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Jiggawa: My mom is not dying or anything, the tumors are small but they increased in size some so they are changing her chemo up but it is not the kind that makes you sick as far as I know. I don't bother her with my mental issues if that is all it is much, I keep it mostly to myself and she would not think anything of it if I was asleep at an inappropriate time because I can't maintain any normal sleep schedule usually. And she does not need me around, I need to move out so my nephew can take my room, she raised both of my youngest nephews and one of them is 19, the other 16 and the oldest one is neither working nor in college and the younger one will also probably stick around and I need to get out of their way and out of this town that hates me. The only thing I could do that would screw up her life is die because there is not enough room for everyone who lives in my house now. My dad had moved out at one time but he moved back and they are too old to share a room and what they all need is me out of the way.

Had a beer after disolving 2mg of alprazolam under my tongue for a little while to chase down two heaping teaspoons of kratom and will have that much more and I had 45mg hydrocodone and 30mg temazepam with cipro as a potentiator to make it better. Will probably have Lyrica and maybe cyclobenzaprine in a little while.

Staying up till at least 5:00AM from now on (usually it is more like 2-3:00AM) to keep the telepathic assholes who had to ruin my life awake from now on until they go away long enough to let me forecast the future weather (I think he does earthquakes too, someone was making the autosave keep updating like every 10 seconds when I barely typed anything new on Bluelight before that Earthquake that killed a few hundred people in Afghanistan and Pakistan earlier and it was through making the cursor freeze once I reached the characters I needed one at a time to name the locations to be impacted and windspeeds and GPS coordinates of tropical cyclones and doing the autosave when I got a word or coordinate completed that I was given the info on weather events that happened and then a few bad forecasts were made and now Bluelight does not work for that because either they freeze it up or Bluelight changed the code and they stopped letting me use sounds I make to do the same thing. And it is by freezing the cursor when I get to the right character while going through the alphabet and list of numerical digits and using the autosave when I finished a word or GPS coordinate that I got these messages from someone who said they were Lucky but now either this method is being blocked or Bluelight changed their code so it could not be done anymore and maybe someone on Bluelight was just playing a bad prank on me because they gave me death threats too the last few days before I ended up in a mental institution for overdosing on purpose to get away from the killers they claimed were after me. Not sure how they would know to do the weather forecast thing and get it right well in advance or make the cursor freeze and the autosave update when they got a word or string of information right.

These telepathic people are real and they need to learn to stop bothering me and let me live my fucking life. I don't give a fuck if anyone thinks it is real or not, I know the telepathic people are real - they proved that to me when I was around other telepaths by responding verbally to my thoughts when they occurred inside my head without me opening my mouth but I definitely saw their mouths moving when they responded. Perhaps the stuff they told somehow through Bluelight as I described was just a bad joke that almost got me killed on the death threat part (someone also claimed it was Anneke Van Giersbergen who gave me this fake forecast for a tornado outbreak using the same method until the end when they made the line "Are you sure you want to stay on the same page?" with all these places with the word Cedar in them - maybe it was from a book or a movie, I don't know but it started becoming clear that all these were not different towns but something else after I got a number of places with Cedar in the name that were supposed to be in the same county in Kansas mixed with other locations that probably were not real either - she is the former vocalist for the band The Gathering which is a band I love but I don't have an attraction to her or even think much or at all about her name when listening to them.)

Upate: Added 30mhg temazepam under my tongue because my BP was 160/104 and it has since increased to 174/111 even though I took an extra propranolol pill to make it go down maybe 3 hours ago and I am starting to get a headache so I am having 400mg of Lyrica now to try to bring it down. Probably from the 300mg of bupropion I took earlier but may also be from the phenibut wearing off so maybe I should take a low dose of that to slow its comedown. Really don't know why my BP is going up gradually to higher levels, none of the other things I have used normally raise BP although I did drink coffee and maybe it was too much but that was at least a couple of hours before I took the extra blood pressure pill. Not quite high enough to be too concerned though.
 
