Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
A large joint and a few beers.
How High Are You? v Here Take The Blue One.
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gorgoroth
Bluelighter
I did a bit of Cocaine my old room-mate left here, this stuff makes me feel quite well for maybe 20 minutes, then I get nervous and depressed.. reh, not the best drug around..
smokemctoke420
Bluelighter
2 mgs sub sniffed/plugged (lot of fucking powder so I plugged most of)
Bob Loblaw
Bluelight Crew
IV black mothafukkkkenz tar, more of that on the way. IV 2-MeO-ketamine tryna join the party %).
Commence pin the needle in the boblaw!@!!!!!1!!@2Z@
Oh and I got dip in
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Commence pin the needle in the boblaw!@!!!!!1!!@2Z@
Oh and I got dip in
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Bob Loblaw
Bluelight Crew
Thank you, bro;. I am fucking trying & dong pretty well at it/.
SOooo fucking high on dope
SOooo fucking high on dope
gorgoroth
Bluelighter
I'm having a beer, that cocaine earlier wasn't such a good time, maybe I'll cook a stirfry (wouldn't mind some 'tar' ..
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Whosajiggawaaa
Bluelighter
Done a scary amount of morphine but on the plus side ive done a little less oxy today!
High, warm hugging phase of the high has faded into extreme tired comfort. I fear i may be getting sick. OMG OMG OMG I CAN NOOOOOOOT GET gdSICK RIGJT NOOOW OMG OMG OMG.
Im typing on my annoying little fone keypad.
SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
Etizolam and spliff, brewing pod tea now. My buddy is on huge doses himself so he is letting me drive us around town in his audi. Shwing
Woodsong
Bluelighter
Just snorted a couple Roxi 30's... If I ever get these things again, it sure as hell won't be through this guy anymore. I swear to God the man's brain is stuck in opposite mode... 15 minutes means 51 minutes, if he says he's got em in his hand then you might as well just call it a day, I just ... URGH. I certainly don't need to get dependent on em again, but I seem to have this whole chipping thing under control pretty well, knock on wood...
Oh well, it doesn't matter anymore... I can already feel that familiar orgasmic afterglow creeping into my face, the one that got away come back to spend one more blissful night with me...
Mmmmmmmmm......
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Oh well, it doesn't matter anymore... I can already feel that familiar orgasmic afterglow creeping into my face, the one that got away come back to spend one more blissful night with me...
Mmmmmmmmm......
%)
Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
1 dos equis and a few joints
SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
Sorry, should have clarified. I went to my buddy's place where he was already trashed, then he let me chauffeur him to get more dr00gz, then we went back to his pad where I joined in the fun. I don't condone driving completely twacked.
So for tonight the recipe has been opiate (20 tablespoons of dried poppy pod powder turned into a tea) + benzo (1mg etizolam) + weed/tobacco (spliffs) + alcohol (some dank lambic, i don't care if it's a lady drink)
pretty much opiate/benzo/weed/alcohol in moderate doses is my favorite all-time pleasure combo so far. everything feels absolutely perfect, like i'm driving a rally car down california's route 1 on the nicest day of the year or something. fucking awesome! the only combo i could think of that might come close for me is dmt + maoi, but that's completely not comparable IMO.
truth be told i think that pod tea to opium is damn well analogous to oral & smoked weed. except for that it lasts a lot, lot longer of course. nothing like getting nature's supreme cocktail of alkaloids in one plant.
Tryptamine*Dreamer
Ex-Bluelighter
Ate 90mg hydrocodone, 2mg alprazolam, 150mg diphenhydramine, 225mg pregabalin (Lyrica), 300mg seroquel, 50mg trazadone, 12 valerian root pills, 6mg melatonin, and 800mg cimetidne to potentiate it about 3 hours ago.
Ate 30mg temazepam about an hour ago and plugged another 90mg hydrocodone less than 30min ago with another 200mg cimetidine and a 25mg promethazine suppository.
I had a miserable time the last 7-10 days because I ran out of hydrocodone and only had tramadol, which did not help the withdrawal enough.
My tolerance has diminished a lot. I am so fucked up right now.
Ate 30mg temazepam about an hour ago and plugged another 90mg hydrocodone less than 30min ago with another 200mg cimetidine and a 25mg promethazine suppository.
I had a miserable time the last 7-10 days because I ran out of hydrocodone and only had tramadol, which did not help the withdrawal enough.
My tolerance has diminished a lot. I am so fucked up right now.
Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
im baked off a fat, FAT vape bowl, and im still working on finishing the whole bowl.
MrSpeedyG
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Feel on the verge of slipping into amphetamine psychosis
If I needed any more of a reason to stop using amphetamine then this would have to be it, evil mother fucker of a substance I truly wish I never touched it, kudos to anyone who has the willpower to not abuse amphetamines when they have easy access to them. How many times I have vowed myself to stop... Sick of hearing my self saying it.
The past few weeks have been worse with use, while the amount I use isnt really that high comapred to some peoples abuse and my abuse isnt anywhere near close to what some people I have seen, its the lifestyle that accompanies it and not a day goes by where I havent thought about it, I get occasional days where I dont touch it but I typically last one sometimes two or three days without touching then belt it out again. But the past week especially, a few nights have become all night benders, and the nights I have slept have been of poor quality and for a few hours. Really I haven't been high for much of this time, I spend majority of my time on amphetamine actually feeling shit and scattered, sometimes I feel high but its a shit house high with a horrible comedown, really I spend most of my time coming down and never really high, I havent felt euphoric at all the most I ever feel is just "good" for a bit but really it feels like a wierd dopamine high and I know its nothing but articifical bullshit.
