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how do you know when youre "addicted"?

stonedpenguin

stonedpenguin

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first off, i have a pretty addictive personality.
x is probably the "hardest" drug i've ever done (the others are weed, dxm, vicodin, xanax, valium..)
when i first started rolling, i rolled every weekend for a month. i really love the feeling ecstasy gives you.
i've take month long breaks before, so i know i'm capable of stopping myself.

now, i don't have connects anymore.
i am pretty desperate to get some, i've asked everyone that could possibly get me any and no one can. (i am pretty young, and idk anyone my age that rolls besides my friends which all used to get it from me..)
i sometimes have dreams about ex and lately i've been thinking about it a looot, like about my past experiences with it and stuff.

idk if this just means i really like it, or if it's an addiction forming.
i'm just scared that once i find someone that can get it for me, i'll get waaay too obsessed.
please help! (:
 
I think about my rolls, but addiction to me is not something thats gonna happen.

If you cannot function with popping an E pill, you're addicted. If you wake up, and can't think of anything else but E, you're addicted.

You're just wanting a good time, like me and most other people. Control your urges, and stick to at least spacing out by a month. If not, you'll lose the magic anyway.

Stay safe
 
An addiction to MDMA would be you taking recreational doses of MDMA EVERY DAY. Rolling every weekend is in no way an addiction. Although, you might want to slow your roll a little, and have bigger breaks in between rolls. take vitamins and 5HTP

I really have not heard of anybody being addicted to MDMA.. I think it's because it releases so much serotonin, taking more MDMA regularly on a day to day basis wouldn't really give you the rolling feeling anymore, because you only have so much serotonin in your brain at one time you know?

Also, I am interested if MDMA is physically addicting? like would withdrawals be experienced after rolling daily for an extended period of time? does anybody know anyone that's really addicted to MDMA? as in dosing every day
 
Meh, when I first started I felt a bit addicted, wait until you get a bit of a tolerance, it starts to get more boring each and every time and at the end of the night you're just depressed you didn't get as high. When anyone is first introduced to it, it's the best thing in the world, if it's the best thing in the world, you're always going to want it, but let me tell you something, pretty soon you will have the worst feelings in the world when you're not on it. I hope this scares you away from using it that often... These are the feelings I have when I'm NOT on it:

- Depression
- Anxiety
- Derealization (You know that "dreamy" feeling you get when you're on it? Yeah, it's ALWAYS there when you're not using it, trust me I've contemplated suicide many times because the feeling is so annoying)
- Your sober life just isn't as fun as it is when you're on X, meaning you're basically left emotionless, nothing is sad, funny, etc.
- You have to live with knowing all of the damage you've done to your brain, all of the damage that takes sometimes YEARS to repair, yeah.

I hope that gives you a basic idea on why you shouldn't do it every week, and hopefully that turns your mental addiction around and kicks it in the ass. Trust me everything I've said is true and I'm sure many users can vouch it.

P.S to help cope with some of those effects, take L-DOPA and 5-HTP, it helps a lot. Don't take seratonin boosters without dopamine boosters though, can't remember why but apparently it's not that good of an idea (that is if you're taking it regularly)
 
mdma isnt goin anywheres, thats what i tell myself when my connect disapears. it'll always be around dude just look forward to the next time u roll haha
 
stonedpenguin said:
dude that's so wise.. :)
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another way to think of it is MDMA will find you when your ready to roll again. I swear that;s how it was with LSD and me. hadn't even thought of trippin on the stuff in forever, and out of nowhere my friend appears with a 10 strip ands like"lets all trip"

Also, it takes self control, but when you know the pills are bad pills, don't take them just because you want to roll that bad, wait till really good ones come around
 
this subject has been on my mind ever since my last roll, which was four months ago. i rolled ballz, and it was literally the best night of my life.

similar to your situation, i no longer have a reliable connection despite my best efforts to find one. i think about MDMA a lot, like almost daily, reminiscing of my last experience.. and never is this truer than when i hear rave music, or anything that reminds me of rolling. sometimes i'll just daydream about it too.. the eye wiggles and all that good stuff.

but am i "addicted"? i feel that it's perfectly normal to get urges every couple of months, because i know that i'm using the drug responsibly and safely. if i was truly desperate to obtain pills to fulfill a physical addiction, i could have gotten them by some means. i respect the drug too much to ever let myself abuse it, i just really wanna do it again because it's been 4 months..
 