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Tryptamine*Dreamer said:
Jiggawa: My mom is not dying or anything, the tumors are small but they increased in size some so they are changing her chemo up but it is not the kind that makes you sick as far as I know. I don't bother her with my mental issues if that is all it is much, I keep it mostly to myself and she would not think anything of it if I was asleep at an inappropriate time because I can't maintain any normal sleep schedule usually. And she does not need me around, I need to move out so my nephew can take my room, she raised both of my youngest nephews and one of them is 19, the other 16 and the oldest one is neither working nor in college and the younger one will also probably stick around and I need to get out of their way and out of this town that hates me. The only thing I could do that would screw up her life is die because there is not enough room for everyone who lives in my house now. My dad had moved out at one time but he moved back and they are too old to share a room and what they all need is me out of the way.

Had a beer after disolving 2mg of alprazolam under my tongue for a little while to chase down two heaping teaspoons of kratom and will have that much more and I had 45mg hydrocodone and 30mg temazepam with cipro as a potentiator to make it better. Will probably have Lyrica and maybe cyclobenzaprine in a little while.

Staying up till at least 5:00AM from now on (usually it is more like 2-3:00AM) to keep the telepathic assholes who had to ruin my life awake from now on until they go away long enough to let me forecast the future weather (I think he does earthquakes too, someone was making the autosave keep updating like every 10 seconds when I barely typed anything new on Bluelight before that Earthquake that killed a few hundred people in Afghanistan and Pakistan earlier and it was through making the cursor freeze once I reached the characters I needed one at a time to name the locations to be impacted and windspeeds and GPS coordinates of tropical cyclones and doing the autosave when I got a word or coordinate completed that I was given the info on weather events that happened and then a few bad forecasts were made and now Bluelight does not work for that because either they freeze it up or Bluelight changed the code and they stopped letting me use sounds I make to do the same thing. And it is by freezing the cursor when I get to the right character while going through the alphabet and list of numerical digits and using the autosave when I finished a word or GPS coordinate that I got these messages from someone who said they were Lucky but now either this method is being blocked or Bluelight changed their code so it could not be done anymore and maybe someone on Bluelight was just playing a bad prank on me because they gave me death threats too the last few days before I ended up in a mental institution for overdosing on purpose to get away from the killers they claimed were after me. Not sure how they would know to do the weather forecast thing and get it right well in advance or make the cursor freeze and the autosave update when they got a word or string of information right.

These telepathic people are real and they need to learn to stop bothering me and let me live my fucking life. I don't give a fuck if anyone thinks it is real or not, I know the telepathic people are real - they proved that to me when I was around other telepaths by responding verbally to my thoughts when they occurred inside my head without me opening my mouth but I definitely saw their mouths moving when they responded. Perhaps the stuff they told somehow through Bluelight as I described was just a bad joke that almost got me killed on the death threat part (someone also claimed it was Anneke Van Giersbergen who gave me this fake forecast for a tornado outbreak using the same method until the end when they made the line "Are you sure you want to stay on the same page?" with all these places with the word Cedar in them - maybe it was from a book or a movie, I don't know but it started becoming clear that all these were not different towns but something else after I got a number of places with Cedar in the name that were supposed to be in the same county in Kansas mixed with other locations that probably were not real either - she is the former vocalist for the band The Gathering which is a band I love but I don't have an attraction to her or even think much or at all about her name when listening to them.)
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Again i say go get some help. You really need to be in a psych ward for a while. There is no telepathy. You cannot predict the weather. You are ill and taking way too many drugs.
 
Tryptamine*Dreamer said:
Had a 300mg Seroquel then took an unknow OD of phenibut so I could see if it would kill me or not. Last time I puked unconscious then was woke up maybe 8 or 10 or 12 hours later and my blood pressure was really low. I PROBABLY \\WOn't die but I don't know if I took more or less than the other time and it is really kicking in good now. I'll let you know later if I don't die. If I end up in a nut house I'll try to get someone to post and let you know I am not dead. I had no intention of doing this but then just did it without really wanting to die, just tired of this world.