The thing is though my doses are lways low and I never push it at all to achieve euphoria - I know what doses I should use to get there, but I dont because of neurotoxicity concerns/dopamine depletion etc however I continuously spend day after day thinking I can use a low amounts to feel high but I never do just makes me feel shitty, yet the cycle goes on.
Basically what I am saying is I feel tweaked, shitty and depressed majority of the time and its been geting worse this past week as my use is escalating and my sleep just gets worse and worse to the point where whilst yeah I am not using mega doses but I am constantly chasing a high that wont come and always and I mean I am always on a dose that is just below where I need to feel high and as a result I feel comedowns straight away but wont dose any more to avoid neurotoxicity, its like non stop half assed attempt everyday.
The past few days though some nights not sleeping and some only a few hours of shit quality sleep, I've been noticing symptoms of psycosis occuring and comming out and also a slight sense of derealization/loosing grip on reality a little bit where I will just sit there spacing out thinking well isnt everything all just wierd the world we live in, then theres the auditory/visual hallucinations like seeing shit out of the corner of my eye also when I try to sleep being obviously in a dark room and in silence I've heard someone talk or music playing and it scares the fuck outta ya if you have neevr experienced that shit, last night some creepy fucker of a voice said my name and I jumped up and told myself its psycossi you dont need to be told what to do stop this drug now, I remember telling the voice outloud to "go fuck yourself you piece of shit cunt, I own this mind so stay out or I'll tear you a new asshole" and I remember the voice came back scared and said ok im going and dont remember hearing it again and sometimes feel like a panic attack is about to come and blast me out of nowhere but I manage to keep it under control.
If I needed any more of a reason to stop using amphetamine then this would have to be it, evil mother fucker of a substance I truly wish I never touched it, kudos to anyone who has the willpower to not abuse amphetamines when they have easy access to them. How many times I have vowed myself to stop... Sick of hearing my self saying it.
The past few weeks have been worse with use, while the amount I use isnt really that high comapred to some peoples abuse and my abuse isnt anywhere near close to what some people I have seen, its the lifestyle that accompanies it and not a day goes by where I havent thought about it, I get occasional days where I dont touch it but I typically last one sometimes two or three days without touching then belt it out again. But the past week especially, a few nights have become all night benders, and the nights I have slept have been of poor quality and for a few hours. Really I haven't been high for much of this time, I spend majority of my time on amphetamine actually feeling shit and scattered, sometimes I feel high but its a shit house high with a horrible comedown, really I spend most of my time coming down and never really high, I havent felt euphoric at all the most I ever feel is just "good" for a bit but really it feels like a wierd dopamine high and I know its nothing but articifical bullshit.
The thing is though my doses are lways low and I never push it at all to achieve euphoria - I know what doses I should use to get there, but I dont because of neurotoxicity concerns/dopamine depletion etc however I continuously spend day after day thinking I can use a low amounts to feel high but I never do just makes me feel shitty, yet the cycle goes on.
Basically what I am saying is I feel tweaked, shitty and depressed majority of the time and its been geting worse this past week as my use is escalating and my sleep just gets worse and worse to the point where whilst yeah I am not using mega doses but I am constantly chasing a high that wont come and always and I mean I am always on a dose that is just below where I need to feel high and as a result I feel comedowns straight away but wont dose any more to avoid neurotoxicity, its like non stop half assed attempt everyday.
The past few days though some nights not sleeping and some only a few hours of shit quality sleep, I've been noticing symptoms of psycosis occuring and comming out and also a slight sense of derealization/loosing grip on reality a little bit where I will just sit there spacing out thinking well isnt everything all just wierd the world we live in, then theres the auditory/visual hallucinations like seeing shit out of the corner of my eye also when I try to sleep being obviously in a dark room and in silence I've heard someone talk or music playing and it scares the fuck outta ya if you have neevr experienced that shit, last night some creepy fucker of a voice said my name and I jumped up and told myself its psycossi you dont need to be told what to do stop this drug now, I remember telling the voice outloud to "go fuck yourself you piece of shit cunt, I own this mind so stay out or I'll tear you a new asshole" and I remember the voice came back scared and said ok im going and dont remember hearing it again and sometimes feel like a panic attack is about to come and blast me out of nowhere but I manage to keep it under control.
Bob Loblaw
Bluelight Crew
MrSpeed, please start to mash the brakes, my friend. That's a bad road you seem to be going down, and no one wants that. I recommend you go to an NA meeting (or similar). Even if you don't buy into the programme, you can easily get a lot of people's numbers, and calling them is much better than wrecking your life.
IVed ~200mg 2-MeO-k, had the lights out, headphones on, nothing happened really :/. I fell asleep.
IVed ~200mg 2-MeO-k, had the lights out, headphones on, nothing happened really :/. I fell asleep.
SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
x2 on that, SpeedyG. You aren't enjoying it, so there's no point anymore. Best of luck.
I just smoked 2 back to back spliffs just in time for a nap. Goodnight Bluelight
I just smoked 2 back to back spliffs just in time for a nap. Goodnight Bluelight
MrSpeedyG
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I know I just want to stop, and what I hate most is as much as its psycological the thing that stops me from flushing all my amps down the toilet is that I think that I may someday in the future NEED them and its better to just hold onto them an not touch them, yet if I didnt have access to them I would completely stop use obviously but then I will feel that knowing I dont have them just there is a problem itself if that makes sense.
Yeah, man. They only really work for their intended purpose if you take only the dose prescribed, take breaks, and use the oral roa. I started taking it around the time that you did, and it still works great, just is subtle. You should try an alternate medicine.
As for me, weed, organic tobacco, a bit of coffee about an hour ago, and of course BL.
As for me, weed, organic tobacco, a bit of coffee about an hour ago, and of course BL.
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