
 
1mg clonazepam sublingual, literally just put it under my tongue. Tomorrow looks good, as I have a few points of meth left and another 1mg of clonaz. Once the k-pin hits, i'm gonna vape a wee bit of blue dream and see if i can sleep.
 
I did some hydrocodone, and I got a dome and nail today so also way too many dabs of sour alien wax. Feeling amazing, smoking 27s and playing mario kart
 
10mg xanax and 50mg IV morphine. caught up on sleep throughout the day. good dose of a sedative was called for now being near 10pm! coffee n cig as well of course:D
 
PillToChill said:
Read the post I'm quoting. :( It's a sad day indeed. I'm already a casual smoker, and losing my bag this one time I decide to buy me a small supply I lose it after only two days. :X
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bro, i've seen your posts, you're not a "casual" smoker, you're pretty much a full-fledged stoner :)

@OT .5mg clonazepam, 1 line of meth, feeling good.

EDIT: make that 2 lines.
 
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400mg's of codeine
18mg's of hydromorphone
6mg's of clonazepam
100mg's of dimenhydrinate

All with a double cheese burger and onion rings for lunch :)
 
Blue Dream eh?

I don't think I like any strains as much as I like Northern Lights strains. That pine taste is just..yum.
 
I'm feelin' Nice! 200mg tram IR (stagnated dose), got the 50mg tabs (so IR) as a bonus when I went to see the doc, because the 200mg one would've been to soon to ask for again (cause they're XR). They're working nicely. Also smoked some weed. Gonna pick some up in 10 minutes to smoke some more all evening. :) while taking some more trams.

Also,I took 4mg lormetazepam. Now that's what I call a benzo! Diazepam really pales in comparison, I ate my entire box (100x10mg) in two weeks time because nothing ever happened before ~80mg. 4mg of this has me SUPER floaty and SUPER relaxed! (In no way am I am I trying to diss diazepam, it's a miracle anxiolytic and a nice addition to the high of stronger opiods imo.) But lormetazepam is by far more recreational imo. I'd not bother with diazepam when I have lormetazepam unless it's for therapeutic reasons (anxiolytic). In that case I actually prefer diazepam as it's not so "mind clouding" as this one and better if you don't wanna get too "fucked up".

Oh yeah ps: Kind of as I expected I was also prescribed Talwin/Fortal (=Pentazocine) which is okay in my opinion but definitely weird. I won't have tilidine rx's anymore in the future, but Fortal & Tramadol. Fine by me and better than what I had. Only downside is he only wrote me a rx for 30, so I have to go see him again pretty soon to remain credible. (I told him the tram doesn't work anymore and neither does the tilidine, but they work fine.) Maybe going to see him again so soon can turn out to become a good thing (More lormetazepam, tramadol and maybe diazepam).
 
Pretty high over here, got tonsilitis been feeling like shot, but now I'm feeling feeling groooovey.

120mg oxy, 2mg kpin, 25mg dex. Can't get much better than that.

Ahhhh, I love this combo. I wish I had some valium instead though, it's better than kpins from experience... Ah well, not complaining, still love it.
 
So I'm now on 350mg tramadol IR (stagnated dose), 4mg lormetazepam and got a half tab (1mg) under my tongue as I type this. Also just rolled a joint I'm lighting as I type aswell.
The IR tramadol is working far better for me atm since the XR ones barely did anything anymore when I was going through them like tic-tacs till a few days ago. Normally I prefer them because there's more in the box (haha) and since I notice no difference whatsoever normally that's a pretty good reason for me. It's pretty odd these are working so well for me now. I'm still getting the XR ones again next time though. I got pentazocine if I want to really nod and not just be euphoric. Though it's some funny stuff that pentazocine. (I won't have it till tomorrow morning, they had to order it.)

Anyway, I'm very euphoric right now and the lormetazepam is super nice in addition to the tramadol. I like it far more than diazepam. Maybe that's the reason I'm feeling so freaking great right now from the tram, lormet is (for me) a better potentiator. Anyway I'm gonna finish that spliff and watch the end of a movie I started earlier. %)
 
Pill, I thought ya got off the benzos?

I know I'm a hypocrit.

Just added another 40mg oxy to my mix. God this is lovely.

I wish I could feel euphoria from tramadol. It used to work, but now my tolerance is so high I can't feel anything from even 500mg and don't dare to go higher incase I have a seizure...
 
Well I am still "off them" as in, not dependant anymore. I take them casually. But idk, this time I overdid it loads I ate my diazepam in no time (because it's simply too weak recreationally for me I had a strong urge to take more each time.)

