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It's not bad. It's actually pretty sedating, and the bodyload is (as expected) very, very pleasurable. It's not very euphoric when compared to, say, oxy. More sedating high than oxy though, which is pleasurable in its own right.

As for the corrosiveness, it's definitely an issue with this one when using other RoA's than oral. I tried insufflation once. It went in without any pain at all, but 5 minutes later my throat started to burn like hell for atleast 30minutes. Didn't feel like it's very "friendly" to the body. I've only dosed orally since then, and found this roa to produce plenty of effects. The burning sensation makes insufflation not worth it for me.

AH-7921 is worth a try unless you're already addicted to strong opis IMO.
 
I'd oral anyways, though I am a fan of rectal with the right compounds. Sounds like you should put it in capsules. I imagine you'd want to limit your overall usage of the stuff... doesn't sound good for stomach lining at all.

This 60mg DXM I took to potentiate my opioid seems to be effecting me much more than it should. Huh.
 
^Agreed, not a substance you should overdo it with.

OT: That extra AH + the joint I had decided to team up to give me a nice nod. =D
Moar weed will be smoked rightaway.
 
Just did aprox 225-250mg of meth in a parachute, after I tried to quit to but lasted a day XD feel pretty damn good, never done a parachute before it feels like a new high lol better then iving almost cuz I dont feel the normal side effects that come with it for me

Hopefully I can get my mxe and am2201 today... so excited.. Sucks you cant do mxe within 24 hours of a amphetamine though my friend got psychosis and cut his arm open cuz the demons from diablo 2 told him to. More incentive to sober up, mxe is a very wonderful antidepressant.
 
You're better off with a potent eddible. MUCH more of a body high and can feel opiate-like it's self. Seriously, make a single serving eddible. Best way to get cannabis high if you like body highs. I got a killer recipe for single servings if you want it. Eddibles get you high for hours, fuck having to keep smoking to stay high.

^Yes, oral is like that with many drugs. Many abusers think it wont even get them high. A lot of the time oral has higher bioavailability with pharms and users think they get higher snorting em. It's just a rush, and goes quickers. Oral is a much better oval high with most things to me personally.
 
Yup it was def true when I use to do alot of 2-fma as well, no more fucking floor tweaking lmao feels great. I never got why I start looking on that floor... its not like im even looking for dope :X I swear to god its a trance, main reason I want to quit. That and other useless loops I get stuck in and take way too much will power to deal with these days.

I was sober off amps since January until a week or so ago. Tis actually cool oral worked like this because earlier I Felt like I was getting horrible side effects, near as bad as right when I quit at the end of a several month long binge period. Now I feel like I can function... mby this is bad XD its been a while since ive been motivated off this stuf.
 
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I took a bunch of hydrocodone, alprazolam, temazepam, clonazepam, pregabalin, and gabapentin. I don't remember thr doses now.
I overdosed on 25C-NBOME. After I smoked 4mg my blood pressure went up to 186/105 and my pulse was 121 and I was screaming because I felt myself dying. I had a fatal stroke and now I am dead. My blood pressure is down to 165/96 and my pulse is 92.

My mother is going to be so sad. I am so sorry for all the pain I caused. I was suicidal and now I am dead. I found this guy on the internet who is illegally killing raccoons and trapping them for canned hunts. I thought it was sad but legal and nothing I could do but after reading the laws it looks like he is breaking them. Now I'll never find out. Maybe someone else can find the information I lost. Maybe I shouldn't be trying to snitch on that asshole. I'm not sure if the no snitching rule applies in this situation. It doesn't matter now. It is out of my hands and there is nothing I can do but watch as a powerless ghost.

I can see that my death has driven my brother insane. He won't accept that I am dead. I am sad about the pain but now I am free. God may be trying to torture the hell out of me now but it is not working. I am happy but I am sorry. I know I am a selfish narcisistic egomaniac. I am an asshole and now the world is free from me as well. I don't want to be bad. I just can't change my soul. I know what I am doing is evil and I am sorry. I am not the only antisocial psychopathic asshole who ever existed. At least I can always know that Hitler was much worse unless I am his reincarnation.