Edit: Forgot that I took 300mg Wellbutrin/bupropion to raise my blood pressure a few minutes before posting this and a few minutes ago my mind started to feel clearer so I came back to post. I was going to take more phenibut just for the Hell of it to make my dose more potentially dangerous but I stopped wanting to do it before the song I was listening to ended. Also started to burn a Jeff the Killer smile onto my face with cigarettes like I planned on doing but it will take a while to finish.

I feel like my BP may be getting low and my pupils are fucking small. But I don't think I took as much as that other OD unless I take more and more likely than not I won't but I don't need to want to die to do it.

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Not even passed out or feeling close to it. Guess my dose was significantly less than I thought. Going to take some pills in a bit if I am not closer to feeling like I might pass out but I don't feel like I will at all now. Just pressure in my head that isn't that bad and my BP was actually high, 160s/74 P114. I don't intend to take any more but if I get the urge I'll do a heaped spoonful but not heaping too high since that would surely be enough from what I remember.

I might OD on purpose just to get sent back to the nut house so I might be able to get on disability for repeatedly trying to off myself and for being psychotic since everyone thinks that is what my telepathy is. I'm normally too depressed to hold a job and now I am afraid to leave my house most of the time because of the telepathic attacks on my pets. They have also tried to kill me multiple times with telepathic attacks, once sending a ghost like shadow or inverse shadow into my room that hit me and caused my BP to rise and my pulse to double, give or take some to 130s and the green light that glows and dances around behind my eyes to get brighter, add colors, and move around really fast instead of the slow pulsating and/or tunnel making that it has always done the rest of the time when present then it went to Lucky and stayed there for maybe 5 seconds before going away. I was sober when it happened.

They want to kill Lucky because they get pissed off about my drug use and because they don't want me to annoy them by listening to music and want me to sleep when they do and I don't do it because I did not consent to the experiment they are doing to me so they want to make me pay and they want him dead because he can predict the weather and possibly see other future events. He can't do it now because they block it and won't stop it but he predicted the first few tropical cyclones and a few later ones accurately or very close, a lot better than the weather services but the later ones were very hard to do because people were also giving inaccurate forecasts with his and I could not tell who was doing it since I can only get messages through sounds I make that make words for some reason. All sounds I make do that now.

I'll probably stop taking opiates and benzos for at least a week then OD on other things if I do it so they will not think it was an accident. It will be worth it just to get an income. I hate the world because they stopped me from doing what has never been done before and I could have done great things for this God-forsaken Hellworld if they would not have destroyed my future and then continually fucked me over and tortured my pets. I also think they are making my mom's cancer get worse by forcing me to stop using cannabinoids that gave her drug telepathy that kept her cancer from growing by torturing Lucky and possibly Baby and mentally torturing me because they did not like the telepathy that gave them but they tried and succeeded at forcing me to use other drugs by telling me I had to even when I wanted to stop because I did not like the aftereffects.
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how does your dog predict the weather?

ot: enjoying my pathetic amount of free time before work.
 
Joe Bean said:
Belligerent drunk loperamide in doses like you took makes me feel vey very weird and tingly so bad I rather go thru withdrawals then take to many of those lil fuckers!!' And mixing it with tramadol might have made it worse for ya lol sorry you went thru that ! I been there!!

Today 4 mg sniffed of subutex and plugged 2 mg feeling great off to work and bake some goodies!!
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Yeah that was weird as fuck. I actually had not taken O-DT for about 48 hours at the time of the incident. I just wasn't feeling like being a snotty mess until I finished work so I popped 3 x 2 mg of loperamide, thinking that people have taken over 50 mg of the stuff with nothing happening. And nothing did, until about 3 hours later as I finished work I took some codeine. About 10 minutes in all skin on my body became itchy times 1000, feeling like it was burning and no amount of itching resolved the issue. My gums and lips had swollen too, lol. Thought I was going to die to a swollen throat or something, but it dissipated within an hour.