But since my W/D I'm sure I'll never become phys dependant again. Sometimes (once every 3 months or so) I go a bit overboard with the stuff and then I quit again for about the same time. I seem to have a very high natural tolerance though, since even after 3 months diazepam was like sugar to me.. Very strange. Anyway the lormetazepam is working pretty well, and I'm gonna keep it casual with the stuff and use no more than 2 days after this, then I'm taking a break. The fear for W/D is surely enough to hold me back. And perhaps some pentazocine. ;)
 
Lormetaz is a pretty hefty benzo though. I love my vallies, even though I've been taking benzos for ages. Wish I had some instead of this crappy clonazepam I've got :(

Don't let yourself slip back into bad habits mate. It would be awful to see all your hard work go down the drain.

Clonaz is ok, it's not as lovely as valium in my opinion though. Or xanax for that matter. If I had my way id definitely want some flunitrazepam to go with my oxy and dexedrine, but ah well.
 
synthetix said:
Lormetaz is a pretty hefty benzo though. I love my vallies, even though I've been taking benzos for ages. Wish I had some instead of this crappy clonazepam I've got :(

Clonaz is ok, it's not as lovely as valium in my opinion though. Or xanax for that matter. If I had my way id definitely want some flunitrazepam to go with my oxy and dexedrine, but ah well.
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Atleast you have oxy. The doc won't give them to me anymore. And I got fucking 80's from him in the past! (he said the strongest he'd give me is Pentazocine (Talwin), which is quite potent but has some weird effects aside from a strong nod. Goes well with tramadol though if I recall correctly. Anyway I'd like some oxy but I'm also kind of glad he didn't give me that. I'm fairly sure I can keep pentazocine under control, while oxy could've been a different story. :/

Only had flunitrazepam once and I prefer lormetazepam actually. Well that's just me ofcourse. I like diazepam when I've taken another kind of benzo too. Then it's really lovely, other than that I find it a good anxiolytic and muscle relaxant but not too potent. Clonazepam is like a "crappy" version of xanax that lasts a hell of alot longer. The therapeutic effects are definitely very strong but it's not very sedating IME.

synthetix said:
Don't let yourself slip back into bad habits mate. It would be awful to see all your hard work go down the drain.
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No way man! I'm done with being dependant on substances! I feel so much better now I'm 'semi-clean' and I don't need my pills anymore to want to go out the door. If you know what I mean?
Cheers for the words of encouragement! But I'm going to be responsible about this. ;)

Edit: OT: The joint made the tramadol feeling so much stronger! I feel Guuuud!!! :D
 
Yeah I went without oxy for 2 weeks, nearly went crazy. Finally got my hands on a lot of oxy so hopefully I won't need to buy any for a long time. I hate when I run out of oxy, it's beyond awful. I'm completely addicted to it and its so hard to stop the stuff. Damn it's moorish. Never had talwin - what's its opiate name? Ah shit sorry, seen it. Is it nice? It apparently is more likely to cause hallucinations, but is meant to be euphoric?

Never tried lormetaz either... Not available here in the UK, where ya from again?

Only say I love my flunitrazepam I think because it's the most potent benzo I've tried, but there's something else about it that feels special... It like wraps me in a blanket and is so euphoric.

And that's good to hear pal. I'm proud of ya, keep I up, and remember to not fall into the benzo net again. Just hope ya stay clean and well:)
 
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Yeah I went without oxy for 2 weeks, nearly went crazy. Finally got my hands on a lot of oxy so hopefully I won't need to buy any for a long time. I hate when I run out of oxy, it's beyond awful. I'm completely addicted to it and its so hard to stop the stuff. Damn it's moorish. Never had talwin - what's its opiate name? Ah shit sorry, seen it. Is it nice? It apparently is more likely to cause hallucinations, but is meant to be euphoric?
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Yeah it's definitely moorish. I kicked oxy too so I almost relapsed you could say, if the doc had given in. :D
I've had talwin before. It's very sedating and noddy, and you get some weird auditorial (sp?) hallucinations sometimes. And yeah it's euphoric but nothing like oxy or the like. It also gives that warm opiate feeling. It hits a few other (opiate) receptors too, which causes the strange side effects.
synthetix said:
Never tried lormetaz either... Not available here in the UK, where ya from again?
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Belgium :)
synthetix said:
Only say I love my flunitrazepam I think because it's the most potent benzo I've tried, but there's something else about it that feels special... It like wraps me in a blanket and is so euphoric.
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I get a special feeling too from this one that's unique to lormet. I love it. =D
/EDIT: Oh, but flunitrazepam definitely is more sedating and pretty euphoric, but I find lormetazepam better because it's not 'K.O.' strength, which is what you want if you don't have much tolerance. And it has the (IMO) best effects of any benzo I've ever tried.
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And that's good to hear pal. I'm proud of ya, keep I up, and remember to not fall into the benzo net again. Just hope ya stay clean and well:)
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Cheers mate! ;) Have a good one. :)
 
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