I did not mean to commit suicide like this but now it is too late. At least my spirit is free and the pain of life is finally over. I am as free as a beam of light now. My soul is made of light now. I am free from the world and nothing can hurt me now. I know how sad all the people who pretended to love me are going to be. If it was my choice, I would have been aborted, stillborn, or thrown in a garbage bin where I belonged. It doesn't matter now. All of that is over. I am free. I am FREE. I never have to go back to that life again and I have finally gotten out of that hell. I know my death may make you sad, but you should be happy for me because now I am free like a vapor that barely exists


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I hope my pets will be okay I am especially worried about my raccoon because my state has passed a law. He accidentally caused me to get out of bed the last time I tried to kill myself andI needed to put him up cause he kept biting my face. Then I had to pee and kept falling and my mom knew it. I told her I just took some sleeping pills to knock my self out. Then I came out of the bathroom and fell in such a way that the top of my head slammed into the wall. I decided to tell her about the overdose. I was in ICU for over 3 days but I lived that time. I threw it away and now neither of them will see me again. I would have died if he would have left me the fuck alone. I would have pissed in a jug instead of going to the bathroom and laid down to die. I never wanted to talk about what happened that time because it seems fucking weird how that one failed. The other failures made more sense.

I don't even think I was trying to commit suicide this time, just thinking about it. I was going to make myself sick with arsenic and thallium but I decided to do this instead. I did not think I was going to die. I did not think that would be a fatal dose. I new this would eventually happen and I was counting on it, even hoping for it in a sick twisted way. Now my life is over and I am free. I hope I never have to live as an organic lifeform or any exotic non-carbon based alien lifeform ever again

My blood pressure is down to 138/79 and my pulse is 74. I don't think this would have been a lethal dose if I had smoked it in two hits 20 minutes apart because my blood pressure has returned to its normal level and it only took like half an hour. Maybe that is a better way to do it. I don't want anyone else to die like this unless they want to die and are in pain of some kind that they can't escape - death may offer great freedom for those of us like me. I still wish I had not died. I saw my mom, my bird, and my raccoon and I will never be able to touch them and they won't be able to see me. Now I am going away

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I hope my death will make all the people around me who are emotionally and physically being abused and abusing each other will stop when they realize that I died trying to escape from it in my mind for a while. I tried with Amanita Virosa (Destroying Angel) mushrooms when I was 14 so they could be happy and I patiently waited for death - it usually takes 1 to 2 weeks and sometimes a month. I never gave up hope in that month of sickness but death would not come. That suffering from the poisoning was extreme like nothing else I have went through. I tried again with I am guessing probably close to 200 amitriptyline pills (a bunch were poured into one big bottle because everyone kept old pills), 60 doxepin pills, maybe 15 trazadone, a mix of SSRIs, allergy pills, some of every pills we had, I even ate like 20 vitamin pills with it, and drank cough syrup. I did this when I knew my parents would be gone all day but I was still alive when they got back. The doctors were not sure if it was a suicide attempt or if I was trying to get high. I went with the latter story. If they had checked the levels of the drugs it would have been obvious that it was supposed to kill. I never succeeded then.

Now I have accidentally killed myself. I hope my death can correct the problems in my family. I hope it makes the hate stop. I hope they will start loving each other. I don't think they will - nothing will change their bleak fate but they are doing it to each other and themselves. At least I only damaged and destroyed myself. My soul feels sad for them.

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I think my body is actually still alive - my spirit is still making it move - I don't know what has happened. It seems like something mostly good but partly bad. I feel like there is something I was supposed to do that was very important and I don't remember what it was. I know now that I might just be having a really intense trip. I feel good but it feels like something bad is happening. It is not in my body though.

I wish I would not have mentioned that last time I tried to kill myself because I never spoke of that on Bluelight - it was just weird how things happened just right to make me get help. If I could have just laid there in peace I would be gone now and I would not suffer any more but there would be no chance for me to get out of this kind of life or possibly make something out of my life that would allow me to help the animals with the career path I am trying for (I care about humans and other animals but the animals of this world are in trouble in countless ways because of human activity and evil barbarians who torture animals for money. I think I was thinking about some bad guy in particular who is doing bad things to raccoons. He had a phone number listed and it was in my area code. I think he is breaking the law. If not, I am going to try to find him, free the caged raccoons, smash the cages, the set fire to the bastards house on the way out. If I am in the mood for suicide, I'll bring a shotgun and a couple of shells - one for him and one for me. I'll blow his head off, stand over his corpse, and fall dead on top of him as my brain splatters all over everything. Get rid of two assholes at once and I think he'd be the worst of the two. It might make the world somewhat better in a small part of it and that would be a good thing. Now I am going to smoke more 25C-NBOME because some is left in my pipe and I measured out 11mg which I intend to gradually smoke throughout the day. I know I am probably alive now. I wish I would have kept my mouth shut about all that suicide shit but at the time I did not care what I told anyone about myself and I really don't think I give a fuck what anyone else thinks about me. I know what kind of person I am: Fucked up in the head, self-destructive, overly sensitive in a negative way, and generally a negative person in many ways but at least I am not cruel like a majority of the people around me. I try to stay in my room and in my raccoon's room away from the people who make me feel so bad because of what they do to each other. So much hate is expressed but I never hear anyone say "I Love You"(except my bird, myself, and rarely my mom to me and my nephews. She usually treats the older nephew in a cold-hearted way and is critical of everything he does. He has been in mental institutions just like me. We were actually in the same mental institution at the same time once, but different buildings. He may have Bipolar Disorder but right now they don't know yet. He beats the hell out of my 70 year old dad sometimes. My mom has stage 4 cancer and yesterday my dad kept saying it would be a blessing if she died. Occasionally he hurts her physically in minor ways. She frequently talks to him in a mean voice and is critical of him in ways that seem wrong. He has his own apartment but he spends half the time here. There is more than that shit going on I just don't want to talk about that part. I am not hurting anyone but myself though. I don't have time to talk now cause I am going to smoke some more 25C-NBOME right now. I do not care that much if I actually do die in real life. I am pretty sure that I could smoke it all at once and survive, though I am sure it would be a hellish nightmare in the emergency room if I did that.

