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Took a couple of small hits of DMT a few hours ago. Not enough for a full trip because it was way too harsh on my lungs, my technique is pretty decent so I guess it wasn't purified properly, gonna have to do it myself grrr... Still, it was an interesting experience, brought back many memories. I think the last time I took it was in 2017 or maybe 2016 so many things have changed since I last visited that place, hope I'm still welcomed.
Gonna try to do that this weekend and probably aim for a breakthrough.
 
So far tonight:

4 Cans of Coke Zero
7 Cigarettes
3 Shots of Brandy
Half glass of Sherry
Sertraline 150mg
Dihydrocodeine 480mg
Gabapentin 1800mg
Naproxen 500mg
Depakote 400mg
Cyclizine 250mg
Quetiapine 100mg
Omeprazole 20mg
Trazodone 25mg
 
260mg oxy railed
20mg nitrazepam oral
5mg diazepam oral
3900mg Gabapentin oral
Large vape g13 weed
Mug of tea
Currently smoking a cigarette
Lost my best friend today
35 year kimosabi
Just want to go totally fucking numb today and deal with it tomorrow it’s just too fucking much it’s actually surreal Iv had more deaths in my life than most but fuck this has been the worst
Sorry for being a bummer folks
But the real world doesn’t know shit about half the things we been through
Nightraver out
 
Nightraver said:
260mg oxy railed
20mg nitrazepam oral
5mg diazepam oral
3900mg Gabapentin oral
Large vape g13 weed
Mug of tea
Currently smoking a cigarette
Lost my best friend today
35 year kimosabi
Just want to go totally fucking numb today and deal with it tomorrow it’s just too fucking much it’s actually surreal Iv had more deaths in my life than most but fuck this has been the worst
Sorry for being a bummer folks
But the real world doesn’t know shit about half the things we been through
Nightraver out
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Real world sucks. Hope you’re doing ok make, I know what losing a best friend can be like. Fucking brutal.
 
My NEP that I ordered finally arrived. So I snorted some, and recently smoked some. Don't think it's as good as my last batch (the only other batch I've had). But not bad. Also some beers

madness00 said:
Dropped a tab of orange sunshine 5 minago. First LSD in 5 years. Pray for me.
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0.5 mg Alprazolam
15 mg Escitalopram

... as I'm still on rehab. Thank God therapies are over for today because I'm really exhausted - but glad that after my physical and psychological breakdown I can do 1 hour sports again. My muscles are aching but it feels good :)

Have a nice day all!

JJ
 
I was a nurse who started using IV morphine and dilaudid for depression. At first I thought this was easy to control, I can stop whenever. It led to shooting 60mg morphine 6mg dilaudid mixed, twice a day. I was stealing from the med room, keeping wastes, and digging through the sharps. It fucked my life up. I lost my license, everything. It definitely cured my depression while using, but I wish I never touched it. Its not worth the high when it becomes the purpose of your life to get high again. And tolerance is the worst; Every few weeks I had doubled my dose trying to get the rush.

Withdrawal is the worst experience I think anyone can go through. It is 100% misery. Suboxone is a wonder drug but dont think you can stay on it forever, you have to be committed to be clean or don't even bother going through treatment.

Now in my experience about the highs: Morphine had the best rush after a year of using, and about 12hr legs. Morphine being less potent on the scale was actually my favorite, plus its all natural lol. Dilaudid was amazing at first but it stopped giving me a good rush. The best high I ever had was 40mg morphine, 4mg dilaudid and 100mcg fentayl mixed. Fentayl had zero rush, and the only high was a feeling of calmness. Fentayl is just a sedative, we give it to make people go to sleep on a IV drip. I never used it by itself unless it was all I had. But its a great mixer/filler to give a stronger rush. I loved being high. It was the most euphoric feeling ive ever felt. I was smarter, faster, funnier, all positives. It gave me energy, I never felt tired unless I shot up at night. Oxy pills were decent if you don't have IV. I tried ketamine IV once, had hallucinations and out of body experience. Didn't care for it. IV benadryl sucks, gives you anxiety where you can't sleep but you're so tired. Also gave me full auditory hallucinations, I thought I was a schizophrenic.

If you have never used opioids, I couldn't stress enough don't do it. If it tickles your brain the right way, you're hooked permanently. It's like tasting the apple. You can't use and have a life, its impossible unless you're rich and never have to work. I'm almost 1 year clean, on 2mg suboxone every 2nd/3rd day. I still get cravings that make me sweat, ache, and have the worst anxiety. My coping is to distract myself with something. Also, I have this addiction app RecovPath that really helps me stay sober.

If you want to risk being a slave to a substance, that's the price you pay for feeling good.
 
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