EphemeralOutlet141
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Dec 11, 2014
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- 69
Yeah, I don't like how they make me feel anymore...they make me feel dysphoric and totally mentally/emotionally numb
Wasn't always that way...in my teens and early 20s I'd take one if someone offered me one, definitely, and I've even taken some of the rarer ones which were harder to find in the pre-internet age. But as I've gotten older I've come to the opinion that those drugs never really add anything, they just subtract. Which, in some cases, is actually good...if you're having a panic attack or experiencing terrifying drug-induced hallucinations, you may want to subtract from that experience! But if I'm just sitting around at home, having a normal day or what have you, they don't really serve any purpose other than to deaden my mind, mood, make me depressed etc.
Everybody's different, though, and they can be very effective medicine IMO, they're just not for me as far as enjoyment goes
I definitely see your point of view. If I go too hard with benzos I start getting one of their worst side effects, being suicidal ideation. If I keep it in check though I'm on top of the world. I'm a naturally intense and paranoid person so a little removal of inhibitions does me a lot of good.