it makes me empathize with those who are bipolar.... the thought of deciding to go on it makes me insta-super-happy-excited but then a thought about contemplating and deciding to maybe not take it is insta-super-depressing lol
TBH I never get that excited when I'm picking up pills, because I always pick up wayy ahead of time (because I'm always paranoid I won't be able to get any when it gets closer hehe :B).
So since it's going to be a while until I actually take them, I don't even think about them much.
I get super excited, as it's a rare occasion that I have access to E.
The other side of the coin would be how you feel when you LOSE pills, which I did the other day. We had 6 pills that somehow ended up in the trash. Luckily we found them, but those were the most terrifying 5 minutes of my life!