I actually took 6 mg this morning at 7 am as well, because I had to finish some stuff at work. Now I'm done for the week and really feeling like some codeine, so I'm going to take it despite the risk and hopefully survive it. It's now been 8 hours since taking the loperamide so I hope it won't fuck with me that bad. Goddamn loperamide having long half-life. What a douche.

Tryptamine Dreamer, listen to the people. You need to get help, that shit ain't funny. Stop making yourself suffer, there is no greater good in that. Go check yourself in and stop taking all the drugs.

E: so it's 4:20 in some parts of Russia. If one were to, for a second, forget that I don't live in Russia and that I don't smoke cannabis, that would make it as good reason as any to get high. So, there goes. 650 mg codeine. Hope I don't burn in hell courtesy of loperamide.
 
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Yeah that was weird as fuck. I actually had not taken O-DT for about 48 hours at the time of the incident. I just wasn't feeling like being a snotty mess until I finished work so I popped 3 x 2 mg of loperamide, thinking that people have taken over 50 mg of the stuff with nothing happening. And nothing did, until about 3 hours later as I finished work I took some codeine. About 10 minutes in all skin on my body became itchy times 1000, feeling like it was burning and no amount of itching resolved the issue. My gums and lips had swollen too, lol. Thought I was going to die to a swollen throat or something, but it dissipated within an hour.

I actually took 6 mg this morning at 7 am as well, because I had to finish some stuff at work. Now I'm done for the week and really feeling like some codeine, so I'm going to take it despite the risk and hopefully survive it. It's now been 8 hours since taking the loperamide so I hope it won't fuck with me that bad. Goddamn loperamide having long half-life. What a douche.

Tryptamine Dreamer, listen to the people. You need to get help, that shit ain't funny. Stop making yourself suffer, there is no greater good in that. Go check yourself in and stop taking all the drugs.

E: so it's 4:20 in some parts of Russia. If one were to, for a second, forget that I don't live in Russia and that I don't smoke cannabis, that would make it as good reason as any to get high. So, there goes. 650 mg codeine. Hope I don't burn in hell courtesy of loperamide.
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Loperamide would be incredibly potent if it were injected directly to the brain. Maybe the opioid receptor controlling histamine release is outside the brain. There's not much information on the exact mechanism of opioid-mediated histamine release and resulting itching though; here's a recent article which doesn't even elaborate on much: http://www.scientificamerican.com/article/defeating-pain-without-the-itch/
 
Yeah, the histamine release is mediated "on the spot" rather than from the CNS. What I wonder, though, is why it synergized so strongly. Codeine doesn't give me much of an itch and loperamide alone didn't produce any symptoms. Together it turned into something otherworldly.
 
Damn T*D what's happened to you? You should definitely see a doc and take whatever he gives you. It doesn't seem like your self-medicating is working that well, you need to admit that to yourself and go to the psych hospital you don't have to try and kill yourself to get in just tell them what you told us.

600mg phenibut
2700mg Neurontin (staggered) and Mountain Dew to potentiate
a couple hits of good bud

Got the reggae going and just enjoying being stoned. Neurontin has me lazy but I'm researching some chems so at least that's doing something.
 
Belligerent Drunk I know exactly what you mean with loperamide that shit is the worst for opiate wd but yes if you take 6mg or even like some take up to 50 mg lol 25 pills that's crazy but it works but the cost as far as the feeling it gives you is having you hate yourself for hours feeling like you might as well die, I hated that feeling my bro told me about it one time I was wd and I sure as shit looked it up on google and it was an opiate that doesn't cross the BBB so you can't get high lol it's deff a crazy lil high tho! No thank you!! Gives me the chills thinking about it lol!

*respect your fellow forum members*

Woke up tonight snorted my subutex 4mg I quit taking the Benadryl due to it making me nod way hard at work and I need to be awake to bake donuts, cookies, pies ect. Lol Sunday safety meeting I was trying my hardest to stay awake but that shit was hard! Might try plugging some more before work that got me pretty high since I don't do it often! Thinking of asking my doc for some tramadol for break through pain! I know it goes great with bupe! Everyone have a great night see y'all tomorrow !!
 
