EphemeralOutlet141
Bluelight Crew
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- Dec 11, 2014
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Went to a ski resort. Vacation is a trigger for me so took a big dose 30mg methadone pills i tale at will (5mg a day)...then 40 mg Valium.
After nice day on the slopes after 18nyrs of not skiing due to a back injury and surgery i finally gave it a try. Tired. Read to melt into the lodge with Nintendo switch and the warm blanket of downers.
BTW. I'm getting dependent on benzos for the first time...scary to me. Def dependent on done
Sounds like a perfect day man, I've never been skiing but it's always interested me. There's something I love about doing opioids and/or stims when it's cold too. It's like even Mother Nature herself can't step on your buzz.
Btw I haven't been around in a while, nice to see you man. How's life?
ps Feel you on the benzo part for sure. I rode the sober wagon for a few months, but life happens and I have an intense job with long hours now. I haven't been back long and I'm only currently messing with weed, adderrall, and any benzo that has a long duration and hypnotic qualities to offset the stim when needed.
Don't like that I take a benzo once or twice a day (in a consistent low dose at least) most of the week at all though. Even though everything revolves around work and I get little to no enjoyment from any of it, I know that there's a price to pay regardless. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but it's gotta be paid. At least my medical insurance and leave options are good lol!
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