Post 5: The pipe is loaded. About to hit it. Another 60-120 seconds before blastoff!
 
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What? Are you trying to OD on that mix of meds? Seriously, get medical attention or get help asap if you really are suicidal or anything. I hope you're not serious. Killing yourself is a waste of a life, no matter what. You might be down and feeling bad but you are a valuable individual and ending your life will just throw that away. It's not worth it... if anything just dont decide to do so in such a low mind-frame -- just give things some time, try to clear your mind some and then see how things are before you do anything irrational.
 
You alright trypt?

Or just articulating what occured in this last experience.

Just a littled worried after following your oosts lmong before i modded DC under a previous pseudoname.
 
Damn take it easy on that 25C-Nbome Tryptdreamer. Alot of people have OD'ed on that shit it's not worth it dude. Alot people will miss you if you die. I know I would.

Anyway...we don't even have MMJ in Baltimore but still I have Blue Cheese, Cherry Cheesecake (dunno it's thats a real name but it's dank), Jack Herer, and Alaskan Thunderfuck. Well I just ran out of Jack Herer but I still have a quarter of west-coast quality weed. Unfortunately, we only get the good shit during the summer here and it's probably more expensive then dispensary weed.

Also, doing a few lines of heroin. Last night one fat line had me nodding hard due to a low tolerance. Morning dope + day off + bong hits of ATF = :D

Yum...today is a good day.
 
What a Day 8(

20mg MDPV via Nasal Spray
400µg Etizolam
100mg AH-7921 orally
200mg Tilidine
 
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What? Are you trying to OD on that mix of meds? Seriously, get medical attention or get help asap if you really are suicidal or anything. I hope you're not serious. Killing yourself is a waste of a life, no matter what. You might be down and feeling bad but you are a valuable individual and ending your life will just throw that away. It's not worth it... if anything just dont decide to do so in such a low mind-frame -- just give things some time, try to clear your mind some and then see how things are before you do anything irrational.
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I am extremely insensitive to benzos. I did not overdose on those things. I knew how much I used when I took them but I could not remember the doses because I was tripping so hard.

I intend to get rid of that arsenic and thallium before I do something bad with it. I don't want to die. If my death would solve all the problems between family members, I'd happily take my life. I know now that it would not stop their problems, just cause them pain. I also love my pets very much. All the people I have been around my whole life have been abusive, are being abused, or both. I have had very few friends in my life - my mom did not want me to have friends when I was growing. I did have two good friends as a kid. One of them was abused by the mother. My best friend's dad was an alcoholic. When he was drunk, he and his mother would get the hell beat out of them. This is really the only kind of people I have had in my life. It has had a very negative impact on me and I don't really know how to act normal around people. I feel almost like an alien trapped on the wrong planet. I've felt much like that since I was six years old.

I don't know why I just told you about all of that. It just feels like I need to get these feelings expressed and it just seems like I need to talk about the bad things that have happened and all the bad shit that is happening all around me now. I guess all that talk about being free when I thought I was dead is a reflection on how I feel stuck in this situation. I want to help with the problems. I freely talk about my problems and feelings. I have tried to get all these people to have a calm rational discussion but they only fight and insist they are the good one and all the problems are the other persons fault. I am stuck here. I hope I can get out of it for real instead of just escaping reality with drugs.

Now I am going to smoke a bit more of the 25C-NBOME. It should be clear from what I think is fairly normal by the way I am describing things. I want to dissolve again. There is no need to worry about me - I will be fine. If I feel any unease I will stop. Even if I smoked 10mg at once, I would probably live, although I could be wrong and I will never intentionally do that.

I did once take a massive overdose of DOI (I am not sure, but probably 50-75mg). I thought it was my diazepam powder but I was wrong. I spent the next 60+ hours having the worst trip of my life, screaming that I was dying frequently for hours. My blood pressure was somewhat high but not very bad but it was hellish.