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had 45mg of hydrocodone potentiated with 500mg cipro about 7 hours ago and that has mostly worn off but I had another 37.5mg just a short time ago with 90mg temazepam taken about 4 hours ago and just had about 25g kratom and 40mg cyclobenzaprine, about to have 300mg Lyrica, 50mg diphenhydramine, and 5g phenibut. Gonna have 20mg diphenoxylate just to mix in another opiate after I post this, feeling really damn good now.

And I went nuts in a psych ward, was fine before I got there and got sick while there and it seemed to be meningitis complete with losing all balance and coordination while being denied treatment at the ER when I went twice because they "knew I was just high". They did not even check me out so I started taking antibiotics to treat it myself and would stop so I would not get completely cured so I could sue them for not treating me. The third time I could not walk by the time I decided to go and had to take an ambulance. They diagnosed me with pneumonia and I had no coughing or chest congestion but pneumococcal bacteria also causes meningitis. The fourth time they flat out told me even though antibiotics stopped the symptoms multiple times at high doses that it was just from drugs when they sent the mental health authorities to talk to me. I want to see a neurologist who may be able to confirm or discount the idea that I had pneumococcal meningitis because I did not take enough drugs to put me in a condition where I could not even walk that took two days before my balance was back with IV antibiotics being given for pneumonia when I had no symptoms of it but I obviously tested positive for some kind of pneumonia and they did not tell me which kind. If they have not destroyed or altered the records to keep their asses from getting sued, I am obtaining all information on my treatment for the two so-called overdoses they treated me for to see if they even tested for meningitis, which I am not sure can be done without a spinal tap and I did not get that and I don't recall any CT scan either. And I had what I think were seizures the third time and was shaking the second time (when they turned me away) like I was on the verge of a seizure, though I took large doses of penicillin by injection at home as well as large doses of cipro and bactrim a few hours earlier as my symptoms were getting worse and I began hallucinating. The symptoms started improving a while after I got back home, I think due to the antibiotics and possibly the benzodiazepines I used not long before going to the ER. One time they did not even check my BP, the other time they had me leave after doing that and pissing in a cup without ever testing that or drawing blood. I am convinced that was meningitis or another bacterial infection of the brain but do not know if there is any way to prove that for a lawsuit now.

Not going to talk about telepathy any more since everyone seems to be sure it is not real unless I start doing something stupid or it starts to really bother me. I am fine for today. And that hospital was irresponsible for not checking things out the first two times I went. After the fourth time I took antibiotics at home until I was cured but felt brain damaged once I was (but the balance problems went away and my thoughts were clearer. And the feeling of being sick was gone). And things have improved to the point I don't feel like my thinking is slowed or my intellect has been significantly affected most of the time. I've also been feeling manic quite often the last month and other times depressed with it switching quite rapidly, though that probably isn't obvious by my posts. You probably all think it is purely schizophrenia or something similar.
 
Tryptamine*Dreamer said:
had 45mg of hydrocodone potentiated with 500mg cipro about 7 hours ago and that has mostly worn off but I had another 37.5mg just a short time ago with 90mg temazepam taken about 4 hours ago and just had about 25g kratom and 40mg cyclobenzaprine, about to have 300mg Lyrica, 50mg diphenhydramine, and 5g phenibut. Gonna have 20mg diphenoxylate just to mix in another opiate after I post this, feeling really damn good now.