I used to have a rolling problem, but here's how I overcame it:

obviously, you love rolling like I do. I beleive everyone has THEIR drug, and for some, MDMA just fits. The way to deal with a rolling problem is to look at it from this standpoint; if you roll to much, it won't enjoy it as much. So make ecstacy something special by saving it for certain parties, events, etc. That way it becomes something to look forward to, instead of becoming the usual. And in between these times of rolling, do things that don't affect your rolling like weed.
 
I don't think mdma is physically addictive, but it can be psychologically addictive.

I'd say the definition of addiction is deciding that you should stop/slow down, but don't/can't.

I agree that too much mdma is sort of self-limiting because the effects get weaker (and disappointing) the more you do it. So it is good to keep it slow so you can enjoy it.
 
Addicted/non-addicted is a false dichotomy. There is a continuum of varying levels of dependence that exists, I would suspect that most people fall somewhere in between rather than all the way at the extremes.
 
I think this is fairly common especially with newer users - its so easy to think/dream about your next roll/rave etc. I personally dont think its about addiction it just feels so great that you look forward to it.
 
Ive been mentally addicted to e before i used to be addicted to alot of drugs but i would roll three times a week for three months thank god it didnt cause any damage to my brain tht i no bout. i used to dream bout it read about every pill read every post on here i even made a book bout every e pill n wut was in it n the report thankfully now i can controll myself
 
There's a difference between being 'addicted' and being 'dependent'.

Myself, for example, I could easily say I'm 'addicted' to drugs in general, I think about them all the time, I read about them all the time, I love trying new drugs, I dabble with this and than fairly often, however I'm not 'dependent' on anything. I don't need any sort of daily fix, I don't feel withdrawals towards anything, I can function just fine without anything in my system, I can run out of drugs without freaking out....etc...

Don't take that lightly though. Mental addiction could be just as bad if not worse than physical dependence. Being mentally addicted to something leads to depression, anxiety, feeling like you can't have a good time without drugs, etc.. My suggestion is to take a break from rolling, as in a LONG break, 6+ months. Go to parties, go to social events, go have a good time SOBER, or just drink lightly or smoke weed if you must get a buzz on. you'll eventually re-train your brain to realize it can have a good time without MDMA. :)

Take it from me, I'm right there with you. Even though I don't roll often, maybe 3-4 times a year. I haven't even been rolling long, only the past ~2 years, I can count my rolls on two hands. However, for some reason, I feel like I've already lost the magic and I always have that thought in the back of my head "This would be more fun if I was rolling...". I'm trying real hard to shake this...

Take some 5-HTP and vitamin C to help restore any chemical imbalances caused by MDMA.
 
Yeh i lost my connect n it was probly the best thing for me i took a year long break rely helped me out now
 
If the thought of getting high is that present in your mind then you probably have a psychological addiction going on. I would probably look at things being dry as a good thing for now lol.
 
StrutterGear said:
I think about my rolls, but addiction to me is not something thats gonna happen.

If you cannot function with popping an E pill, you're addicted. If you wake up, and can't think of anything else but E, you're addicted.

You're just wanting a good time, like me and most other people. Control your urges, and stick to at least spacing out by a month. If not, you'll lose the magic anyway.

Stay safe
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Id watch how i talk struttergear, saying addiction is something thats not gonna happen is like asking for it. for real ive done a fair amount of psychoactives in my day and always used to say that, its not just about the chemical, its about your current situation and mindstate, for instance ive done a shit ton of opitates (including heroin) spaced out without any addiction problem and stopped altogether for about two years and then one day when things were going shitty in my life i did some heroin and spiraled downhill so fast it made me want to throw up lol
 
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