Anyway, time for another hit. I intend to get even higher than in the first portion of the trip but I am going to dose in very small increments to minimize the risks. I know these doses are high, but I think it is fairly safe on the body. I did read a lot about it but that was quite some time ago - I am sure there is more info on this substance now that I really need to catch up on since I use and love it so much. It has mostly been really euphoric and it somehow seems more similar to LSD than any phenethylamine I have used. DOC was similar in that respect. Now I'll shut up and smoke.

Edit: Just one more thing - I don't know why the fuck I am not dead. I really should not be alive after all the things I have done to myself along with a couple of near death experiences. I am also told that I was extremely sick when I was about a year old with high fever. They had me in some kind of cooling tent and put ice on me, according to my mom. They did not know if I was going to live then.


Another thing: I believe I am a good person. I don't think that belief means I am narcissistic. If anyone disagrees with that view or you just think I am a bad person, I'd like to know (this is not directed at anyone). A lot of the time I want people to have a negative opinion of me because I think that is what I deserve. I really believe I am wrong to feel that way and I want to improve my life.

I'm going to start volunteering at the animal shelter because I have nothing to do and I really want to get away from the madness that surrounds me (yes, I know I am part of that madness. Everyone else thinks they are right and won't listen to my advice or have rational discussions with each other. I really need to get some time away from the house and I like animals. I thought at first that the smell would be so bad that I would be unable to do it but after a few minutes it became tolerable. I am not sharing this information because I want anyone to think I am a good guy, I am sharing that because it makes me happy and I wanted people to know that I feel happy. (I was at the animal shelter because we were adopting a cat) After I smoke this 25C-NBOME, I am going to my raccoon's room to play with him or let him lie on top of me or whatever the fuck he wants to do unless he is in one of his hyper moods - I can't deal with him jumping all over me and chewing on my hands and other body parts right now

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Damn take it easy on that 25C-Nbome Tryptdreamer. Alot of people have OD'ed on that shit it's not worth it dude. Alot people will miss you if you die. I know I would.

Anyway...we don't even have MMJ in Baltimore but still I have Blue Cheese, Cherry Cheesecake (dunno it's thats a real name but it's dank), Jack Herer, and Alaskan Thunderfuck. Well I just ran out of Jack Herer but I still have a quarter of west-coast quality weed. Unfortunately, we only get the good shit during the summer here and it's probably more expensive then dispensary weed.

Also, doing a few lines of heroin. Last night one fat line had me nodding hard due to a low tolerance. Morning dope + day off + bong hits of ATF = :D

Yum...today is a good day.
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I appreciate your concern. I am going to use high doses but I will just smoke a little at a time until it is just right, starts to feel like I should stop, or I get so high that I don't know how to smoke more. I only had 11mg out so I can't overdose too bad the way I am spacing the doses - I am extending the trip and I am about to produce another peak that I hope is better that the last one and likely will be given that I am now in an extremely positive state of mind.

I know I may be taking a risk but I really think I'll be okay if I do it like I plan. I do know that thinking I had died has had some kind of major impact on me - I am not sure exactly how it has affected me - kind of hard to put these emotions into words.
 
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Stay safe trypt, we would rather have you above ground than under it. I encourage volunteering @ the animal shelter.

I've been drinkin some dipa and smokin some spliffs today and feeling mighty fine because of it. I start my summer job tomorrow so it would be nice to have some sort of x factor to finish the night off with, but whatever happens is cool w/ me.
 
I'm feeling nicely opiated off of 50mg hydro with 50mg hydroxyzine and 300mg Lyrica, but my tolerance is catching up and I'm using it for pain relief/anxiety right now rather than using it to get high.

Also, my 2mg kpin and 0.5mg Ativan with the 300mg lyrica is kicking in nicely, making me nice and mellow :)

A morning cig and a long, skinny, dank trim joint has me nice and level-headed, the cherry on top :D
 
Jelly bout shoitingvcoke dogg. So badly want to have a mix of morphine n coke together. Have been dying to for a loooong time. Ive got a connect so perhaps i should put a little money aside and get a gram to have a nights bender, hit after hit. Proper like bender and some hardcore use.
 
some fire raw heroin
bowls of strawberry kush
cigs

nodding hard and enjoying delicious lucky charms
 
lol



like, 10mg of phenazepam


bout to take some shots late (not to worry, I only have 3 here.... not gonna OD lol. If I die, someone PM my parents have them dose ayahausca at my funeral. I'll be waiting, so don't piss me off!

gonna have a shot, followed my another whenever the fuck I want it then a tiny TINY bit of pheamzepam to end the night


yolo
 
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