And I went nuts in a psych ward, was fine before I got there and got sick while there and it seemed to be meningitis complete with losing all balance and coordination while being denied treatment at the ER when I went twice because they "knew I was just high". They did not even check me out so I started taking antibiotics to treat it myself and would stop so I would not get completely cured so I could sue them for not treating me. The third time I could not walk by the time I decided to go and had to take an ambulance. They diagnosed me with pneumonia and I had no coughing or chest congestion but pneumococcal bacteria also causes meningitis. The fourth time they flat out told me even though antibiotics stopped the symptoms multiple times at high doses that it was just from drugs when they sent the mental health authorities to talk to me. I want to see a neurologist who may be able to confirm or discount the idea that I had pneumococcal meningitis because I did not take enough drugs to put me in a condition where I could not even walk that took two days before my balance was back with IV antibiotics being given for pneumonia when I had no symptoms of it but I obviously tested positive for some kind of pneumonia and they did not tell me which kind. If they have not destroyed or altered the records to keep their asses from getting sued, I am obtaining all information on my treatment for the two so-called overdoses they treated me for to see if they even tested for meningitis, which I am not sure can be done without a spinal tap and I did not get that and I don't recall any CT scan either. And I had what I think were seizures the third time and was shaking the second time (when they turned me away) like I was on the verge of a seizure, though I took large doses of penicillin by injection at home as well as large doses of cipro and bactrim a few hours earlier as my symptoms were getting worse and I began hallucinating. The symptoms started improving a while after I got back home, I think due to the antibiotics and possibly the benzodiazepines I used not long before going to the ER. One time they did not even check my BP, the other time they had me leave after doing that and pissing in a cup without ever testing that or drawing blood. I am convinced that was meningitis or another bacterial infection of the brain but do not know if there is any way to prove that for a lawsuit now.

Not going to talk about telepathy any more since everyone seems to be sure it is not real unless I start doing something stupid or it starts to really bother me. I am fine for today. And that hospital was irresponsible for not checking things out the first two times I went. After the fourth time I took antibiotics at home until I was cured but felt brain damaged once I was (but the balance problems went away and my thoughts were clearer. And the feeling of being sick was gone). And things have improved to the point I don't feel like my thinking is slowed or my intellect has been significantly affected most of the time. I've also been feeling manic quite often the last month and other times depressed with it switching quite rapidly, though that probably isn't obvious by my posts. You probably all think it is purely schizophrenia or something similar.
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For gods sake go and get some help. I dont know what else to say.
 
Joe Bean said:
tryptamine dreamer your crazy ass is gonna get kicked out bluelight for talking crazy bro! Calm down no one wants to hear that crazy talking in here man get some help! Or maybe your just acting like that for attention idk
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He been around talkin like that for alot longer then you been here dawg.

Show some respect you don't want to read it don't no need to taunt the man.
 
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Yeah a little respect is due. We all have our problems, Bluelight should be the last place people get judged. But seriously, Tryptamine Dreamer, you know that shit ain't OK. Go check yourself in; just tell 'em what you been telling us. This has to stop.
 
T*R has been giving us his tales for years, his struggles are well known on this site. For all we know not 100% of it is truth so lets calm down eh.

I'm about to drink chilled coffee to go along with my pot.
 
40 mg of oxazepam and a quarter of heroin,

Smoked a little basecoke off of foil.

and smoked half a jointof white widow
 
Still in the process of moving cause I can't get rid of some furniture... I'd love to get some cash for it but I don't know if that'll happen...
But I got a new pair of sunglasses today for a good deal so that's cool.

And I saw the ENT doc... slightly deviated septum lol but possibly not from drugs, just genetics

10mg oxy and smoking a joint of Gorilla Glue and Tangerine Dream
 
I wasn't trying to come off disrespectful but when you say he's been around longer then I that's true. But reading his posts about injection toilet water and him being able to telepathic talk to people and taking God knows what meds combined writing it on bluelight for everyone to read I'm gonna say something he's either crazy as bat shit or doing it for attention, for all we know he could be in a loony bin already just mind fucking us to
Enjoy it!! He has all these people in here worried about his well being and he keeps writing like that with out considering going to get help. I'll just sit back and keep my mouth shut!! I'll keep him in my prayers cuz the way he's going one day he won't be posting anything! And it sounds like real soon to me.

Today my normal 4 mg snorted of subutex still taking it easy on Benadryl don't enjoy trying to pass out at work by taking to much of it. I'm gonna enjoy my coffee
 
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